Kaya andito ako sa drugstore ngayon nakiki-internet. Halos kagigising ko lang at mahigit 12 hours akong tulog kanina! Hahaha... ang tawag dito ayon sa computer ethics ay Resource Theft! Ang paggamit ng resource ng company sa pansariling kapakanan! Hahaha... sana mamaya may internet na sa bahay para masaya! Update you soon!

Matagal na dapat tong entry na toh Mr. T! Pero eto na, popost ko na. Hahaha… para naman masaya ang mga unang post ko for September. Presenting --- our dogs! Whheee…

O di ba? Kunwari behave sila?

Siyempre, kailangan, kasama ako sa pic! Hahaha…

Yorky

• Binigay siya sa amin ng isa naming Tita. May kapatid siya actually and nasa tita namin yung kapatid ni Yorky. Yorkshire Terrier na Askal yan si Yorky. Sadly, patay na si Yorky. At ayoko idetail paano siya namatay. Ilang months bago kami nakaget-over sa pagkamatay ni Yorky. Ang galing pa naman ni Yorky magbalance dati sa bola. Sana nasa Dog Heaven na siya ngayon…

Prince

• As soon as namatay si Yorky, bumili Ate ko ng bagon aso kasi kapatid ko di pa rin matigil sa kaiiyak sa pagkamatay ni Yorky. Si Prince ay isang Poodle. Malandi si Prince. Parang laging gusto mangagat pero hindi pa siya nakakagat talaga ng tao. Feeling matapang lang. Marunong si Prince magSit, Roll, Crawl, Talk and Shake Hands! Hahaha…

Kootchie

• Binigay siya ng friend ni Mama bago siya yumao. Nagkacancer kasi yun eh and wala na siya. Alam niyang mahal namin mga aso and sa palagay niya magiging maganda kalagayan sa amin ni Kootchie. Sobrang parang tao si Kootchie. Gusto niya lagi siyang nilalambing and minamahal. Si Kootchie nga pala ay isang Shi Tsu. Parang pang princess ugali ni Kootsie grabe! Wala siyang alam kung hindi kumain, matulog at magpalambing. Sobrang regal na aso.

Spike

• Binigay ng friend naman ni Ate si Spike. Dapat yung kapatid ni Spike na si Beauty ang nasa amin ngayon. Kaso, namatay si Beauty. Malikot si Spike. Minsan pinapalo ko na yan sa sobrang kalikutan. Pero ngayon, natututo na, pagtinitignan ko nagbebehave na siya! Throw anything at him and ibabalik niya sa yo yun. Si Spike ay isang Cocker Spaniel. At super gaslaw ni Spike! Grabe! Hahaha…

Yan… okay ba Mr. T!? Kilala mo na mga aso namin? Hahaha… actually kilala mo naman siya since may mga entries ako about them dati pero walang pics at isa isa dahil hindi naman sila sabay sabay na dumating. Buti pa tong mga toh they love me back. Ayun, grabe 12 hours akong tulog! Ano ba ito! Natatakot pa ko sa internet connection ngayon dahil paputol putol. Update you soon!

Ayan Adrich! Pinost ko na yung post cards na pinadala mo! Grabe! Sobrang nagulat ako nung dumating yan sa bahay. Sa susunod dapat cash na yan! Or or… Pantene! Hahaha… sobrang salamat. Mababaw ako alam mo yun. Sobrang saya ko nung natanggap ko yan at at natawa dun sa ‘SUSHAL’! Hahaha…

Kaya mga nagbabasa nito, gawin niyong friend si Aldrich dali! Marami kayong makukuhang benefits diyan! Hahaha… wala pang isang buwan at sa Singapore yan grabe may post cards na agad ako! Naku, hihintayin ko maka one year yan sa Singapore. Baka libre na pagpunta dun! Galing ko talaga mamili ng friends! Hahaha… anyways salamat ulit. :-)

So kung feeling ko special ako, sabi mo nga, oo! Dahil alam kong super busy siya dun sa Singapore nagawa niya pang bilhan at maghulog, magsulat ng postcards para sa kin! Hahaha… at at dahil ako’y isang DIVA! :-P

Joking aside, super thanks (thanks na may cape and powers yan!). Hintayin mo yung padadala ko :-D

jjcobwebb

Spotted, M and a stranger seated right next to each other on a public transpo. A smile can make a difference I see. After 2 years of being chaste, will M finally be un-chaste? We'll never know (but I know) --- and who are they? That's a secret I'll never tell..

Hello Mr. T! Hahaha... saya, baket ganyan title ko? Akin na lang yun! Hahaha! Ayun, puros 3 ako ngayon sa course cards. Anyways, ayun, galing akong school. Mga afternoon na ko pumunta. Tapos ayun andun si Matty. Tapos si Deck sumunod. Salamat sa Diyos at wala na kong programming subject ever! It's done! Mwahahaha....! Pero leche may thesis pa rin ako. Huhuhu... so yun, after hintayin si Ms. Kiran hindi naman siya lumabas ulit. Amp! Tapos si Matty may storyang di ko kinaya! Tumambling ako talaga Mr. T! Panalo talaga yung kuwento niya. Kailangan siya bigyan ng award eh. Sabi ko nga sa kanya --- POWERFUL niya. Hahaha! Then si Deck din nakibalita kay Matty. Then tumambay kami sa Starbucks. Hahaha... tapos naalala namin yung pogi na kumuha ng envelope na hawak ko sa Gox kanina. Sayang wala na kami sa Gox, dinare ako ni Matty na kunin ko name at number! Hahaha... sobrang naalala ko yung guy na yun! Siya yung kalbo na pogi na lalong pumogi dahil sa buhok niya ngayon! Hahaha... masaya talaga pag course cards day! Umuulan na sa labas literally, umuulan pa ng hot at pogi sa DLSU! Hahaha! After magStarbucks dapat dadaan ako Cubao para tignan kung kelan puwedeng bumili ng ticket for ADMU vs. DLSU. Pero tinamad ako! Ang dami kasing tao sa LRT2 eh! Hahaha... tapos yun eto nasa bahay na. Hmmm... at at pilot episode ng Gossip Girl Season 2 ngayon! Wahh... search search muna ko sa internet ngayon Mr. T! Tapos pahihiramin ako ni Tin ng DVD ng How I Met Your Mother. So bali yun pagkakaabalahan ko ngayong bakasyon. Hmmm... sige sige yan muna update ko Mr. T! :-)

You know you love me...

XOXO,

Hello Mr. T! Famiiliar ba ang isang word diyan sa title ko? Yep, nagkita kami ni Mike ngayon. Yep, I used to call him Bodyguard here on my blog but not anymore. We’re friends now and I think that’s better. Hmmm… ayun, it was a spur of the moment that we both decided to meet up in Starbucks sa Gateway. Kanina lang yun actually Mr. T! Kauuwi ko lang. It was fun talking and bonding with Mike again after more than one month of not seeing each other. We tried catching up with each other’s stories kanina Mr. T! Wala lang, parang mas masaya kanina nung nag-uusap kami. Walang naghohold back and walang nagtatry maging mabait or what. It’s like we’ve been friends for so long na sobrang comfortable kaming nag-uusap kanina. Weird lang, it was a better Mike I was talking to awhile ago. Really. No joke. Mas okay talaga kesa nung nagSerendra kami, Promenade, DLSU at kung san san pa noon. Walang inhibitions whatsoever. Sobrang spontaneous and comfortable ni Mike kanina. Tawanan lang kami ng tawanan tapos kuwentuhan about sa mga latest updates sa buhay namin. As usual picture taking since dala na naman ni Mike yung digicam niya. Nakakatuwa dahil kahit na we didn’t end up being together, we’re still friends. At kahit alam kong umasa at nalungkot si Mike before, wala na yun kasi meron na siyang “Chris”. Yep, yun lang naman ang pangalan ng kanyang boo! Amp! Buti pa siya may Chris! Hahaha! Pero I won’t talk about what’s going on between him and his Chris. Sobrang complicated kung ikukuwento ko dito. Sobrang fun Mr. T! kanina. Honestly, mas okay yung pagkikita namin kanina kesa sa mga previous meet ups namin ni Mike Mr. T! Mas relax talaga and fun kanina. Weird lang, hindi ko alam baket nagseselos boo niya sa kin. Baket niya ayaw ipapost kay Mike mga pics namin sa Multiply eh friends lang naman kami? Hmmm… anyways. I had fun. It was fun. It’s nice to be friends with Mike Mr. T! Mas okay siguro toh di ba? :-) 

As usual kasintangkad pa rin ng pader si Mike! Hahaha! Anyways, ang diva ni Mike! Late ng 30 minutes! Amp! Hindi ako naghintay sa Starbucks dahil ang daming bakla and alam mo naman Mr. T! na hindi ako comfortable pag maraming bading sa paligid --- so sa Shopwise ako naghintay! Hahaha… habang kumakain ng Sponge! Hahaha… ayun tapos dumatin si Mike sa Starbucks at sumunod na lang ako Mr. T! Thanks kay Mike dahil wala na kong panTaxi kanina. Wala na rin jeep. Hahaha… sinagot niya pangcab ko at take note hinatid pa ko niyan sa terminal ng jeep ha! Yun. It was nice to see Mike again. Yep yep, I had fun. Mas masaya yung  effortless na Mike! Hahaha! Hay… buti pa siya may Chris na! Ay ay minumulto raw bahay ni Mike ngayon! Yikes! Ayun, update you soon Mr. T! :-) Naisip ko lang... Chris din name ng jowa ni Rej... pota!!!!

Sa Cab:

Driver   : Intsik ka ba?
Jacob   : Ay hindi ho, eyebags lang yan! Hindi na ho kasi ako natutulog! Hahaha!

Conversation With Mike:

Mike    : Ang cute mo pala lalo ngayon
Jacob   : Hahaha... hindi naman masyado... hahaha...

P.S. Gusto kanina gayahin ni Mike smile ko! Hahaha… he wasn’t able to do it! Hahaha…

jjcobwebb

This is soooo random.

Naalala ko lang nung kasama ko si mahiwagang friend (talking about his straight friends nung nagkita kita sila) ko sa MOA:

Mahiwagang Friend     : Grabe Jacob, hindi ko talaga kinakaya nung pinapakita nila sa cellphone nila yung mga boobs at pinag-uusapan nila puros babae...
Jacob     : Naku hirap talaga ng role mo! Sana nakisabi ka na lang ng "Oo nga ang sarap si squish at hawakan at blah blah blah --- yak!". Hahaha....
Mahiwagang Friend     : Yak! Allergic tayo jan alam mo naman!
Jacob     : Oo nga, hirap ng role mo! Hahaha...

Kwento naman ng isa kong kaibigan na itago natin sa initial na M:

M       : Grabe, andun yung friend niya sa kama rin
Jacob   : Hay, naku, hindi tulog yun! Nakikiramdam yun!
M       : Ay naku, wala kong paki...
Jacob   : Naku, dapat nag-Threesome na kayo! Hahaha...
M       : Yak! Ang bakla bakla nung friend niya! Hahaha...
Jacob   : Oo nga naman, matulog na lang siya!

Isang OA na nagbabasa ng blog ko. Hahaha...:

Reader   : i like like like the way you write your posts
Reader   : natural na natural lang
Subtle Bliss : salamat
Subtle Bliss : mas masarap magsulat ng ganun eh
Subtle Bliss : thanks thanks
Reader   : grabe.. buti na lng di ako nasstarstruck ngaun
Reader   : hehehe
Subtle Bliss : baket?
Reader   : syempre..
Reader   : sa kakakabasa ko kaya ng posts mo.. para ka nang celebrity sa paningin ko
Reader   : kaya un..
Subtle Bliss : GAGA

Hahaha... babalik ako mamaya! Hahaha...

jjcobwebb

The Mountain Gods gave us our powers. We stayed on the mountains more days than you that's why you're just an 80% Goddess. In order for you to be a 100% Goddess like us, level yourself up by doing the following:

• Spend another out-of-town with us. Yep, this time, you go home when we go home  (20% Magical Exp.)
• Tell something we do not know about you (20% Magical Exp.)
• Sing songs that are out of your range (15% Magical Exp.)
• No more skin problems (15% Magical Exp.)
• Sing naked infront of us (10% Magical Exp.)
• Timezone card worth 1000 (5% Magical Exp.)

However, you can be demoted if you do the following:

• Talking about something we're allergic to (-20% Magical Exp.)
• More skin problems (-15% Magical Exp.)
• Body odor (-10% Magical Exp.)
• Fighting with 100% immortal (-10% Magical Exp.)
• Telling jokes we don't find funny (-2% Magical Exp.)

Note:

• 49% is still a Nymph. 50% makes you a Goddess. 0% makes you a Koko Crunch
  
• Only 100% immortals can be summoned
  
• You can't be summoned even if you're 99.9% Goddess
  
• If you're just 80% immortal, then you're 20% Wheat
• Remember that a Nymph can immediately be demoted to being a Koko Crunch
  
• And remember about Virtual Presence
  

Comments? Violent reactions? Summon the Supreme Goddess. You can only summon the Supreme Goddess once.

jjcobwebb

Kung sino man ang siyang may-ari ng yong puso. Ang bawat pangalan, kalaro, kaibigan, iisa pa lamang ang minahal ko ng ganito. Ganda noh?

Sayang Mr. T! Nagconference kami nina Jeff and Rhitz kanina. Sayang wala si Barry. Kumpleto na sana. Ayun, sobrang ganda ng Gossip Girl season 2 episode 1. Aliw ako sobra. Hmmm... yun lang actually nangyari ngayon. Hahaha... yak ang aga ko dapat magising bukas Mr. T! Kainis! Dapat magkikita kami ng pare kong si Barry kanina kaso tinatamad talaga ko umalis. Hahaha...

Anyways yan lang talaga update ko. Buti naman talaga yung pagmomove-out ni Rhitz hindi natuloy dahil alam kong hindi pa siya ready. Buti naman. So yun muna. Sabi nga ni Cherry Pie sa palabas: "busy busihan kunwari para di malungkot!" Hahaha... sige sige...

Quotable Quotes sa GG:

Blair : A hot lifeguard is like Kleenex, use once and throw away...

Dan : I haven't been able to get you out my head all summer... (aw!)

Blair : You know how hard it is to find a fake boyfriend on a short notice?

Blair: ...the true reason why I should stay right where I am. I'm not getting in the car. 3 words, 8 letters. Say it and I'm yours...
Chuck: I...I... I...
Blair: Thank you, that's all I needed to hear *rides car*

I just wanna share this cute thing. It’s an Add On for Mozilla Firefox. It lets users access most frequent visited websites easily by simply pressing the number designated to the websites. Press a number, poof! You’re there! It’s really nice. Hahaha… try downloading it.

Here’s a screenshot:

Websites shown on my Speed Dial are the following:

1. Tabulas
2. Subtle Bliss
3. Friendster
4. Multiply
5. Facebook
6. Yahoomail
7. Friends of Mariah Carey Message Board
8. Classic Whitney Message Board
   
9. Divadom Message Board
   

And yeah, there’s this new browser by Google named Chrome. Imma try it one of these days. Good night Mr. T!

jjcobwebb

Once a lady when having a conversation with her lover, asked:

Lady : Why do you like me..? Why do you love me?

Man : I can't tell the reason.. but I really like you..

Lady : You can't even tell me the reason... how can you say you like me? How can you say you love me?

Man : I really don't know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.

Lady : Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend's boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you!

Man : Ok..ok!!! Erm... because you are beautiful,

because your voice is sweet,

because you are caring,

because you are loving,

because you are thoughtful,

because of your smile,

because of your every movements.

The lady felt very satisfied with the man's answer.

Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident
and went in comma.

The Guy then placed a letter by her side, and here is the
content:

Darling,

Because of your sweet voice that I love you...

Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.

Because of your care and concern that I like you..

Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.

Because of your smile,

because of your every movements that I love you..

Now can you smile? Now can you move?

No, therefore I cannot love you...

If love needs a reason, like now,

There is no reason for me to love you anymore.

Does love need a reason? NO!

Therefore, I still love you... And love doesn't need a
reason

"Sometimes the best and
the most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, cannot be
touched, but can be felt in the heart "

jjcobwebb

by: Rico Abelardo

Mangyari lamang ay tumayo ang mga nagmamahal
Nang makita ng lahat ang mukha ng pag-ibig
Ipamalas ang tamis ng malalim na pagkakaunawaan
Sa mga malabo ang paningin.

Mangyari lamang na tumayo rin ang mga nagmahal at nasawi
Nang makita ng lahat ang mga sugat ng isang bayani
Ipadama ang pait ng kabiguan
Habang ipinagbubunyi ang walang katulad
Na kagitingan ng isang nagtaya.

Mangyari lamang ay tumayo ang mga nangangambang magmahal
Nang makita ng lahat ang kilos ng isang bata
Ipamalas ang katapatan ng damdamin na pilit ikinukubli
Ng pusong lumaki sa mga engkanto't diwata.

Mangyari lamang na tumayo ang nagmahal, minahal at iniwan
Ngunit handa pa ring magmahal
Nang makita ng lahat ang yaman ng karanasan
Ipamalas ang katotohanang nasaksihan
Nang maging makahulugan ang mga paghahagulhol sa dilim.

At sa mga nanatiling nakaupo
Mangyari lamang ay dahan-dahang tumalilis
Palabas sa nakangangang pinto
Umuwi na kayo!
At sumbatan ang mga magulang
Na nagpalaki ng isang halimaw.

At sa lahat ng mga nakaiwang nakatayo
Mangyari lamang na hagkan ang isa't isa
At yakapin ang mga sugatan
Mabuhay tayong lahat
Na nagsisikap makabalik sa ating pinagmulan
Manatiling masaya at higit sa lahat
Magpatuloy sa pagmamahal.

jjcobwebb

Hello Mr. T! Nagtatayp ako ngayon ng report ng kapatid ko! O di ba ang bait kong kuya! Hahaha! Pero blog muna ko, hmmm... ayun, kauuwi lang namin kanina from Tiendesitas kasama family and mga employees sa drugstore. Wala namang occasion. Trip lang namin kumain sa labas. Kanina, though, maraming beses na kaming omoorder ng talaba pag kumakain kami minsan sa labas, kanina ko lang talaga siya natikman ng buong buo. Grabe... hahaha... wala akong masabi. Mahilig ata talaga ako sa mga raw. Nagustuham ko siya in fairness! Ilang attempts bago ko nakain pero di lumaon, masarap pala siya. Parang tahong lang. Ayun, natulog after lunch tapos ginising nung paalis na papuntang Tiendesitas! Hahaha! Sarap ng buhay ko tulog ng tulog! So yun muna Mr. T!

Habang kumakain ng talaba:

Bruno   : Hakob, aphrodisiac yan...
Jacob   : Talaga, paano naman naging aphrodisiac toh
Bruno   : Yung itsura niya...
Jacob   : *Pinansin maigi itsura* Yak! Anong aphrodisiac? Nakakawalang gana nga lalo! Hahaha!
*Tawanan sina mama and ate*

Napansin ko lang Mr. T!, at alam mo namang pakielamero ako. Habang tinitignan ko mga pictures namin ni Mike kanina,  may napansin akong dalawang lalaki sa likod ko nung nasa Starbucks kami ni Mike. Hahaha… magjowa ba sila or magkaibigan? Kung magjowa man sila, good luck, magbebreak din kayo! Hahah! Joke lang! Hahaha…

I remember, a friend asked me: “Baket puros fairytale movies nasa iPod mo?”. I answered: “Kasi nawawala problema ko pagpinapanood ko yan. Sumasaya ko kahit sandali. Ikaw naniniwala ka ba sa fairytales”. He answered: “Nope, pambata yun, baket ikaw?”. I replied: “Yep, hindi ako magsasawang maniwala…”

Got this article here. This best explains why I never and don’t want to stop believing in fairytales Mr. T! :-

Do you believe in fairytales; Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy or even the Easter Bunny? Each of our daily lives revolves around real life situations, real people and real problems. Though it might sound silly, believing in what seems unreal can make everything so simple. Fairytales seem childish but in reality fantasy is a state of mind that can be made real if you believe hard enough. Achieving what most believe is impossible is done by those who don’t believe in impossible but rather believe in fairy tales. Their thoughts are not about failure but rather success and how to obtain it.   Successful people move forward eliminating all negative thoughts and disregarding the comments of those that say it can’t be done.

Children don’t question why, they just believe. Santa Claus is not a figment of their imagination but rather someone we as adults taught them to have faith in. The Tooth Fairy, though never seen, is real in the mind of a child. Why? It’s because adults taught them to have faith.    Why is it that when we grow up we lose that same faith we had as a child?   We lose it and gain nothing in return but worry and limitations. We worry about the simplest things that could easily be resolved with a little faith and a little less thinking.   Thought, however, is a good thing but only in the positive sense. Set goals and devise the proper method that will allow you to achieve them. Too much thinking, trying to understand what can’t be understood will stop a person in his or her tracks.

Everything we do is a gamble. Everyday we take risks just by getting out of bed. The amount of risks we take dictate how successful we will be. Be conservative, believe in what others want you to believe and you will maintain a stable life but probably won’t be happy. Go out on a limb, believe the world is round and discover America. Fear is not real but rather something we gain from observation and listening to others. Take a gamble; find out the true answer for yourself. Defy what is known, discover the truth and find that fantasy has no limitations in life.

We look for the perfect mate, the perfect friend and the perfect job yet we never look at what we have at the time and find perfection. In our minds there is always something better and we strive to find it. It’s a fantasy that we want to believe and we allow it to impede our progress in life. In reality most times the fairy tale relationship or dream job that we are looking for is staring us right in the face. Look at what you have and find the good in it. It is a gamble and the risk is that no one is perfect and no one job will make you happy. However, if you have faith, find the good things in what you have and make the best of them your fantasy will become reality without searching at all.

I truly believe there is a Santa Claus, a Tooth Fairy and an Easter Bunny. They are not real in the physical sense yet they live in each of our hearts. Despite any problems in our lives at the time every Christmas we smile, we laugh and we live in anticipation of one day. Santa Claus is not a person but rather a spirit that comes alive in each of us every year.   He gives us hope, joy and allows us to expand our horizons and see the beauty in everyone and everything around us. It’s only one day but if we believe we can easily make it 365 days.   Believe in fairy tales and defy the impossible. I can assure you nothing will ever overwhelm you again.

I am a different guy when I run as compared to when I work and when I’m alone. In order to run the distances I have in the past I refuse to allow reality in my life at all. At work I am a responsible, dedicated person with a position that has no room for anything other than reality. When I’m alone my mind wanders and my thoughts lean in the direction of how others perceive me. I allow those thoughts to limit my actions because I’m afraid to take a risk and find out the true answer for myself.   In the future this will no longer be the case. I believe in fairytales and my fairytale will come true. I hope through my writing others may also see that life can be easier with a little faith.

jjcobwebb

Warning: Mature Content!

Okay! Nanood ako ng X-Tube! Masama? Wag kayo magmalinis! Hahaha! Pero pero pero Mr. T!, may nakita kong video na nagulat talaga ko! Sobrang kilala ko yun guy na nandun sa pinanood kong video. Tulala ako the whole time!!!! Kasi kasi... naalala ko, siya yung naDo nung isa kong friend. At paano ko alam na siya yun? Well, etong friend ko na toh, hinatid ko dati dun sa Espanya kasi hindi niya alam yung lugar na yun. Fine, alam kong SEB yun at konsintidor akong friend! Pero kailangan niya madiligan that time! Hahaha! Tapos, eto malupit, kasama ako ng friend ko na ito hanggang gate nung guy, pagkabukas ng gate, nakita ko yung mukha ng nakaDo niya! Taga UST yung guy, matangkad, chinito at maputi. OMG! Siya yung nasa video Mr. T! Sigurado akong siya yun!!! Siya yun!!! At yung nick niya sa X-Tube, nick niya rin dun sa site kung san siya nakilala ng friend ko! At take note, may sarili siyang Channel kung san featured mga guy na mga nakaDo niya! Natatakot ako, baka thing ng kaibigan ko yung pinapanood ko kaninang nilalapa niya! Wahhh...

9 years old	After 13 years

Or else, I’m doomed forever…. Hahaha…

Ang boring ng buhay, pero I would like to thank my sponsors na rin: Pond’s, Biolink, Likas Papaya, Colgate, Close-Up, Oral-B, Ysa Papaya, Dr. Wong’s Sulfur Soap, Magic Cream, Mena, Nivea, Neutrogena, St. Ive’s, The Body Shop, sa mga dentistang bumunot sa mga ngipin ko, sa mga dermang binutas mukha ko at salamat naman talaga nagbabago mukha ng tao! Hahahaha… parang puros pampaputi ginamit ko ah! At baket parang gumanda ngipin ko eh hindi naman ako nagpabrace? Yan ang nagagawa ng bum Mr. T! Lahat napapansin! Hahaha…

Hmmmm… ano kaya magiging itsura ko pag mayaman na ko? *Thinks*

jjcobwebb

Just wanna share this Mr. T! As you know, I love love Feist. One of those indie artists I can listen to without skipping tracks. Did nothing today Mr. T! Anyways, here's The Limit To Your Love...

Feist - The Limit To Your Love

Clouds part
Just to give us a little sun

There's a limit to your love
Like a waterfall in slow motion
Like a map with no ocean
There's a limit to your love

There's a limit to you care
So carelessly there
Is it truth or dare
There's a limit to your care

I love I love I love
This dream of going upstream
I love I love I love
The trouble that you give me
I know I know I know
That only I can save me
I'll go I'll go I'll go
Right down the road

There's a limit to your love
Like a waterfall in slow motion
Like a map with no ocean
There's a limit to your love
Your love your love your love

I can't read your smile
It should be written on your face
I'm piecing it together
There's something out of place
Oh

I love I love I love
This dream of going upstream
I love I love I love
All the trouble that you give me
I know I know I know
That only I can save me
I'll go I'll go I'll go
Out on the road

Because there is no limit
There's no limit
No limit no limit no limit
Limit to my love

jjcobwebb

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you snicker
I hate it when you ignore me, and answer my questions indirectly
I hate it when you stare at me and shake your head
I hate it when you don't talk to me and I can't read your mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme
I hate it when you're not consistent with the things you do to me
I hate it when you don't even think of me
I hate it when you're so sarcastic
I hate it when you don't explain yourself
I hate it when you don't even greet me
I hate it when you doubt what I feel
I hate it when you don't hug me tight
I hate it when you don't wanna even kiss me
I hate the way you laugh at me and make fun of me
I hate it when you don't wanna share your stories to me
I hate you even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you don't wanna see me, and the fact I don't see a text from you on my phone
I hate it when you tell me to go find somebody else
I hate it when you told me you don't like me anymore
I hate it when you're just there, silent
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all...

Fine fine fine! Talo and La Salle. Sige na kayo na muna ihahail ko! Hahaha! Ayun nakakuha kami ng Lower A for 300php! O di ba? Sa susunod sa Patron na kami for 500 dahil kilala ko na yung scalper! Hahaha! With Tin, Deck, Matty and Ivan nanood kami ng UAAP. Si Aubs kasi di nagreply eh! DLSU vs. ADMU. Ganda noh? Oo maganda talaga kasi puros sushal mga tao pag yun ang magkalaban! Puros mayayaman! Mapuputi at makikinis! Hahaha... pero mga balahura pag game time na! Hahaha! It was really fun Mr. T! Kahit talo sobrang saya naman dahil masaya magcheer for your own school lalo na kaharap pa ng ATENEO! Amp! At kahit hindi namin naungusan sila! Pero masaya talaga! Kahit dulas ng dulas si Casio at kahit puros sablay mga tres at tira ng mga players. Kasama sa thrill yun! Hahaha!

Ayun, naghintay ako sa mga kasama ko mahigit isang oras sa loob ng Araneta! Buti na lang nakaupo ako dahil may nagtext sa kin: Suplado! Ayaw mamansin! Amp si J1 yung nagtext at nakasave pa pala number niya sa kin Mr. T!! Kasama si J2 and si J3! Ang mga baklang tago! Magkakasama at lahat nakatingin sa kin at ang suplado ko raw kanina! Sorry naman di ko sila nakitang magkakatabi dahil busy ako sa panonood ng UP vs UST!! So, baket J1, J2 and J3? Masyado silang tago para iblog at baka mabuking pa sila! J lahat nagstastart name nila by the way. And si J1 kinarir ako nung 1st year!

Eksena nung napansin na ni Jacob ang mga g0y (new word I learned from Sir):

Jacob  : Uy kumusta naman kayo jan!!! May ménage à trois ba? Hahaha!
J1     : Gago! Suplado mo ha porket ang pogi mo ngayon in green! Hahaha...
J2     : Oo nga! Kanina pa kami nasa harap mo di ka namamansin!
Jacob  : Henaku! Maari bang hindi ko kayo pansinin kung nakita ko kayo? May nakaupo dun? *points to an empty chair next to J1*
J3     : Sige umupo ka na jan...
Jacob  :Eh may bag na nakalagay?
J1     : Dito oh *pats his lap*
Jacob  : *taas kilay* Gusto mo mo ng black-eye? Hindi ka pa over?
J1     : Sos, ikaw lang may ayaw talaga sa kin...
Jacob  : Tangalin mo yang bag! Bilis!
*Tinaggal ni J1 ang bag at nakaupo si Jacob*

So yun, after the game, as usual, kanta kanta ng mga Alma Mater songs ng ADMU at DLSU. Tapos palakpakan para sa bawat school. Nyerks... plastic lang. Una nagbooboohan tapos palakpakan naman! Hahaha! Ang labo lang! Pwede ba, pakiusap ko lang sa mga Atenista, pwede ba alalahanin nila kung nasan yung tamang hati ng Araneta? Sobrang lampas na sila sa semi-circle nila eh! Hindi makatarungan! Nakaupo pala kami malapit na sa Ateneo. At naaliw ako sa isang babaeng Atenista na may hawak nung Fight and Wala na placard nila! Ang arte niya kasi! Nakakatuwa siya! After the game, naisipan namin mag SM Marikina! Since sabi ni Tin kabubukas lang. Took the LRT2 then from Santolan station, we walked til SM Marikina. OA ang tao Mr. T! Kung meron magsspell ng OA yung SM Marikina yung letters kanina. As in! We were supposed to eat but every resto was fully booked. We had to be wait listed! Boo! So we decided to just go home. Good thing the plan to go to Eastwood was dropped. Everyone was tired so I guess it was the best thing to do! I was the one who suggested it by the way! Yep! For the first time I wanted to go home! Hahaha... then yun. Tin and Ivan went ahead tapos the 3 of us took the LRT2 then Deck took LRT1. I walked with Matty til MRT station and from MRT station I headed to San Juan-Cubao jeep terminal. It was a fun and tiring day Mr. T! Anyways, a friend is leaving again to another country tomorrow. Hmmm... we could've bonded a little more. So yun muna update ko Mr. T! Hindi ko alam kung ipupublic ko yung entry ko last night na nabasa na ng iba at prinivate ko pa. Hmmm... kaso baka isipin ng mga tao nagmamaganda na naman ako pag-pinost ko yun! I'll think about it Mr. T! :-) Ganda pa ng title nun entry ko kagabi, The Bachelor(ette)!!! Hahaha... I love ya, I enjoy ya and I appreciate ya Mr. T! Mwah! Tagal ko na rin di nagmwah sa yo eh! :-)

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Jeffrey sent me this article Mr. T! and he got it here. I just wanna share it.

LONDON (Reuters Life!) - Fans of classical music and jazz are creative, pop lovers are hardworking and, despite the stereotypes, heavy metal listeners are gentle, creative types who are at ease with themselves.

So says Professor Adrian North of Scotland's Heriot-Watt University who has been studying the links between people's personalities and their choice of music.

"People often define their sense of identity through their musical taste, wearing particular clothes, going to certain pubs, and using certain types of slang," North said.

"It's not surprising that personality should also be related to musical preference."

In what North said was the largest study ever conducted into individuals' musical preference and character, researchers asked 36,518 people from around the world to rate how much they liked 104 different musical styles before taking a personality test.

"Researchers have been showing for decades that fans of rock and rap are rebellious, and that fans of opera are wealthy and well-educated," North said.

"But this is the first time that research has shown that personality links to liking for a wide range of musical styles."

The study concluded that jazz and classical music fans are creative with good self-esteem, although the former are much more outgoing whereas the latter are shy.

Country and western fans were found to be hardworking and shy; rap fans are outgoing and indie lovers lack self-esteem and are not very gentle.

Those who like soul music can take heart as the research concluded they are creative, outgoing, gentle, at ease with themselves and have a high self-esteem.

And if you've ever wondered why people driving expensive sports cars often have music blaring from their vehicle, North could have an explanation.

Those who choose to listen to exciting, punchy music are more likely to be in a higher earning bracket, he says, while those who go for relaxing sounds tend to be lower down the pay scale.

North is still looking for volunteers to take part in the research. Details on http://www.peopleintomusic.com/

(Reporting by Michael Holden; Editing by Steve Addison)

I love soul music Mr T! Hmmm...

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Do you remember this conversation Mr. T!?

Boy 1 : Do you love me?
Boy 2 : Huh? Love? Puwede ba like muna?
Boy 1 : No way! I'm he's b.f
Boy 2 : Ok :). there's nothing wrong with like. :)
Boy 1 : Whatever...
Boy 2 : Hmmmm... ok. :) wala kng gnagawang mali
Boy 1 : Plz. avoid him na ok. Papalamapasin ko to. Tama na nasaktan na ko
Boy 2 : Sure. Pakipaalala mo na lang sa kanya na may b.f. siya at b.f ka niya. Sabi niya kasi single siya eh. Hindi ko ugali manira ng relasyon. Thanks for telling me :)

From this entry:  Tita Nita's Funeral?

Just a while ago, Jeffrey and I were talking about this entry:

Jeffrey (9/7/2008 12:18:05 AM): bkt d mo siya sinagot before?
Subtle Bliss (9/7/2008 12:18:11 AM): muntik na di ba?
Subtle Bliss (9/7/2008 12:18:12 AM): kaso
Subtle Bliss (9/7/2008 12:18:16 AM): may nagtext sa kin
Jeffrey (9/7/2008 12:18:39 AM): ay oo
Subtle Bliss (9/7/2008 12:18:41 AM): di ba asar!
Jeffrey (9/7/2008 12:18:45 AM): alam ko un
Jeffrey (9/7/2008 12:18:52 AM): tinext mo pa ako sa taiwan dahil diyan
Subtle Bliss (9/7/2008 12:18:59 AM): hahaha... oo naalala mo pa!

Susme! Di naman pala sila nung guy nun! Epal lang yung guy Mr. T! Dinedate niya lang pala yung guy na yun noon! So much for my happy ending! Hahaha! Hahaha... nakakawala ng stress kausap si Jeffrey! Hahaha... and since friends na lang naman kami ni Gerswin, ipakita naman natin sa mga nagbabasa ang trabaho and itsura ng sanang jowa ko na! Hahaha... at ayon nga kay Jeffrey, cute si Gers! Taga CSB din kasi yan! Sayang daw! At bihira magcompliment si Jeffrey! Hahaha...

O di ba ang bakla lang ng trabaho at mukha siyang baklang bakla diyan? Pero weird, sobrang straight-acting siya pero out! Nakakagulat noh? Last date namin nung April pa ata and he was inviting me sa Fashion Week. I refused. He was courting me na rin ulit nun. Pero alam mo naman nun Mr. T!, my heart belonged to someone else those times so I told him no. Daming kilala nito sa lahat ng pinuntahan namin nung huling labas namin. Hindi puwedeng walang siyang kilala sa isang lugar! Sikat! Hindi ako ready sa ganung buhay! I don't wanna be in the limelight! Hahaha! Kapal! Hay... oh well... time to move on. Naalala ko tuloy yung sinabi niya na if I'm tired of waiting he's just there waiting din! Oha oha! Sabi ko wag siya maghintay and no na rin siguro! I don't take back guys I said NO to before! Bawal umapila! Hahaha!

Because of too much internet, I was able to accidentally stumble upon blogs of my closest friends. I didn't know they have personal blogs too! Tsk!

Shucks si Daniel. His pics on his Multiply with his "Siomai" makes me sad and at the same time kilig. Sad because wala ako nun and kilig of course dahil nakakakilig! In fairness 26 na yung guy and 23 pa lang si Daniel. Hay... kelan ba ko magkakaroon ng "Siomai" ko?

I know happily ever afters don't last but I want to have one... even for a second... :-(

Some updates before I hit the sack. Chris was so text-y a while ago. It felt nice having to talk with him again since last week’s drama. Then watched the following on my iPod: Coach Carter, Step Up 1 and She’s The Man. Figure it out! I’m sick actually. My heads cracking up and my stomach’s on a roller-coaster. I feel this is the effect of the isaw I ate yesterday. Hepa anyone? Promise I won’t eat isaw til next year. Hmmm… then slept through the day up til early evening. Watched my former tv addiction: Blind Date, The 5th Wheel, Maury Povich and Jerry Springer. Goodness I’m officially a bum now. Might as well enjoy this… :-)

The Just Stand Up! artists recently performed during the The Fashion Rocks held last September 5. I forgot to post the video Mr. T! I’ll post it now. And what’s up with Mariah’s voice? May I just say that she sounded amateurish next to Mary J. and Beyonce and that’s not how it’s supposed to be. I think she needs to rest. The rest of the girls sounded way better than her even… sad sad. She's not even grooving too! Hello Mariah are you there? It’s too much already really! I haven’t gotten any chills from any of her performances since One Sweet Day 2001 from BET! Hay…anways, here’s the video.

Update you soon. Good night… and yes, it's Mama Mary's birthday today! Happy birthday Mama Mary! :-) --- naalala ko tuloy dati nung Gradeschool may mga dala akong flowers pagbirthday ni Mama Mary tapos ilalagay ko sa statue niya malapit sa infirmary! Hahaha... nakakatuwa. :-) Good night again! :-)

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is hard...

Reminds me of the secret game we had during our inuman in Aubrey's place:

Aubrey   : Oh, si Jacob naman magsasabi ng secret...
Jacob    : Uhmm... ano pang di niyo alam sa kin? Ay wait meron...
Aubrey   : Go...
Jacob    : Ay wag na lang...
Aubrey   : Ay corny...
Tin      : Hayaan mo na si Jacob, para may tirang secret naman siya sa sarili niya...

but what's harder is, you, keeping secrets of other people like they're entrusting you their lives...

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I just remembered a quote from HSM2 Mr. T! May HSM marathon kasi sa Disney Channel eh...

Gabriella Montez: [Lifts light] Here's to our future
Troy Bolton: No, Here's to right now.
[They both lean in to kiss]

Another quote from Kung Fu Panda:

Oogway: Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.

Naalala ko rin yung nabasa ko na sinabi ni Buddha (galing sa INTPHIL notes ko toh):

"The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, not to worry about the future, or not to anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly."

Isa pa, kanta ng Smashing Pumpkins na Today:

"Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't live for tomorrow,
Tomorrow's much too long...."

Tapos sa kanta rin ni India.Arie na Just For Today

"Just for today
I will not worry what tomorrow will bring...

I don’t know what’s gonna happen
That’s alright with me
I open up my arms and I embrace the mystery"

At balik tayo sa HSM 2, yung song na All For One:

"It's not about the future
It's not about the past
It's makin' every single day
Last last and last! "

Aw! Sometimes people are too busy thinking about what's store for them in the future when all they have right now is the present... hmmm... and yeah, the future is soooo unpredictable. Why think about it so much? Oh! Did I just say that? I guess I'm learning...

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Update tomorrow. So tired and soooo wet... amp!

Hello Mr. T! My body clock is completely busted! It’s almost 5am and still can’t sleep. This is probably the effect of the coffee Lawrence gave me a while ago! Hahaha! Ayun, baket english? Anways ayun, hindi ito date, this is a friendly meet-up mga kaibigan, uunahan ko na kayo. At sino si Lawrence, papakilala ko…

Si Sir Lawrence (nasanay akong itawag sa kanya yun kasi si Rhodge yun pakilala sa kin eh), ay sir ni Rhodge na napadpad sa blog ko Mr. T! Yep yep, this is his blog by the way. Nakikita niya raw yung sarili niya sa kin nung kasing-age ko siya. Pero nung mga may kinuwento ko na hindi dapat kinukwento sabi niya, ay hindi na pala! Hahaha! Hindi niya kinaya powers ko! We’ve been chatting for more than one month na and I can say na marami na rin kami nakwento about ourselves sa isa’t isa. Hmmm… dapat magmemeet na kami ni Law before nun sa Makati kaso hindi ako puwede nun. So we tried setting another date which is kahapon. Magaan loob ko kay Law since ang dami ko ng nakwento siguro pati mga kwento nung bata pa ko hahaha! Makwento rin naman kasi si Law. And isa siya sa mga taong naiintindihan ako kung baket sobrang positive na lang ako mag-isip sa buhay. Pero siyempre mas marami siyang alam so minsan nagpagtatanungan ko rin siya ng kung anu-ano. Ayun, simulan na natin ang nangyari kahapon:

Since kapapanganak pa lang ng kapatid si Law sa Medical City, sa Galleria na lang kami nagkita. Ayun, habang nag-aabang ako ng us papuntang Galleria, biglang bumuhos ang ulan. OA lang dahil soaking wet talaga ko Mr. T! Wahhh… pero buti may dumaang bus agad kung hindi para siguro akong nilublob sa tubig kung natagalan yung paghihintay ko. Kasi naman nung umalis ako ng bahay wala namang ulan! Tsk! So yun, buhay pa naman ako nung nakarating sa Galleria. Kaso sobrang basa. Si Law nasa Bestsellers na bookstore. Ayun, kahit wala kong dalang salamin kanina naaninagan ko na siya yun. Bumili siya nung Sandman na hardbound na 50% off ata. So yun, pagkakita namin ang daldal agad namin hahaha! Nagulat siya kasi kala niya siguro 5’6 lang ako. Kasi yun naman talaga akala kong height ko eh. Pero sabi niya parang mas matangkad pa raw ako sa kanya. Or feeling matangkad lang siya. Hahaha! Sabi niya kasi 5’8 siya eh… hmmm… baka nakaheels siya nun. Hahaha! Joke! Anyways, yun, malamang dinner time na kanina, so gutom. Pinaiisip niya ko ng gagawin and yun lang naman alam kong gawin, kumain!

I wanted soup dahil sobrang naulanan ako Mr. T! So sabi ko Pho Bac. Pero parang carenderia pala yung Pho Bac sa Galleria so sabi ko Rai Rai Ken na lang. So yun, punyemas, nawala sa utak ko yung soup nung nakakita ko nga mga Sashimi sa menu! Hahaha… so yun inorder and potato balls. Si Law nag gyoza and don. Ayun, habang naghihintay, super kuwentuhan. About sa ex ni Law at kung anu-ano pa. Wala naman akong ma-ishare dahil wala naman akong love story. Pero we got along just fine dahil galing magpaflow ng conversation ni Law. Ayun, tapos nagtext ex si Law! Aw! Gusto magdate daw sila! Shete kinilig ako! Hahaha! See I told you may fairytales talaga! Pero sana magkabalikan sila di ba Mr. T! Ang saya siguro ni Law pagnangyari yun. May nakita pa kaming buhok sa potato balls ko so pinalitan kunwari. After eating, ewan ko baket ko nasend kay Law yung kinanta ko dati para sa CCS Icon! Nalagay niya raw sa MP3 player niyang sushal at nagulat siya. So sabi niya after eating videoke kami. Tamang tama may Timezone sa Galleria.

Unfortunately, walang vacant room sa Timezone. So wala, napalaro kami ng Fast and Furious ni Law! Hahaha… at nakakaaliw dahil naglalaro talaga si Law sa Timezone dahil mahilig daw siya sa shooting games. O di ba? Aliw! Tapos yun, nagDeal or No Deal kami. Since kailangan niyang dalhan ng food yun ate niya sa hospital, we had to call it a night. Pero, pagkadating namin sa labas ng Galleria, malakas ang ulan. Mahaba rin ang pila sa cab. We decided, we stay first sa Starbucks. Ayun, kwentuhan na naman ng kung anu-ano Mr. T! Tapos pinakita niya yung binili niyang MP3 player ng Samsung na Bluetooth capable. Tapos andun din yung Nokia Bluetooth headset na binili niya! Naaliw ako sa headset kaso ayaw magconnect sa phone ko! Amp!

Then nagtext na mom niya na kailangan na talaga siya. We decide to wait for the taxi waiting line. Amp! Sobrang haba… eto malupit, si Law sabi sa Mega mas maiksi ata ang pila so nagFX kami papunta sa Mega. Effort pa yung mga FX ayaw ng Mega lang buti may dumating at nagpasakay na rin. Sa Mega, mas mahaba ang pila… SHET talaga! Hahaha! Pero buti maparaan si Sir Law at nakaharang siya ng cab elsewhere. At ayun, sumabay na ko papuntang Med City and dun na rin ako sana sasakay kaso wala rin cab dun. So sinamahan ko muna si Law sa bilihan ng food. North Park na lang ang natatanging bukas so dun kami. Then ang ganda ng lighting dun so nagpicturan kami! Hahaha! Then ayun, hinintay ako si Law makasakay ng cab tapos bumalik na siya sa Hospital.

Alam kong sobrang daming details ang namiss ko pero siguro nakwento ko naman mga dapat nakwento. It was nice talking and being with Lawrence kanina Mr. T! Parang puros positive energy nakukuha ko sa kanya! Hahaha! Wish ko lang sana magkabalikan sila ng Ex niya. I’d be very happy for them. And yeah, natatawa ko kasi kahit sino raw na gusto ako maging makarelasyon eh magdadalawang isip kasi raw may pagkamalikot ako! Huh? Hahahaha! Sadyang lapitin lang talaga ko ng mga admirers siguro! Hahaha… anways, masaya kausap si Law, walang dull moments. Ahahaha… galing pa magspot ng cutie! Hahaha! Salamat Sir Lawrence sa libre pala! Hahaha!

P.S. Ayaw ni Law ipost pic niya na mataba. Wala siyang choice lahat mataba! Hahaha! At sabi niya tataba rin ako pagnaging ka-age ko na siya! Wahhhh…

Masaya masaya Mr. T! :)

jjcobwebb

Minsan, gagawin lahat ng tao mga bagay bagay makuha lamang yung taong gusto nila. At pagnakuha na nila yung taong gusto nila, they slip away. I feel bad for my friend :-(

jjcobwebb

Nagcoma si Tita Estrella Mr. T! 48 hours na lang binigay na taning. Hay... ayun nagbantay lang ng drugstore kanina pagtapos kumain sa Jollibee. Anyways, yan lang update ko... hay...

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Nakabalandra na naman updates ni Daniel sa Multiply Mr. T! Ayun, kinikilig at pinapatay ko na lang at the same time sarili ko sa bagong entry niya sa Multiply niya! This sucks big time for a person like me. Having to watch couples celebrating their -saries --- isang mahabang bugtong na hininga. Pero I'm happy for them. Kelan ako magkakaroon ng ganito Mr. T? Anyways, kung gusto niyo kiligin at inggitin mga sarili niyo, visit niyo Multiply ni Daniel here.

Hay... so kelan kaya ako magkakaroon ng sarili kong love story Mr. T!? Lagi na lang akong nakikibasa sa love story ng iba. Kahit simpleng love story lang naman para sa kin masaya na ko. Sa taong gusto ako at gusto ko rin para malinaw lang. Pero yun, kahit simple lang, kahit simple lang... :-( Hay...

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Dahil kailangan kong mag-OJT! Baket hindi ba ko nag-adjust online nung Monday and Tuesday eh buong araw ako nakaharap sa internet nun? Hmmm... pumunta ko sa school kaso ubos na yung number para sa manual adjustment. Tried asking Matty if he can come to school tomorrow to adjust my sked. Tapos I tried asking Kate's friend pa para ipag-adjust ako. Hmmm... then nagtext si Pinggoy, nasa HPlaza raw siya, nagpadentist. Since malapit lang sa DLSU yun, sabi ko kita kami. Ayun, putik putik mga paa namin Mr. T! Bumili pa kong Chicharong Bulaklak ng 100g eps naman si Pinggoy hindi naman kumain! Tapos yun, sabay kami nagLRT tapos sa Central siya bumaba. Tapos yun, natulog, tas pinuntahan si Tita Estrella sa Hospital. Hmmm... yun, muna update ko Mr. T! Ang damin gagawin bukas at patay ako pag di ako nagising ng maaga! Wahhhh...

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Buti na lang hindi tayo ipis noh? Kasi ang ipis pag tinapakan, patay agad, minsan dinudurog pa! Lasug-lasog na siya at kalat na rin pagtapos tapakan. Naku, kung ako yung ipis, kapag tinapakan ako, sisiguraduhin kong mabubuhay ako at babangon at dudurugin yung nantapak sa kin! Hahaha...

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Hello Mr. T! Shet stressed! Ang layo ng pinag-oOJT-han ko. :-( Bumabagyo pa and hindi ako nakatulog ng maayos kagabi. Masakit ulo ko ngayon. :-( Anyways, yun, had to go to school sooooo early in the morning para mapa-adjust ko na yung subjects ko. Thanks to Matty, pinuntahan niya ko sa school para siya pumila sa office ni Ms. Divine. Before 8am. Bait talaga ni Matty. Nagbreakfast muna ko sa McDo habang nilagay ko na yung bag ko sa Lobby para may place na ko sa line. Ayun, then dating si Matty. Before 8am umalis na ko ng school since kailangan by 8:30am nasa office na ko. Oha! Office! Kung galing sa Taft papuntang office malapit lang. Pero talaga pag dito sa bahay papuntang office malayo. :-( So yun, rode the taxi, buti na lang madiskarte yung driver at alam niya mga pasikot-sikot kung papuntang office. So yun, wearing my corporate attire, plus necktie pa, putik putik na leather shoes, pumasok na ko sa building. Amp! Maling entrance! Withdrawan pala yung pinasukan ko, pinapasok ako nung guard sa kabilang entrance.

Buti na lang yung faux id binigay ko kay Matty at may ID pa kong spare kanina. So, sa HR yung tungo ko agad. Ayun, si Ma'am Joan and Ma'am Raiza were waiting for me. OMG! Hindi ko alam baket ako kinakabahan. Pero yun, pinapasok na ko sa isang room. Quiet room. Ang tagal dumating nung dalawa. Kala ko magtetest. Ayun, medyo may clinarify lang yung dalawa Mr. T! Grabe --- englishing ako kanina! Napalaban ako! Hahaha! Pero yun, the two were fun naman ang accommodating. Tapos grabe, may mga documents na agad na pinirmahan! Shet! Akala ko wala wala lang. At start na pala agad yung work! Amp! Then dinala na nila ko sa department ko.

One floor lower yung pagtratrabahuhan kong department. Henaku talaga, ayun, pinakilala ko sa mga tao. Sorry talaga pero sa daming pinakilala sa kin, hindi ko pa kilala mga names nila. Hindi naman ganun kasharp memory ko Mr. T! Pero siguro as time passes makikilala ko rin sila. Ayun, tapos inorient. Tapos nagtawanan. Pinakita yung system na ii-UAT ko. Amp! So yun, pinagpasa-pasahan ako dun sa mga babaeng makakatrabaho ko. Puros hag-stag mga babae dun! Masaya ito. Pero saka ko ng sasabihing darna ko. Hahahaha! Walang internet Mr. T! Meron nga pero ang daming block na sites! Shet! Yung system lang ata nila magiging friend ko ngayon Mr. T! Hay... tapos tapos sabi pa nung isang supervisor wag raw ako mag-alala di ako malolost dun dahil puros Ateneo and Lasalle lang naman nagtratrabaho dun --- ugh okay... Tapos weird, marami kaming nag-apply sa company na yun, pero baket ako lang nagOJT dun? Huh? Ano ba toh? Raffle draw ng tao? Weird talaga! Ako lang mag-isang nag-oojt dun. Nakakainis lang yung lugar ko kanina nakaharap sa wall! Sana kaharap na lang sa aisle! Hahaha!

Pero alam mo yun feeling na parang wala kang alam? Parang ang bobo mo? Hay... ayun, tapos pina-explore ni Sir Miko, yung supervisor ko for the mean time. Ayun, grabe antok na antok ako Mr. T! Kanina. So since kailangan ko balikan si Matty sa school and kunin yung EAF and ID ko, sabi ko kay Sir Mike, maghahalf day muna ko. Pinayagan naman ako. Sa totoo lang, antok na ko Mr. T! Hahaha! Dapat tutuloy na ko sa bahay nung nasa cab ako pero bumalik ako ng school. Ayun, kinita si Matty tapos kumain sa KFC kami. Napa-adjust niya ko salamat naman. Tapos si Barry tumawag asa school nila siya. So nagkita kami. Kasama si Matty. Eh may gagawin yung dalawa ng 4pm so umikot muna kaming 3 sa HPlaza. Wala lang, naglagalag lang dun Mr. T! Then umuwi na ko and silang dalawa bumalik to their respective schools.

Grabe pagkauwi tulog agad ako. Uhmmm... siguro magiging ganito palagi mangyayari sa kin ngayon Mr. T! At ang init ng ulo ko kanina pagkauwi. Tsk... wah... siguro nag-aadjust pa lang. And I need more long sleeves Mr. T! 3 lang long sleeves ko! Kainis naman baket corporate attire pa kasi kailangan laging isuot eh! Hay... pero pede raw magcasual tomorrow basta may collar. Pwede rin jeans. Yey! Sige sige Mr. T! Update you soon. :-)

jjcobwebb

The Beatles - I'll Follow The Sun

One day you'll look to see I've gone
For tomorrow may rain,
so I'll follow the sun

Some day you'll know I was the one
But tomorrow may rain,
so I'll follow the sun

And now the time has come
and, my love, I must go
And though I lose a friend
In the end you will know, oh

One day you'll find that I have gone
But tomorrow may rain,
so I'll follow the sun
But tomorrow may rain,
so I'll follow the sun

And now the time has come
and, my love, I must go
And though I lose a friend
In the end you will know, oh

One day you'll find that I have gone
But tomorrow may rain,
so I'll follow the sun

jjcobwebb

1. What was the last hot thing you touched?
> *** Yung kapeng iniinom ko kaninang hapon
2. When was the last time you were given roses?
> *** Hmmm... February 14, 2005
3. Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
> *** Both
4. Have you ever had your blood taken?
> *** Yep yep! With Beck and Sherry!
5. Do you have an eating disorder?
> *** Yep! Pag may sakit ako...
6. As a child did you ever take piano lessons?
> *** Nope. I just wish I did
7. What was the last movie you watched in theaters? with?
> *** Wall-E
8. Do you have siblings?
> *** Yep I have
9. Ever had braces?
> *** Nope
10. How old are your brothers and sisters?
> *** Si Ate - 37, Si Kenneth - 33, Si Bruno - 20
11. Do you know any one with the same name as you?
> ***  Yep yep pero isa lang.
12. What are your favorite months?
> *** November, December and January
13. Do people ever misspell your name?
> ***  Yep, once pa lang naman --- JAYCOB
14. Are you a mean person?
> *** May mga times na mean ako...
15. What was the last sporting event you have watched?
> *** UAAP Basketball! ADMU vs. DLSU!
16. When you're home alone, do you still close the door when you shower?
> *** Malamang!
17. Has a friendship ended recently that you wish hadn't?
> *** Nope. I don't end friendships.
18. You win the $100 million power-ball lottery: What do you do?
> *** Charity. Tapos bibilin na mga gusto ko! Hahaha...
19. Are you a beach person or a snowy mountain person?
> *** Beach person! Weee...
20. Can you watch scary movies alone?
> *** Yep!
21. Soft bed or firm?
> *** Combination of bot
22. Would you rather stay home all day, or be out and about?
> *** Minsan stay home lang. Minsan gusto ko rin gumala.
23. Do you like to keep the peace or be confrontational?
> *** Keep the peace siyempre
24. Are you more likely to be with a large group of people or a few close friends?
> *** Few close friends
25. Where would you like to live?
> *** Gusto ko malapit sa dagat :-)
26. What is one fear that you have?
> *** Lightning! Hahaha... ayaw ko ng lightning pag nasa kalsada ako! Wah...
27. Are you good in math?
> *** Never was
28. What's stashed under your bed?
> *** Notebook na pinagsusulatan ko ng mga hindi ko sinusulat sa blog ko...
29. Is there anyone you regret ever meeting?
> *** Nope
30. Would you rather have roommates or live alone?
> *** With roommate of course! Na hot! Ala Channing Tatum sa She's The Man! Hahaha...

jjcobwebb

I was tossing and turning on my bed just minutes ago. Can't sleep so I turned my laptop on and tried reading blogs of people I know. I didn't expect I was going to trip on one my friends' blog. A blog that I have never read before. It's now clear to me Mr. T! Good thing I didn't publicize the entry before this one. And maybe, that's one of the reasons why I can't sleep. Now I know the answers...

"Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned
So I call it a lesson learned
My soul has returned
So I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

- Lesson Learned, Alicia Keys"

jjcobwebb

Hindi ako makatulog Mr. T! Weird. Iniisip ko talaga yung offer ng MSI na dun ako magOJT sa kanila. Kaso, nakapagsimula na ko sa HSBC and nakakahiya naman kay Sir Miko kung hindi na ko tutuloy. Iniisip ko rin ang hirap magcommute sa papuntang The Fort! Kung araw araw kong gagawin yun baka magbreak-down talaga ko! Iniisip ko pa lang yung MRT sa Cubao pag-umaga eh nakakahimatay na! Tapos yung pauwi sa Ayala mas lalong nakakahimatay! Baka makauwi ako nito ng 8:30pm sa bahay. Baka makalimutan ko na kung sino ko! Yung MSI naman, sa Libis lang kaya effortless. Wah... nag-absent na ko kahapon sa HSBC and baka pagalitan na ko pag-umabsent pa ko sa Monday. I need to make up my mind quick! And dami pang dapat ayusin with Ms. Lisa. :( Ahhhhhhhh... feeling ko kanina magkakaheart attack ako grabe sa dami ng dapat gawin! Kasi baket ba ako isip ng isip! Dapat tinanggap ko na lang kasi yung sa Globe or yung sa PLDT! Ano ba yan! Ngayong kailangan ko sila nasaan sila? Wahhh... ang layo ng The Fort!!!! Hmmm... sana mag-invite sina Barry lumabas mamaya...

P.S. Kung hinahanap mo yung entry ko kahapon Mr. T!, it's on my new blog! Yey! Nagreready na kong layasan ka Mr. T! Masyado na kasi tayong close! Joke! Hahaha...  

Grabe, parang obliged talaga ko iupdate ka Mr. T! Anyways, hindi ko ipopost dito kung anong pinost ko sa kabila. Masaydong madrama yun and ibang level. Hahaha... nakaYM lang ako buong araw. Yep buong araw. Dapat mamimili ako ng mga long sleeves kanina pero tinamad ako! Wahaha! Tas natulog lang, nanood ng TV at nagYM ulit. Hindi rin ako pumasok sa HSBC kanina. Tapos yung nadownload kong Pocahontas eh Swedish pa yung salita! Tsk!

Anyways, hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako or maiinis ako kay Ryce and Mike. Sabi sa kin ni Mike gusto niyang jowa. Sabi ni Ryce gusto niya rin ng jowa. Eh di binigay ko YM nila to each other ganito:

With Ryce...

Jacob  : Oi! Di ba gusto mo ng jowa?
Ryce   : Yep yep, baket may rereto ka?
Jacob  : Oo! Okay tong tao na toh mabait!
Ryce   : Sige
Jacob  : Oh eto YM
Ryce   : Wala bang pics toh?
Jacob  : Accept mo photoshare
Ryce   : Yikes. Di ko feel. Gusto ko yung nakablue
Jacob  : Eh ako yung nakablue sira ka pala eh!
Ryce   : Oo nga. Grabe Jacob, 5 taon na tayong friends 3x pa lang tayo nagkikita...
Jacob  : Ay! Grabe oo nga noh! Tapos tuwing kita natin noon may kasama ka pang jowang bago! Hahaha...
Ryce   : Ikaw lang naman kasi may ayaw sa kin eh...
Jacob  : .....

Tapos si Mike naman din...

Jacob  : O ayan si Ryce! Di ba wala na kayo ni Chris
Mike   : Wah, binigay mo ID ko...
Jacob  : Oo, di ba gusto mo rin ng jowa
Mike   : Uhmmm...
Jacob  : Nakita mo na ba yung pics niya?
Mike   : Oo, di ko siya type
Jacob  : Amp! Baket??? 
Mike   : Si Jacob Webb nga type ko...
Jacob  : :-|

Grabe! Baka magfeeling ako niyan! Tsk, ayaw pa nila sa isa’t isa eh gusto naman nilang dalawa ng jowa? Hmmm… di ba bagay naman sila? Wahahaha… sorry wala kong tulog ngayon. Wahhh… lakas ng trip ko! I’ won’t be in a relationship na rin numa siguro Mr. T! Or iisipin pa yun. I’ll play matchmaker instead! Hahaha… mas fun! At malungkot ako sa lagay na toh! Hay...

jjcobwebb

Got that from a friendster comment ng ibang tao! Hahaha... ang babaw ko! Pero ang cute talaga! Hahaha...

jjcobwebb

"Cause what I don't know, is never gonna hurt me..."

And it's true. Baket ba kasi napaka pakielamero ko? Sinaktan ko lang sarili ko tuloy. Alam mo yung feeling ng sinampal mo sarili mo tapos nagising ka sa katotohanan? Tapos nagkalatay mukha mo dahil ang lakas ng pagkakasampal. Sana hindi mawala tong latay na toh para tuwing titignan ko sarili ko, maalala ko kung baket ako nagkalatay. Masakit. Masakit pero gagaling naman toh...

Wow! 2 years na pala sa akin itong laptop ko! Kala ko dati pag nagkalaptop ako eh gagaling na ko magprogram, kaso hindi rin pala! Hahaha! Nakakatuwa dahil kahit 2 years old na tong laptop ko, mabilis pa rin siya! Hahaha! Hahaha… dami na rin namin napuntahan niton laptop na toh! Pati sa Boracay at Baguio nakarating na siya! Hahaha…

Anyways, I need a good leather shoes para sa OJT. Nakakahiya yung leather shoes ko nung first day! Hahaha! I need to buy one immediately. Hindi pa rin ako nakakabili ng mga long sleeves dahil sobrang tinatamad talaga ko lumabas ng bahay ngayon. Siguro bukas na lang pag pumunta na ko sa birthday ni PJ, anak ng pinsan ko. Sa Greenhills naman gaganapin yun.

Ang galing ni Bugoy sa Pinoy Dream Academy kanina. He’s my bet and next is Laarni. So yun lang mga nangyari Mr. T! Sasagutin nga daw pala ni ate pangcab ko araw araw papuntang HSBC! Hahaha… so yan lang update ko for now. :-)

At matatapos ko na rin yung librong kinuha ko sa kotse ni Barry! Hahaha...

jjcobwebb

Hahaha, hindi ko pinapanood dati toh pero nahawa ako sa mga tao dito sa bahay at sa mga tao sa school! Eto mga quotable quotes sa Iisa Pa Lamang. Enjoy!

"Kapag ang tao'y nagmahal, hindi na mahalaga kung ano man ang tama, kung sino ang humingi at nagbigay, kung sinong nanalo, kung sinong talunan. Ang alam mo lang, nagmamahal ka. Ang alam ko lang, mahal ko sya. Mahal ko sya." - Katherine

"Babalik ako. Maniningil ako. Pinapangako ko, kukunin ko lahat ng kinuha nyo't inagaw nyo sa 'min." - Katherine

"You're in love with somebody else, and that somebody else is not worth it, Rafael." - Estelle

"Mas kaya kitang mahalin." - Rafael

"Kaya kong saktan ang sarili ko, pero hindi kita kayang saktan." - Katherine
 
"Nagkakamali ka. Hindi na ako marunong magmahal ngayon. Patay na ang puso ko, Rafael." - Katherine

"Anak ako. Dugo't laman." - Scarlet

"Anak ka lang. Asawa nya 'ko. Lahat ng pag-aari ni Martin, pagaari ko na ngayon." - Katherine

"You're just a gold digger in red!" - Scarlet

"Damn you!" - Scarlet

"Same to you anak. Same to you." - Katherine

"Siyempre, diamonds are forever, like me!" - Katherine

"Ang ganda-ganda mo na ngayon Katherine, sarap mong patayin!" - Isadora

"Kung gaano ka katayod lumipad, ganun ka rin kabilis lalagapak. Ouch!" - Isadora

"Senior vice president ako ng kompanyang ito, ako ang legal wife ng may-ari ng kompanyang ito, tauhan lang kita, at higit sa lahat, madrasta mo ako! Kaya layuan mo ako. Get out of my sight! Leave! Now!" - Katherine

"Look who's here, my favorite step-mother. Ang dating gold digger in red, isa na ngayong merry widow in black." - Scarlet

''Ha! Kung sa bagay mas bagay sayo yang itim, kakulay ng budhi mo!'' - Scarlet

"Bakit ka nga ba nakaputi? Para pagtakpan ang mas maitim mong budhi?" - Katherine

"Ikaw ba, totoong nagdadalamhati ka? Kasi napansin ko, kaya mong mag-biro. Kaya lang ang corny mo! Anyway, gusto ko lang malaman mo na lahat nang 'to, hindi 'to permanente. Lahat nang iyan, babawiin ko iyan sa 'yo!" - Scarlet

"Sige! Maglaro tayo, agawan ng yaman! Pero kung ako sa'yo, kakabahan ako, kasi ako sanay sa hirap. Eh ikaw?" - Katherine

"Gusto mo ikaw ang itali ko? Pasweet sweet ka pa diyan, ganid ka rin pala!" - Isadora

"Ang bigat naman ng salitang 'yon Isadora, pero totoo, oo ganid ako! At gusto ko, ni singko walang matira sa'yo! Kaya manginig ka na Isadora, dahil uubusin ko ang lupang tinatapakan mo!" - Katherine

"Iba na ang sitwasyon ngayon Isadora. Marami akong pera, kaya ko nang bilhin ang kahit na ano. Kahit ikaw, magkano ka ba?" - Katherine

"Hayop ka! Kahit kelan hindi mo ako mabibili, at hindi mo ako kayang bilhin!" - Isadora

"Sabagay, ayoko sayo. Mumurahin ka eh, pero yung anak mo ibebenta mo ha. Sige na, promise hindi ako tatawad. Kahit used goods na, ok lang. Pag-isipan mo." - Katherine

"Pagod ako. Huwag kang loloko-loko. Baka gusto mo ihampas ko tong bag kong mas mahal pa sa'yo!" - Katherine

"Sabagay, ako rin eh, pagod makipaghampasan. Next time, ok? In fairness ah, ang ganda ng damit mo. Pahiram minsan ha." -Isadora

"Natatakot ka ba sa akin, o sa sarili mo? Alam mo, bibigay ka rin." - Katherine

"Sana, dumating ang panahon, na akong nagiisang laman ng puso't isip ni Miguel. Sana ako lang ang mahalin niya." - Scarlet

"Pero hindi ako susuko, kahit anong mangyari, babawiin kita Miguel. Dahil alam kong naging una kang naging akin. Dahil alam kong hindi kita kayang kalimutan." - Katherine

"Pakisabi sa bisita mo, ayoko ng nangangamoy basura ang bahay ko." -Katherine

"Anak ka nga talaga ni Isadora, nakuha mo lahat sa kanya. Mata-pobre, mayabang, at higit sa lahat, bastos!" - Katherine

"Don't you dare say bad things about my mother, kumpara sa 'yo. anghel ang ina ko!" - Sophia

"Anghel na may sungay!" - Katherine

"Oo, may sungay. Para suwagin ka! Para mauna ka na sa impyerno!" - Sophia

"Hmm. Matagal-tagal na kayong inaantay dun. In fact, balita ko, si satanas mismo ang sasalubong sa inyong mag-ina!" – Katherine

"Panandaliang donya, habang buhay na busabos." - Lola Aura

“Mamamatay tao ka! You killed my father!” - Scarlet

"Kung may gusto kong patayin, ikaw yun Scarlet!” - Katherine

"Alam kong hindi mo sinasadya pero ang sakit sakit ng ginagawa mo Catherine. Hanggang kailan ako masasaktan... Hanggang kailan?" - Rafael

“Paano mo malalamang in love ka na? Yung hindi attracted lang…”  - Jester

“Luluhod ka sa harapan ko at magmamakaawa ka na tanggapin kita ulit!” - Scarlet

“Kumain ka na. Gutom lang yan!” - Miguel

“Oh aren't you excited to see me?” - Isadora

“Excited? Alam mo bang mas excited pa akong magpunta ng dentista at mag pa root canal kesa ang makaharap ka?” - Scarlett

“Ikaw naman, nagpapaka-funny. Kung ang lahat ng bulok na ngipin ay kasing ganda ko, o di wala ng bibili ng toothpaste… I'm so witty” - Isadora

“Ano ba talagang pakay mo? I'm sure hindi naman ang kapakanan ng dental industry ang pinunta mo dito di ba? Business? Monkey business?
“Oo, at napaka disenteng monkey business. Politics.” - Isadora

“Ba't mo ko sinampal, biyenan mo ko!” - Isadora

“Di lahat ng biyenan, pinagbibigyan, Di lahat ng biyenan pinapatulan! para yan sa mga biyenang bakulaw tulad mo!” - Scarlet

"Tapos ka na sa gold digger in red. Tapos ka na rin sa merry widow in black. Ngayon, baka pwede ka ng dirty mistress in dirty brown.” - Scarlett

“Same to you anak, remember? Pareho na tayong nasasadlak ngayon. Damn you, damn me. Karma's a bitch, and so are you…” - Scarlett

Panalo talaga si Isadora noh Mr. T!? Hahaha...
Thanks to PEX's Claudinetiltheend for the quotable quotes.

jjcobwebb

We shopped for polos, and slacks and leather shoes. Masaya Mr. T! 9am pinapunta na ko ni Ate si GH para maghanap na ng mga gusto kong polo etc. Ayun, mga 11am sila dumating sa GH dahil nagmass pa sila. Then sinundo muna ko nila sa Theatre Mall since lunch na and dun na lang daw sa bahay nila kami kakain. Then naglunch kami dun then back to GH. Ayun, masaya, dahil lahat ng itinuro kong long sleeves and tie binili ni ate. Then kumain kami sa Haagen Dazs. With Emo, Page pala kami and Ate. Ayun, after eating sa Haagen Dazs, nagpaparlor kami sa kaibigan ni Ate dun sa may malapit sa Cubao. Pati ako nagpamake-over na rin. May bago na kong haircut and pinathreading na rin ni Ate yung balbas ang bigote ko pati ung kilay ko sa gitna! Hahaha... then binaba nila muna ako sa bahay.

Birthday pala ni PJ. Wala pa akong regalo kanina and 1 hour na lang bago siya magbirthday sa GH din! Wah! Then yun, sa SM Centerpoint na muna ako bumili ng regalo and dun na rin ako bumili ng slacks! Grabe mahal nung slacks na nabili ko shete! Tapos bumili rin ng gift para kay PJ. Then off to McDonald's GH.

Bago pumasok sa McDo, binalikan ko yung t-shirt na gusto ko pang kaninang bilihin. Black siya tapos may nakalagay na "KOTRABIDA". Hahaha! Naaliw ako sa t-shirt then I proceeded sa McDo. Ayun, andun mga pinsan and all. Puros bata siyempre children's party. 1st birthday ni PJ toh so kailangan hindi ko mamiss. Pero tamang tama, pagkadating ko kainan na! Hahaha... then after the party, kami ng pinsan kong si Bambi nag GH ulit since kulang yung nabili kong slacks. So umikot ikot kami ulit sa GH. Bumili rin siya nung t-shirt na kagaya ng sa kin. Kaso sa kanya "ISNABERA". Hahaha... tapos suot suot namin habang nag-iikot kami sa GH. Then yun, buti na lang may nakita pa kong slacks. And nakabili rin ako ng bagong leather shoes. Ready na ready na para bukas! Hahaha... ayun ang update ko ngayon Mr. T! Sobrang haba ng araw na toh grabe. Ang daming nangyari. Nakakapagod. Hay... it was a day. Ngayon ko lang nalaman na ang dami palang necktie dito sa bahay.

At si Laarni nanalo sa PDA! Okay na rin! :-) At it's ADMU vs. DLSU sa finals. This is fun!

And I'm tired...

Naalala ko lang habang binibilhan ako ni Ate ng long sleeves:

Ate     : Pumili ka na rin yung pweden pang-gimik na long sleeves
Jacob   : Nyek, hindi naman ako mahilig gumimik
Ate     : Nakita ka nga ni Earl dati sa Government eh, hindi ka mahilig?
Jacob   : Nyak, birthday ng kaibigan ko yun kaya ako nandun nung araw na yun. Thrice pa lang ako nakakapunta dun...

jjcobwebb

I have never been in a relationship. Yes, it's true. People around me never believe me when I tell them this. I have had flings and hook-ups here and there, but a serious one? Never had.

I once had this friend,  we met on-line. I just turned 19 then and he was 23. The whole gay thing was new to me that time. I was aggressive and was so eager to explore what the world I was in was. Guys4men and Downelink were non-existent during those times. There were no gay networking sites yet when me and this friend got to know each other. The site is where one simply puts up a profile with pictures and then specifies what his or her orientation is. The orientation that I chose on that site was "Open-Minded" since I really do not know where I belong yet during those times. I was cuter back then if I may say! Hahaha! He had no pictures. He sent me a message and told me that nobody knows about him and that he wanted to be friends with me. To my kind heart, I gave him a chance to be my friend. We exchanged numbers and YM id's and we started from there. Everyday he would text and everyday we would talk. He was sweet. He remembered me every single hour of the day. I asked him if he wanted to meet up with me. Have a coffee or something. He refused. We were already close as close friends during those times. He wasn't ready yet he told me. I drifted away since I am one of those who believes that physical presence is much better than virtual presence. In that kind of presence, you get to know how the person act and talk. How he really thinks in a live conversation. In a spontaneous conversation. And how he looks into your eyes. He wasn't ready so I stopped any communication from him.

6 months later, I received a text message. The message came from an unnamed contact. So, I tried asking who the person was in my way of asking names of unnamed contacts, "Sorry my phone got reformatted, who's this?". It was him. I never saw a picture of him. Not even a part of his body. He told me he was ready to meet up with me that time. I got all excited. The texting and chatting continued for months and he showed himself to me on a web-cam. He was hot. Ripped body, tall, above average looking. He was everything I have fantasized about. And in my own description, he was a god.

Second term and I had my English research paper course. I always did cut that subject for him. Just to meet up with him. Our first meet up happened so fast. He fetched me, I rode on his car, he told me he forgot something in his condo and the rest was history. To cut it short we immediately had sex in his condo. It was my first time that night. And when I got home, I tried taking a bath for as long as I could because I really felt dirty. But this meet-sex-meet-sex arrangement continued for 5 months. I didn't know the term fuck-buddy then. Another friend told me we were already that. But it's not like everytime we meet up we had sex, no. He is a sweet guy. A sensitive one too. I remember spending my first Valentine's Day with him. He treated me so special that I got gifts and lotsa foods that day. I wasn't thoughtful back then. I remember him saying "Aw, you didn't bring me even a single rose". I didn't know he was that sensitive. So I just kissed him, while he was driving, and told him that I was sorry. He smiled and held my hand. The people in front us, inside the jeepney saw me kissed him. We just laughed hard and headed to The Fort. I really felt special those times.I think I was.

We continued hanging out. Me going to his condo like every ENGLTWO subject. I would cut it just to be with him those times. We would cook together, watch DVD together. Ate out and dined out. Timezone-d together. Bought groceries together. He would even buy me something when we were shopping. And when his friends would visit his condo, he would introduce me as his cousin. Then we would laugh once his friends are gone. And I was introduced as his cousin many times! Hahaha! We would order pizza and pig ourselves out. We would play Punch U-Punch Me but I slapped him on the face everytime he hit me hard. I would throw his books and magazines when he would tease me. There was even a time I got so angry that I threw one of his magazines out of the window and then after that we just laughed. Hahaha! I know that was weird. We cleaned his unit together. Helped me with my research paper that time. Car washed together. Dry-cleaned clothes together. Walked along the streets of Makati late at night together. And would you believe, he would let me watch him work-out in the gym? But most of the time, we would just sit down in his condo's penthouse, overlooking Makati, underneath the stars, and just talk about anything. 

It was like us. Well that's how we were but sadly it we were not. He even invited me to go with him to Boracay for free. Of course, I wasn't spontaneous back then. If I didn't have those failed programming subjects, I would have said yes. He never told me what his job was. But he was always carrying this little notebook with him everywhere we went. He never told me his real name too. I discovered it myself when we registered his car. He was the most closeted gay I've ever met. Not a single hint. But everytime I asked him if he was gay, he would answer no. I didn't bother asking that to him again.

Things came to sink in when he moved to a new condo that time. It was a more expensive condo. I was with him when he was trying to bargain for that unit. I remember him smiling at me when the manager already gave him the keys to his new condo. We didn't meet up for several weeks since he was moving out from his old condo. Then, I visited him when he told me that everything on his new condo was already fixed and asked me to drop by. Then we had sex. The bed was bigger now. And it was a California King sized bed. The room ambiance was much better and it was a bliss making love on top of the world. Yes, his room was overlooking Greenbelt 3. Everything was impeccable. If there's such thing as posh sex, I had one. Hahaha! He always slept after we did it. I was watching the TV that time in the living room and was thinking "where we were" those times. He was sleeping in the bedroom. That's when I told myself, I wanted to have a relationship. I knew there was nobody else he was seeing since most of the time, I was  holding his 2 cellphones. We didn't have common friends but I knew who his friends were. All of his phone's messages came from his friends and from his mom. That's when I felt, I was special. 

He always gave me a ride home. He always insisted. In the car, we were talking. I brought up the relationship idea that I was thinking about. So I asked: "What do you think about relationships?". He paused for a while. I closed my eyes and tried opening one eye while waiting for his answer. There was an uncomfortable silence. He took a deep breath. He looked at me and smiled and told me these words: "Let's put it this way, just think of me when we're together.", then he patted my head held my hand. I was speechless. Those words are so vivid that I still remember his voice when he said those. I wanted to have something more. I wanted something I could hold on to. The moment he dropped me off my house, he never heard a word from me again...

Well, this year we're in contact again --- hahaha. And he was hotter the last time I saw him. He told me what his real job is. And I just realized he was brave to say and show how he felt. He didn't use me nor play with my feelings. He was honest with me. He said what's in his mind. He was consistent with his words and deeds.

He didn't lead me on.

These I never realized before.

And now, we're friends again and that's all we'll ever be...

jjcobwebb

At puwede ang Tabulas dito sa HSBC! Mwahahaha... pati Wordpress at Yahoo! Kailangan ko pang alamin mga websites dito. Kanina pa ko nagbabasa sa Yahoo! dahil alam ko na pinagagawa sa kin dito and bukas na yung susunod na update nung reports. Nagkasunog pa dito sa The Fort. Nasunog yung St. Lukes. Kitang kita dito sa building. Sige, lunch muna ko. :-) 

jjcobwebb

Mag-isa kong kumakain sa Jollibee kanina Mr. T! May lumapit na guy:

Guy  : Hey, you look sad. Want some company? Yosi?
Me   : Fuck off, please...

Pagkabalik ko may sounds na sa office. Instrumentals. Heaven Knows ang tugtog. Hindi ko na nagawa pinagagawa ni Sir Mico. Umiyak ako sa table ko. Biglang sinundan ng All I Ask of You. Nananadya ba si God?  Di ko alam. Pero pumunta na kong washroom at umiyak pa ng lalo.

Had dinner with Rhitz and Barry sa BHS. Then met up with Luis and his friend China sa BHS din. Barry gave me a ride home...

In the car:

Barry  : Kanina ka pa tahimik simula nung nagkita-kita tayo. Sa Fully Booked, sa Pancake House, sa Clawdaddy. Okay ka lang?
Me     : ...
Barry  : O tissue...

Yep, I cried for the nth time this day. Napapagod na ko umiyak ngayong araw na toh... :-(

jjcobwebb

Sobrang naaliw ako nung una kong nakita toh sa TV:

This just shows that it's now okay to be gay. :-D

jjcobwebb

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Siya - Posted April 17, 2008

Let me share my stories. I am trying to find out what I have learned from my experiences.

He and his girlfriend broke up that time. I was on my seat. Checking my online accounts. I saw a message. It came from a guy. He wanted to be friends with me. I ignored. He sent a message again. I ignored. He tried my patience but I gave in and accepted his invitation to be friends with him.

We were of the same age that time, just turned 20. We met after several text message exchanges. About a week. I was not attracted to him the first time we met. He was taller than me, nice body, good looking and was nice and was intelligent. I never liked moreno guys before. Mestizos have always been my type but he broke my preference. 

He was editor-in-chief of their University paper that time. He was also a student council. He was the reigning Mr. University. He was also part of their University’s theater org. He was a diligent student. He was my complete opposite.

This friend of mine, was having a hard time getting over his past relationship. I offered a shoulder to cry on. He would text me from time to time. Every hour, every minute. Everyday and even before going to sleep. These small acts I never noticed before. But there was a time when he swept me off my feet. He was in Baguio for a seminar those times. While in Baguio, we never failed to check how I was doing. Not on text but by call. I felt really something strange for him that time. I ignored what I was feeling since I told myself then that guys will just make me cry. What he did to make me loose my grip on my heart was this, he was coming down from Baguio. And every stop-over he would call me. Every hour he would call me too to check what I was doing. He would text me where he was and how long before he arrived in Manila. I found that very sweet then I fell for him bad.

It was a sudden change of heart. From being cold to being warm, I was to him. When he arrived in Manila, I was the first person he met. Not his family, not his other friends but me. How I knew it? He told me to wait for him in the bus station and so I did. Then we ate out after he arrived. We talked about just anything. He’s not out. He never wanted to be out since a lot of people looked up to him. So basically we would have our first date far far from his place. We dated a lot of times. Sometimes his treat, sometimes mine. We’re just students so we didn’t go anywhere posh and expensive. We were basically cheap. We would eat isaw near their place. Eat fishball and all kinds of street foods. Eat in a carenderia when we had no money left. SM Centerpoint was our tambayan when we were already close since it was the mall nearest to both of us. We have walked from SM Megamall til Galleria. Ride every mode of public transportation on land. He wasn’t that well-off unlike my other friend. But I enjoyed every minute I was with him. I was happy and he was happy. He would always tell me how happy he was to have me. Of course I was happy too.

But wait, we were not in a relationship. We were just so close during those times. I fell hard for him. He said I was special for him. We enjoyed what we had. We would watch movies, and he would hold my hand. We cuddled inside the movie house when it was cold. We would feed each other popcorns while watching. He always let me sing his favorite song. He can’t sing so he would always ask me to sing for him. We would stay in Starbucks almost every night and just talk and talk and talk.

There was one time he wanted to visit our house. I didn’t allow him. It just wasn’t right then. But he never insisted again. On the other hand, he asked me to go to their house. I refused. I don’t know if it’s just me but I sensed that something was going to happen if ever we visited somebody’s house. I wanted to preserve him. After all those hook-ups and one night stand I had. I wanted a good start with him. I treasured him and he was like a jewel. But maybe, that was just what I was thinking. He just wanted to visit and that’s it.

Every night we talked on the phone. He asked me questions about anything. My family, my school, my past, anything. I wasn’t that open before to people. At first, I thought, he was trying trying to invade my personal space. But no, for the first time, since he was so open and was very eager to tell me his stories, I started sharing my stories too with him without barriers. No pretense. All truth. For the first time, I felt like I can breathe. Someone was interested with what I have to tell and what stories I had to share. He kept asking questions and I answered. I never felt that he was choking me or invading my privacy when he was asking me those things. I felt it was sweet. Someone was interested with me. With what I have to say. With my stories. With who I am. He never lied to me. I never lied to him as well. I was now madly in love with him that time.

I can still remember all his stories. He had such a miserable life. His mother, his brother, his sister and his pamangkins. I won't go into details. Every night he would cry on the phone and I would comfort him. I share my apprehensions too with him. He was a great listener. He didn’t think like a 20 year old guy. He was mature for his age. He was really a complete opposite of me.

Months passed by and we were like lovers. Like lovers. He would still ask what I was doing. Who I was with. Where I was and questions I thought were sweet. He cared about me. He was interested with me. And when I would ask him where we were, he would answer: “You’re special to me”. I was secured. I didn’t want to have sex with him until it was officially us. We never even kissed. Just held hands.

One early morning, I received a text message “Kami na ulit ng ex ko”. How's that for a morning greeting? I was shattered. I immediately flew away cause it was so painful. Why didn't he say that he's still into his ex? Was that something hard to do? I could have distance myself if he still felt something for his ex. He could have at least told me. I was broken. I don't know what to do those times. He didn’t hear a word from me again.

Before, I told myself I won’t cry because of a guy, but I cried because of him. For a month I cried before I slept. For a year, I didn’t date any guy because of what happened. Make that 2 years. I was devastated. I never wanted to go to the places we've been. I lost my trust. I lost myself. I lost him. I lost that almost-relationship. It was one of my lowest moments. But early this year, we bumped into each other. We tried to patch everything up. It’s still him and his girlfriend. And I told him I was happy for him and I never had the chance to say I love you to him.

And now, after 3 years, everything is like yesterday. I thought I've learned. But maybe, when we fall in love, we forget what we've learned because in love, we become unreasonable. And although a lot people tell themselves they've learned in love, the truth is, they'll never apply it once they fall in love --- again...

jjcobwebb

Online po ako sa Facebook. Kung gusto niyo ko ichat, sa Facebook na lang. Lalo ka niya Jeffrey dahil may kailangan akong itanong sa yo! Blocked ang YM dito sa office. At ang kapal ng mukha ko, kinakausap ko si Sir Mico at nakatiwangwang yung window ng Facebook sa monitor ko. Hahaha... pero sabi naman niya okay lang daw. :-) Kararating ko lang from lunch actually. Hahaha... sa Market Market ako naglunch sa may Tokyo Tokyo mag-isa. Hahaha... nilakad ko habang minumura ako ng araw dito sa The Fort. O di ba? Laban kayo? Ayun, buti hindi ako nakita ng guard kanina. Late ako ng 30 minutes pero sabi ko 8:30am pa rin ako dumating. Tapos ko na lahat ng pinagawa ni Sir Mico kaya siguro pinayagan niya kong magFacebook. Pwede naman kaso nakakahiya. Nagpaalam pa talaga ko! Hahaha... grabe 2 hours pa ko dito! Si Sir Mico lang kinakausap ko dito. Mga kasama ko dito sa workstation hindi ko naman kinakausap. Ako ba toh? Wala lang talaga ko siguro sa mood makipagbonding lately. Masarap manahimik and mapag-isa muna. Enjoying the silence kung baga. And para marest din vocal chords ko. Hahah! So yun, wahhhh... update you na lang Mr. T! pagkauwi... :-) Tinatry ko talagang maging okay. :-)

Kagagaling lang namin sa ospital binisita si Ate. Grabe parang may party sa kwarto ng ate ko nung dumating kami. Ang daming pagkain at ang daming bisita. Amp! Tapos nireklamo pa kami ng kabilang room dahil sobrang ingay namin.

Actually kauuwi ko lang nung pinasama ko ni Mama sa ospital. Kasama rin sina Tita Nene and Ate Bibing. Naospital na naman si Ate. Pero okay na siya. Tapos, grabe, pauwi galing sa HSBC nag bus ako. 3 bus bali. Ung The Fort Bus, yung sa EDSA and yung sa Ortigas. Grabe! Wahhh! Ayaw ko ng ganitong buhay! Tapos bukas sa ibang department naman ako ilalagay ni Sir Mico kasi wala siyang maisip na ipagawa sa kin. Hahaha! Hmmm... tapos mageMRT pala ako dapat kanina pero OA yung pila so nagbus ako. Dapat sa Cubao ako bababa pero nagsstop over pala yung bus sa may Galleria. So dun na ko bumaba and para iwas traffic na rin sa may Santolan. Then medyo umikot sa Galleria. Then uwi. Then kain. Wow. May buhay na rin ako sa wakas. Hindi na lahat ng oras ko para sa kin. Somebody was inviting me to have dinner kanina pero tumanggi ako dahil ang onti na lang ng oras ko para sa sarili ko makikipagdinner pa ko. Shet ako ba toh? Hahaha! Then yun, masarap pala minsan manahimik. Nakakapag-isip isip ka. Hmmm... dahil sa My Husband's Woman na palabas. Puros love pinag-usapan ng mga Tita at Nanay ko sa Van.

Sa Van nag-uusap mga oldies:

Tita Nene  : Naku, ang sakit talaga pagsinabihan kang hindi na attracted sa yo ang asawa mo...
Ate Bibing  : Oo, pero ganun talaga. Minsan nawawala pagmamahal mo sa isang tao. Di maiiwasan yun.
Ako        : Hindi ka naman dati mahal ng asawa mo eh. Ganun din yun pag nawala. Kaya ka niya ulit mahalin. Nasa sayo na lang yun kung ipapakita mong kamahal mahal ka ulit...
Mama       : In love ka? Parang may sense ka ngayon anak...
Ako        : In love? Hindi na...

So planado na ang Tagaytay sa October. At nag-oo na yung isa naming friend diyan na binigyan ng kapatid niya ng link dun sa commercial ng KFC! Hahaha! Umamin ka na raw! Okay lang, ate mo naman yun! Magegets ka nun! Wag lang sa kuya mo! Hahaha!

Si Aldrich daw nasa diyaryo: Cosmetics firm taps talents via student competition . Sushal ka ha! Hahahaha....

Proof na marami akong ginagawa sa OJT:

Oh di ba? Marami akong pose! Sabog na at sobrang basag na ko niyan! Hala sige picture pa rin! Hirap magpanggap ng may ginagawa ka kahit wala naman talaga! Hahaha!

Update you soon Mr. T! :-)

jjcobwebb

Bago matulog, naalala ko lang yung elevator kanina sa HSBC nung pauwi na ko. Wow, pagkabukas dun sa floor ko puros bading nasa loob ng elevator. Iba't ibang uri ng bading. May kilusan ba mga bakla sa HSBC? Hahaha... gusto ko biglang sabihin yung sinabi ng babae sa Cloud 9 commercial nung parehas yung tela ng damit niya sa table cloth eh "I belong!"... hahaha... that was funny... hahaha... kept me laughing inside The Fort bus til EDSA. I need to laugh. I need to laugh hard... Good night Mr. T! :-) 

jjcobwebb

Dapat nakauwi na ko kanina pa. Tsk, late kasi ako kaya humahabol ako ngayon sa oras. Tinext pa ko kanina si Sir Mikko kung papasok raw ba ako. Wahhh... baket ba kasi nahihirapan ako matulog? Tapos yung report na ginenerate ko eh hindi tugma dun sa reports na ginawa ni Sir Mikko. Pero buti nakita ko yung report na pinrint niya eh nung Monday pa. Grabe! Kinabahan ako! Wahhh...hmmm... may kainan dito, pero nahihiya ako makihalubilo. Si Sir Mikko pinipilit ako kanina. Pero ayaw ko kasi nahihiya nga ako. Hmmm... yun lang naman. Parang buong araw ko ginawa yung pinagawa sa kin ngayon. Tapos kalulunch ko lang actually bago mag 4pm kaya okay lang kahit hindi ako makikain dito ng pizza and donuts. Ayun, loner sa McDo. Hahaha... ako ba toh? Pero hiya talaga ako. Hindi nga ako nagsasalita dito tapos makikibonding ako pag may kainan. Hahaha... panget naman nun. Anyways, mga 6pm na lang ako uuwi Mr. T! Para sakto lang sa 8 hours ako dito. Minus 1 hour dahil ganun talaga dahil may 1 hour break naman daw talaga na lagi kong nilulubos. Si Barry nakatext ko pala kanina at nag-gygym na siya. Hindi nagsasabi yun. Kung kelan naman nagOOJT ako saka naman nag-gym. Nakakaasar. Kailangan ko imake-up mind ko kung kaya ko mag-gym pagkauwi galing dito sa The Fort. Baka naman kasi masayang bayad ko di ba? Anways, less that 15 minutes na lang and 6pm na. At nagsalita ako ngayon dito dahil may tinanong yung katabi ko. Wow! Himala! Hahaha... sige sige update you soon Mr. T! :-) Super bus na naman toh! Isipin ko pa lang kapagod na... hay...  

jjcobwebb

Handa mga gagawin ko sa office bukas. Wahh! Si Ma'am Sid ang daming dinalang papel kay Sir Mikko kanina. Tapos, nung pauwi, ayaw ko mag Fort Bus dahil sobrang OA yung pila, what I did was, nilakad ko galing sa bus station hanggang EDSA --- with my iPod!!! Hahaha! Laban ka? Okay lang palang lakarin. Nakatipid din ako di ba? Tapos parang mas mabilis pa kasi wala ng kung ano anong stopover. Mga 1 hour lang nasa bahay na ko. Di tulad nung nagbus ako sa the Fort. Mga 2 oras pa. Ayun, tapos tingin tingin ulit sa Galleria. At hindi ko magets baket sobrang traffic sa Ortigas??? Shete! As in! Ayun ang patagal sa pag-uwi ko grabe. Tapos dumaan muna ng Pure Gold San Juan at nag-grocery ng kung anu-ano. Pati mga cream at deodorant bumili na rin. Tapos dumaan sa drugstore --- nilakad ko na naman. Pagkauwi ko si Charice and Celine nasa Youtube na. Grabe galing. Tapos sina Mama nasa ospital ulit hindi muna ko sumama. Tapos bumalik ako ng drugstore para may kunin ---- nilakad ko na naman. Grabe, buhay na buhay pa rin ako ano ba toh Mr. T! Hmmm... anyways, pasok na naman bukas. Grabe, wala talaga akong balak magtrabaho sa opisina pagkagraduate ko!!! For sure yan! I have this very big plan Mr. T! *winks* Ahhh, siguro kaya marami pa kong energy kasi may nilaga kanina sa bahay! Hahaha... so yun, sana makalabas na si ate ng ospital Mr. T! :-) Update you soon. :-) At at, grabe 120lbs na naman ako! Wahhh... nakakalungkot!!!!

P.S. I'm nearing my 1000th enty. Ano kaya magandang topic para sa 1000th entry ko? Hmmm...

Night night! :-)

jjcobwebb

Grabe, pagkadating ko, binigyan agad ako ng work ni Miss Diane. Funny si Ms. Diane. Mataba tapos makulit. Grabe, from 8:30-12:30pm ko ginawa yun! Wahhh... pagkatingin ko lunch na. Si Barry naligaw sa The Fort. So naglunch kami... dapat sa Sweet Recipe, daming tao. Nauwi kami sa Chowking. Then bumalik na school si Barry. Tapos si Miss Lyn naman may pinagawa, from 1:30-6:00pm grabe, ginagawa ko pinagawa niya. Nakalimutan ko na sarili ko Mr. T! Nung nagCR ako nagsmile na lang ako sa sarili ko para mapawi yung pagod and kung ano naman nararamdaman ko. It was a tiring day. Sabi nga si Sir Mikko, si Jacob pinagod niyo. Oo! Pinagod niyo ko! Pero buti na lang may kainan kanina sa office. Birthday ni Beth! Yey! This time nakikain na ko dahil HUB department naman si Beth eh. Nung kainan nung isang araw sa ODD. Ayun, hahaha, medyo nakikiclose na ko dahil pagkain yun! Hehehe... anyways, dapat dederecho ko ng school para sa orientation. Andun sina Tin, Aubs and Matty. Kaso biglang umulan so umuwi na lang ako. Naghanap ng bag sa Galleria kaso ang papanget. May bibilhin dapat akong t-shirt sa F&H kaso nakakatawa masyadong maporma. Tapos dapat bibili ako ng A Walk To Remember na DVD on sale kasi, kaso baka malungkot lang ako lalo. Anyways, yun muna Mr. T! Update you soon okay? Pagod na ko talaga...

I just had to leave Subtle Bliss. Siguro marami na nga talagang taong naiinvolve sa buhay ko at kung ano pa man. All I wanted was to express myself and tell my stories. Some people will try anything to lambast me and the people close to me. Sobrang duwag nila Mr. T! :-( I’ll keep you for myself and for some people I trust my stories and how I feel and myself.

Yesterday was a busy day. But in the office it was not. Sobrang tunganga ako for 5 hours. Si Ms. Lyn and Ms. Dian naman kasi nagmeeting. Eh sabi ko kay Sir Mikko maghahalf day ako. So wala akong ginawa sa desk ko kung hindi mag-internet. Pati Facebook chat ngayon blocked na.

Anyways, left the office around 2pm. Nakalimutan ko yung GG tickets so umuwi muna ko. At nakaidlip. Buti si Matty pwede sumama so siya kasama ko the whole time hanggang gabi actually. Nakalagay sa ticket eh 4pm tapos nagstart sila ng 5pm. Tsk, the Fashion World is a DIVA. Anyways, yun, daming freebies naming nakuha ni Matty. Nanalo pa kami ng mga kung ano ano. Ganda nung tumbler na nakuha ko. Tapos kung ano ano pa. So yun, naisipan namin kumain malapit sa UA&P. May The Venue rin pala dun. Tapos after eating, umulan ng malakas. Eh dapat maglalagalag pa kami ni Matty kung san san. So hindi natuloy, naisipan na lang naming magShang. Nung pagkababa namin ng cab. Wala na yung cellphone ni Matty. Tsk… ayun, he tried running after the cab pero wala na. Nadead bat pa ko. Tsk! Hindi na namin nakuha. Naudlot mga dapat naming gawin at puntahan. Hay… bumalik kami sa The Venue pero wala na rin dun. So yun, sa Starbucks sa Shang kami ay naupo. Gusto pa talaga umalis ni Matty. Kasi inantok at napagod na ko dahil sa kalalakad at sa ulan. Sina Tin, Aubs and Deck nasa school pala nung gumagala kami ni Matty! Sabi ni Aubs baket di raw sila tinext. So yun… hindi na kami tumuloy at ako’y umuwi at nagpahinga na. Pictures here:

One of the best chats I’ve ever had was with Matty last night. Sobrang okay yung usapan namin sa The Venue kahapon grabe. I never had a chat like that for like how many years. Kung ako tatanungin kung magpaparaya ako sa kaibigan ko para sa isang lalake, oo naman, ibibigay ko na yung lalake sa kaibigan ko wag lang kami magkahiwalay. I treasure friendship. I love my friends. And kung 30 na ko at single pa rin ako… like what I’ve said to Matty, magpapakayaman na lang ako. Hahaha… bahala na… ang bilis ng panahon. Yung mga pamangkin ko kanina nasa kalsada naglalaro ng touch-ball. Parang kahapon lang kami ng mga pinsan ko yun. Hay… so yun Mr. T! Update you soon okay? Sana mabalik yung phone ni Matty. At wag ko raw muna ipaalam sa office na gay ako para raw pagtsismisan ako. Hahaha… you know you love me. xoxo…

Shucks kailangan ko maging masaya for myself. Hay…

jjcobwebb

Sinamahan ko kanina pinsan kong si Marco sa Greenhills kanina Mr. T! Pinaayos niya yung PSP niyang bagong bili. Hindi niya raw alam kung san sa Greenhills yun and mas marunong raw akong tumawad. After namin ipaayos yun, kumain kami kung san san. Ang dami naming nakain grabe. Tapos umuwi rin agad. Then pumunta sa bahay ni ate para kunin yung cheke at sunduin na rin sina Kobe and Kathleen. Then heard mass. Yun lang naman mga nangyari ngayon Mr. T! Update you soon.

jjcobwebb

Sobrang nakakapagod tong araw na toh Mr. T! Hay... grabe kaninang umaga ang hirap pa kumuha ng taxi and nagbabadya yung ulan. Buti na lang hindi umulan. Buti naman 10 minutes lang ako nalate. Tapos may pinagawa agad si Ms. Diane!!! Waahhh... hanggang 6:45pm yun ginagawa ko. Naglunch sa Jollibee mag-isa. Nag 2 39ers. Grabe solve pala yun! Hahaha! Tapos ayun, nagpakain si Ms. Jagy. Hahaha... pizza na naman! Yes! Hahaha... then umuwi na ko. Hindi ko nagets kung ano yung ginawa ko kanina Mr. T! Bahala na! Hahaha! Anyways, after umuwi, kailangan ko imeet si Barry sa Gateway para ibigay yung chekeng magsasalba sa buhay ko. Yes, at pag di niya nabigay bukas yun papatayin ko siya! Narinig pa ni Ms. Jen nung kumakanta ko ng Closer ni Ne-Yo. Naaliw siya. So yun, I'm so exhasted today. Daming pinagawa sa kin. Tapos ganun lang yung allowance ko? Unfair unfair! Hmmm... sige sige, update you soon Mr. T! At okay palang makinig kay Enya pauwi. Parang tinatrance ka niya and tinatanggal niya yung stress from the outside world. Hahaha! Hindi na raw ako nag-oonline sabi ni Jeffrey at baket nawala rin daw si subtle bliss. Hindi pa ko nakakapagreply. Tinatamad pa ko. Hahaha... sige sige update you soon Mr. T! Gusto na kita gawing public ulit pero wag muna ngayon. :-) Night!

If there’s really one thing I wanna do right now Mr. T!, that is to unlike Chris --- but I just can’t. It’s like everyday I like Chris more and more. Hay…

Anyways, sobrang daming ginawa kanina sa opisina Mr. T! So many things to do, so little cash. Hahaha! Anyways, thankfully, I got it all done. Then came 6:00pm and it was time to go. Chris and I decided to have dinner in Megamall. We’ve never eaten or been to Megamall before.It was our first time there and it was fun. Chris wanted to eat in Podium. Sabi ko huwag since the restos in Podium are classy --- meaning expensive. Hmmm… anyways, I was all lethargic when I got to Megamall. Traffic along EDSA, add to that the drizzle that caused me to open up my umbrella while walking along The Fort. But everything was subdued when I saw Chris Mr. T! Hay… he still never fail to make me happy. Even by just seeing him, after all these months and dramas, he still makes me happy. I really don’t know why but he still does.

We met up in Powerbooks. I looked older than him a while ago. Thanks to my attire and his attire. Tsk! Corporate attire sucks. He told me I should have brought a stethoscope since I was like a doctor with my white jacket and my necktie to compliment. We really had no idea where to eat a while ago Mr. T! Maybe all I wanted was to see him. Hmmm… but I was hungry too. Anyways, after the walking and strolling and talking, we ended up eating in Goldilocks. Chris wanted to order all the viand that was displayed on the counter. I’ve always loved Goldilocks’ Dinuguan so I ordered one. Then he ordered Kaldereta and Lechon Paksiw. We shared our ulam and he shared his rice with me. Then had some talking here and there. After eating, we walked again. We tried waiting for 8-9pm so we could easily get on the MRT train. We walked for the mean time.

While walking I bumped into Marvin! Wah! He’s a former blockmate and AK’s boyfriend. He was there in Megamall to fetch AK in HP he told he. He’s now working pala in Microsoft! Sushal! Then we had to end our conversation immediately since he looked like he was in a hurry. I wanted to have Dippin’ Dots. Sadly, when Chris and I got to the corner where it used to be, it was not there. Maybe, they weren’t there anymore for the longest time. I haven’t been to Megamall for ages so I didn’t know. I really wanted to have ice cream or a dessert while we were walking. Good thing we passed by Yogurbud. It was and Yogurt Ice Cream store. We decided to eat there. Then we sat for a while. Talked again. I told Chris what we walk while eating the yogurt but he didn’t want to. Chris finished his yogurt first. So I asked if we could now walk while eating my yogurt. I don’t know, the place where we ate that yogurt was just awkward. Then we strolled again, walked pass Fitness First and then to MRT.

There were still a lot of people using the MRT around 9pm Mr. T! And we thought it’ll be easy for us to ride the train. But it almost took forever for trains to arrive at Ortigas station. When we got to Cubao, we walked til LRT2 then went our separate ways. It was fun Mr. T! I was really happy with Chris a while ago.

Ang dami nang nangyari sa min ngayong taon. Good, bad, bull, full, nice, ugly etc. And I am very happy we’re still friends despite all. You heard me right Mr. T! Friends. Sad but I still have to control myself when I’m with Chris. He already set the border and I don’t want to get hurt anymore. I’m not forcing myself though. But come what may. I’m just not expecting anymore. And just like what the text message says: “It’s better to hope than to expect. For in expectations we meet disappointments. Whereas in hoping, we invite surprises and miracle. ”. It was a day Mr. T! A looooong day. I’m happy that Chris is still with me this year. I don’t wanna lose him now. Kahit hindi siya sa kin, ayaw ko siyang mawala sa kin. Hay… good night Mr. T!

jjcobwebb

Sa office, dami na namang ginawa. Pagod. Dapat imemeet si Gary and Mike sa Galleria kaso tinamad na ko dahil sobrang pagod. Libre pa naman daw ni Gary sayang. Eto ako super antok na. Sa Jollibee kanina nakita ko slacks ko puros putik. Nanhiram ako ng basahan sa isang crew para punasan pants ko. Tapos ang lamig sobra nung bus na nasakakyan ko pauuwi. Sarap! Umulan bigla ng malakas nung malapit na ko sa bahay Mr. T! Kung kahapon may siopao sa office, kanina may chocolate cake, palabok at ice cream. After lunch nagmuni muni ako mag isa sa 7-11. Kaya ayoko na magblog pagtapos grumaduate eh kasi, boring na ang buhay sa opisina. Hay... bigla kong namiss ang pagiging bum agad! At 2 linggo pa lang toh ha! Amp! Update you soon Mr. T! Night! :-)

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Talo ang DLSU sa ADMU! Hahaha! As expected naman! Galing galing ng ADMU ngayon. Lalo na yung Arabo na player! Shet siya!!! Hahahaha!Oo na magaling na Ateneo! Amp!

Anyways, hindi ako pumasok ngayon Mr. T! Tinamad ako at gusto ko rin manood ng UAAP! Hehehe! Ayun, hmmm... nakakamiss mag-online sa YM ng tanghali. Ayun, nakachat ko si Jeffrey buong hapon and gabi. Hindi na raw ako nag-oonline, ayun kanina online ako, nagulat at baket hindi raw ako pumasok. Amp! Pero okay na rin, hahaha, masaya pala ulit mamiss ng mga tao. Masarap kumustahin. Kung anu anong pinag-usapan namin grabe. Long time no chat amp! Kung kelan naman pwede na siya gumamit ng computer sa school, ako naman ang hindi puwede. If only I can find a way to get pass HSBC's firewall. Ubos na powers ko kakafigure out. Hmmm...

Hindi ako pumanta sa dinner with Rhitz, Luis and Barry. Wala ako sa mood grabe. Umuulan pa. Ewan ko lately wala akong gana makipagkita sa ibang tao. Hay... ayun, buti pala pumayag si Sir Mikko umabsent ako kanina. Nag-OK siya sa text and may happy face pa. Feeling ko naman marami ring absent kanina eh. Hahaha!

Anyways, umuulan na naman, ayoko ng ulan. Si Tita Estrella ieueuthanasia na ata. Hay, shucks ayaw ko isipin nakakalungkot Mr. T! Pero ganun talaga. Hay... sad sad.

Anyways, yan muna update ko. Casual outfit tomorrow yey! Buti hindi na formal. Ang effort talaga ng corporate attire eh. Hay... anyways, update you soon ayt Mr. T! Still, I can't put you on public. Saka na ha?

Sorry hindi ka tuloy nakacelebrate ng 1000th entry. Pinag-iisipan ko rin kung No Time To Cry na ang name mo or Subtle Bliss pa rin. Hay... sige sige update you soon Mr. T!

I love ya, I enjoy ya, I appreciate ya!

Mwah mwah! 

Grabe, walang pinagkaiba!!! Hahaha! Dapat sa 2011, hot na ko! Hahaha… I need some guiding star para magwork out ako at hindi tamarin. Wahhh... hahaha...

jjcobwebb

Sobrang walang ginawa masyado sa office. Libre kape courtesy of Ms. Jags. Natapos ko na kasi lahat ng pinagawa ni Ms. Diane for the week kaya parang nagbasa basa lang ako ng mga E-book the whole time nasa opisina ko. Masaya rin pala maging useful. Yung feeling mo useful ka. Wala lang kasi tinatanong na ko nina Ms. Jags, Ms. Lyn and Ms. Diane sa mga process eh kaya feeling ko useful na ko. Ayun, had lunch na naman magisa sa Chowking. Sobra ko namang binusog sarili ko grabe! Tapos yun, napagusapan na naman namin ni Chris magkita. So un-Chris like di ba? Pumapayag na ngayon sa kin makipagkita ng walang pahirapan?

Grabe, dati nag-uusap lang kami ni Chris na sa 3rd time na magkita kami late pa rin ako, or sa 5th or sa nth... at ngayon ilang beses na kami nagkita. Parang kahapon lang talaga yun. Nakakatuwa isipin Mr. T!

So yun, nasa Megamall ako habang nagpapa-interview si Chris sa isang company sa Ortigas Center. Tumakas daw siya sa office niya. Then nagkita kami sa St. Francis Square para kumain ng Siomai. Parang ewan lang yung mga text ni Chris nung naghahanapan kami sa St. Francis Square. Parang pang-eyeball lang yung mga tinetext. Amp! Ayun, oo, 100 pcs na siomai raw pala ang gusto ni Chris. Kaso wala yung siomai stand na gusto niya. Hahaha! Ayoko naman kumain sa Hong Kong Style ek ek. Yak yun eh.

Anyways, naisip namin ni Chris na sa Metrowalk na lang kumain. So nilakad namin from St. Francis Square to Metrowalk. Nakailang tawid kami, ilang overpass, ilang stop light. Nung nasa Metrowalk na kami, narealize namin eh puros inuman lang dun. Naisip ko, since nasa Ortigas na rin, sa Greenhills na lang kumain. Himala, pumayag pa rin si Chris! Hindi kaya may sakit siya. Imagine mo naman Mr. T! Nilakad namin yung street sa likod ng Union bank tapos umikot kami bumalik din kami sa Julio Vargas. Di ba? Bagon hobby ata namin ang paglalakad. Buti na lang nakakuha agad kaming cab kaya ayun.

Sa Greenhills, may pinakita akong store ng t-shirt kay Chris. Mga Negativity t-shirt. Wala lang. Then naghanap ng makakainan. Since ang daming tao sa Gerry's at TBoy at hindi consumable yung babayaran namin if ever sa Family World KTV,  so, napad pad kami sa Max's. Ayun, dun kami kumain. May eksena pa dun kanina. Hahaha... hindi siya importante sa blog so hindi ko na isusulat. Ayun, had Kare-Kare and Sizzling Chicken Sisig ba yun? Tapos if I know talaga fan si Chris ni Mariah din! Hahaha...

Then dapat, magvivideoke kami, kaso nawaiting list kami eh. So inaantok na rin si Chris. Naawa rin ako kasi siyempre alam kong pagod din yun. Ako sa totoo lang energetic pa dahil sa kape ata ni Ms. Jags. Ayun, masaya Mr. T! Tapos sumakay ng cab. Nakisabay ako til Petron Ortigas then nagjeep. Grabe, nakasabit ako sa jeep the whole time hanggang makababa. Hahaha... it was a night. Sayang wala kaming pics. At next week nasa Makati si Chris for training! Weeeeh! Saya! Sana sabay kami umuwi. At next Friday lalabas ulit kami! Yey!

Sabi nga sa kanta ni Sheryl Crow: "If it makes you happy, it can't be that bad."...

Night Mr. T! :)

Natuwa ang aking nana at sinabihan ako ng "Puwede ka ng mag-asawa!". Yay! Sino naman gagawin kong asawa haller naman sa nanay ko!!! Hahaha... inaabuso ang talent ko sa pagluluto palagi. Walang New Year at Paskong dumaan na ako ang nagluluto nag Spaghetti! Hahahaha! Shucks, nalala ko tuloy Mr. T! yung Putanesca na ginawa namin dati ni Mama. Hahaha... isip kami ng isip kung ano yung "Achovies" nun eh yun kasi nakalagay sa cookbook! Ampota! Dilis lang pala yun! Shet ang mahal pa nung binili naming in-can na dilis! Hahaha... shucks! Ang funny!

Kung mayaman lang kami para mag-aaral ako na Culinary Arts! Hahaha... tapos magpapakahot ako at igueguest sa Hot Guys Who Cook! Hahaha... at baket parang wala na sa ETC yang palabas na yan? Hmmm...

Anyways, tumambay lang sa bahay the whole day. Pinasasama ako kanina nina Mama and Ate sa Divisoria. Hindi ako sumama dahil alam kong pagbubuhatin lang ako ng mga bibilhin nilang kalat dun. So yun, natulog and kagigising ko lang kani-kanina.

Ang eyebags ko parang lumalala simula nung nagOJT ako sa HSBC :-(. Hay... paano na ang pangarap kong maging hot kung maleta na mga bags ko sa mata! Hahaha... anyways, dapat rin pupunta ko school dahil andun sina Aubs and Deck, as usual tinamad! Umulan ulan pa kanina.

Kanina pa ko nood ng nood sa Youtube ng Mariah shete! Hindi nagsasawa! Pati mga parody pinanood ko na. And, yung video na kasama dito sa entry na toh. Sobra akong naaliw! As in tawa ko ng tawa mag-isa kanina! Hahaha... shete! Sorry pero alam mo namang masayahin ako! Hahaha…

May Ugly Betty Season 3 premiere na pala. Nonood ako bago matulog ngayon.

Baket ang sarap matulog?

Anyways, yun lang Mr. T! Update you soon okay?

jjcobwebb

Grabe, na obsess ata si Mama sa necktie Mr. T! Ang dami talagang biniling nectie para sa kin. Tuwang tuwa raw siyang makita akong nakacorporate attire! Pinabili pa ko kanina ng mga light colored long sleeves dahil puros dark raw. Ayun, kaso nakatulog ako so hindi ako nakabili. Pero after dinner, pinilit ako bumili amp! Sa Centerpoint ako bumili so Gray and White binili ko. Umuulan na naman Mr. T! Hay... sige sige update you soon. Yun lang kuwento ko. Grabe, tulog lang ako ng tulog. OJT na naman bukas! Update you soon! :-)

jjcobwebb

Tapos na trabaho pero andito pa rin ako naghihintay ng 6pm. May kainan mamaya somewhere near dahil post birthday celebration ni Matthew. Hay... anyways, nakikipagtext ako sa isang friend ko the whole afternoon and ganito ang aming topic:

Friend   : Jacob grabe may kukuwento ako sa yo...
Jacob    : Ano yun?
Friend   : Kinalkal ko kanina cellphone ng BF ko
Jacob    : O tapos?
Friend   : Nakita kong may picture yung ex niya dun...
Jacob    : O? Picture lang naman pala eh...
Friend   : Baket kailangan may picture yung ex niya dun?
Jacob    : Malay mo friends sila or remembrance di ba?
Friend   : Ang sakit grabe Jacob kung alam mo lang...
Jacob    : Wait, ano bang itsura nung ex niya?
Friend   : Okay lang naman.
Jacob    : Ganito na lang, kung feeling mo mas pogi sa yo ex niya, ikibit-balikat mo na lang. Pero kung mas pogi ka sa ex niya, naku tawanan mo na lang! Hahaha...
Friend   : Pero sakit pa rin eh...
Jacob    : At kung mas pogi ka, sabihin mo "Wow sweet mo naman may picture ka ng aso mo sa cellphone mo! Hahahah..."
Friend   : Sira ka talaga kahit kelan!
Jacob    : Puta ka! Wag ka masyadong paapekto, picture lang naman yun walang magagawa yun. Mabaliw ka pag-nakita mong nakapatong bf mo sa ex niya! Hahaha...
Friend   : May point ka...

Di ba di ba? Daming ginawa pero buti natapos ko na pinagawa ni Ms. Lyn, Ms. Diane and Ms. Jen. Oh di ba? Galing galing ko? Update you soon Mr. T!

Ayun, 21st birthday celebration ni Matty kanina Mr. T! Had to walk from HSBC til Serendra. Naiwan ko pa salamin ko sa table ko at binalikan ko pa. Then yun, nakita ko si Aubs and Deck naglalakad na sa Serendra and kinalabit ko. Iksi na ng buhok ni Matty! At wala si Tin! Nagdecide whether sa Chelsea or sa Polu Kai kakain. We ate at the later. Anyways, at first walang tao tapos dumami yung tao. Sobrang alam mong allergic ako sa hipon and crab di ba Mr. T? Pero kumain pa rin ako. Amp! Tapos may dalang candle si Matty. Sayang talaga hindi kami nakadala ng cake for him so bumili na lang sina Aubs and Deck nung parang cake tapos binudburan ni Matty ng 21 candles. Basta buti hindi bumukas yung fire alarm dahil literally umusok yung cake! Hahaha! Tapos after kumain, naglakad lakad. Then tumambay sa Fully Booked. Then basa basa mga libro. Tapos naaliw sina Aubs sa pose ko kanina sa FB dahil sobrang bagay raw ako sa upuan and background so pinicturan nila ko. After nun, nagbus na pabalik ng EDSA. Sabay nagtext ang ibang friends. Grabe may drama na naman! Hahahah! Sometimes I really hate online networking sites! Super tawag pa ko sa isang friend na nasa malayong lugar para ipaalam at magtanong. Hays… aayos din toh! Wah! Anways, tapos yun, MRT, sina Aubs Matty and Deck nagcolorum since South sila. Tapos si Mike nagtext din na gusto makipagkita. So okay dumaan ako sa office niya and mga 5 minutes lang kami nag-usap since super antok na ko sabi ko. Then nagcab na pauwi. Yun mga nangyari Mr. T! Grabe, I’m dead tired. Ang daming pinagawa kanina sa HSBC. Anong akala nila regular employee ako??? Daming pinapagawa tsk! Anyways, update you soon Mr. T! Good night! Good night!

Sige sige update you soon Mr. T! Mwah! Grabeee pagod na ko!

jjcobwebb

Magsinungaling at mag-imbento ng kuwento...

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Grabe, lahat ba ng gagawin natin at ginawa natin na hindi magkakasama eh dapat sabihin sa isa't isa? Dapat ba lahat accounted for? Tang ina nakakabuwisit! May sari-sarili tayong buhay! And mga bagay na hindi na dapat hukayin, wag ng hukayin. Paulit ulit na lang nakakapagod na rin! Parati na lang ganito! Nahihirapan din ako sa totoo lang! Ano ba naman yan!!! :-(

jjcobwebb

Ako nagclose ng drugstore. Parang nanood lang ako ng Gossip Girl pagkauwi at pumunta na ng drugstore pagkagaling sa HSBC. Grabe, nagcocompute ako kung hanggang kelan ako sa HSBC at mukhang 3rd week pa ng December ako matatapos dun! Shet. Ayoko na po talaga! Tas yun, wala, grabe ano ba, ang sarap nung tuyo na dinner namin kanina! O di ba! Mayaman! Hahaha! Pero shete ang sarap ng tuyo pag matagal ka ng hindi nakakakain ng tuyo. Ayun, wala na kong time sa sarili ko. Grabe, pa hard working kuno pa ko. Hay. Sige sige, update you soon Mr. T! At sobrang lamig sa HSBC. Nakatulog ako! Wahhh... buti naman hindi ko na kailangan mag-explain ng kung anu ano sa mga kaibigan ko. Pinaubaya ko na sa pinakamamahal kong friend ang explanation. Stress lang talaga kung iintindihin ko yun. Hmmm... and nakasabay ko si Ms. Jags sa elevator and nag-usap kami. Ang bait bait. Si Jamie rin, Atenista, maganda, lagi niya kong inissmile-an pagdumadaan sa desk ko! Pati ako nagssmile. And sina Chari and Giselle kinakausap na rin ako. Ayun, pero sobrang antok na talaga ko Mr. T! Kanina grabe! At natulog talaga ko ang kapal ng mukha ko! Yung table ko pa naman kitang kita ng buong bayan dahil dinaraanan ng mga tao. At yung allergy ko pala kanina nabuhay! Binigyan ako ni Ms. Diane ng mask. Si Sir Mikko may pinagawa rin sa kin.  So yun, wala kong makwento grabe. At ang ganda pala nung song ni Michael Bolton na Completely! Kanina ko lang ulit narinig at nafeel nung nasa bus ako. Ang lamig din nung mga bus na nasakyan ko! And, and aga ko nakauwi kanina! Hindi masyadong traffice sa Ortigas. Kasi, 7pm nasa Galleria na ko eh! Eps lang talaga ang Ortigas laging traffic! So yun, update you soon! Marami akong kwento pero di ko maisip eh. At salamat Holiday bukas! Grabe! Kaya pala mga empleyado sayang saya pagHoliday! Now I know! Hahaha...