Entries for October, 2008

Hindi dapat ako sasama dahil mas gusto ko matulog pero okay na rin. Nagpabili na naman ako ng kung anu-ano. Hahaha! Gusto ko bumili ng Clinique kanina Mr. T! Pero naisip ko, magpapadala na lang ako sa tatay ko. Tapos kumain kami sa Max's. Grabe tagal ng service! Amp! Tapos nag-ikot ikot. May 25k na gift cheque si Ate kaya super dampot ako ng mga kayang damputin kanina. Hahaha. Tapos dapat magogrocery kaso ang OA ng mga tao. Ang daming tao talaga kanina sa mall! Shucks! At may Butterfinger Crispy! Yak! Masarap pa rin yung original! Buti isa lang binili ko kanina. So yun lang naman Mr. T! Update you soon. OJT na naman bukas, hay... sana wag masyadong umulan or bumagyo.

At mula sa kwento ng ibang tao, break na pala si Anjhe and Ian! Sad sad! :-( at si Jobet din at yung gf niyang pumuntang America, break na rin sila after several on and off. Sad sad. Official na ngayon. Grabe, at ayon sa chismis, pagtapos nilang magbreak, nakahanap agad ng BF yung girl! At yung pinsan ko rin, after 8 years nila ng bf niya, nakipagbreak na rin siya! Shucks! Akala ko sa altar na sila tutuloy! Ayun, tsk, ayoko ng kuwentong kabreakan hay! Pero ganun talaga. Wala tayong magagawa. Baka may ibang happy endings para sa kanila di ba? Yay eto na naman ako! Hahaha! So yun muna. Update you soon! :-)

Currently listening to: Postcard from Heaven by Lighthouse Family
Currently feeling: nice
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 1, 2008 at 08:55 PM in Everyday Drama | Post a comment

Mr. T! Naalala mo ba si Soy? Ang unang unang guy na nag-effort akong ligawan ever. Sadness dahil aalis na siya for US for good. Hay... sad sad... anyways, pinaview niya ko sa cam niya para makita ko raw siya for the last time sa Pilipinas kahit sa webcam lang. Sabi ko smile siya dahil ilalagay ko sa blog dahil never siya nagkapicture dito. Nagsmile naman at mukhang nagpacute pa. So yun, medyo nalungkot ako dahil hindi man lang kami nakapagbonding bago siya umalis. Hay... bigla tuloy nagflashback mga memories with Soy. Anyhows, ganun talaga buhay. Wala tayong magagawa. Sana maging masaya si Soy sa America. :-)

Currently listening to: When It's Over by 3 Doors Down
Currently feeling: blank
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 1, 2008 at 10:17 PM in Everyday Drama | Post a comment

Soy called me awhile ago to say bye

I ate the biggest Chicken Joy in my entire life yesterday. Sobrang laki.

For the first time nag-utos si Ms. Jaggy sa kin. It feels good to be useful.

McDo With Chris and Redbox afterwards. Wala na kong maalala after.

Ang rude pag may kasama kang isang tao tas text ka ng text. Nakakabastos lang. What's worse is kabastusan din yung tinetext mo sa katext mo. Lumilinaw ata mata ko pagnalalasing. Nababasa ko mga tinetext ng ibang tao. Rude and promiscuous. It made me cringe.

I was once promiscuous. Tinalikuran ko na yun. Even though everybody is a whore, and as much as I want to whorify myself again ala second year College, I won't. Never again. Ayoko ng bumalik sa lugar na yon. Let's say I've been saving myself para sa taong tunay na mamahalin ko.

When I love. I love. No explanations.

I'm a give away. What you see is what you get. Too bad some people have to wear masks when they're infront of you. Sad. Just when you thought you know a person very well, think again.

Wala na kong iiiyak and wala namang akong karapatang umiyak. I just want to be happy that's it. Baket hindi ko mahanap ang happiness. I feel so numb right now. Give me sleep...

 

Currently listening to: dog barking
Currently feeling: numb and sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 4, 2008 at 09:03 AM in Everyday Drama, OJT | 1 comment(s)

Met up with a friend today. A tall friend. A very very tall friend. Anyways, he was trying to reach me on my cellphone yesterday but I did not answer (Ryan, Mama, Ritz, Barry, Ate, Louie called me up too last night. I didn't answer). Back to this friend, it was his birthday. I didn't know. He was sad. He wanted somebody to talk to. When I got home and went online, he immediately sent me a message. He invited me to go with him in Rustan's in Gateway as he was to attend a binyag. Good thing I needed to buy some birthday cards and whatever cards to send for friends abroad. I said yes to his invite. Went to Rustan's then National Bookstore.

We ate at Taco Bell his treat. He kept talking. And cam whoring. I don't know we just laughed and laughed the whole time we were in Gateway. Mind you, he had a problem and I wanted to make him happy. He kept telling stories and I was there to listen. From having sex with his ex and his ex's bf to having an orgy. Hahahaha! We were laughing really hard in Taco Bell. It was a blast. I laughed so hard that I almost cried. Anyhows, a friend of his called him and invited him to go to Government. He invited me but I refused. "You're really too good to be true", he told me. I told him, "I'm really too bad to be true. Hahaha!". He wanted to show me a video he created on his PC so he invited me first to his house. I wanted to see the video too so I said yes to his invitation again.

He no longer has housemates in his house. Goodness, that's a whoping 10k on rent per month! I don't know how he manages to survive! Wah! Anyways, I was in the living room and saw some gay themed magazines and DVD's. He told me to read some. I didn't want to. I told him, those guys and bodies and stories are "too good to be true". He agreed. Then he showed me the video. I laughed. Hahaha! Why do I keep on laughing a while ago? His house is Wifi equipped Mr. T! When I first got there it still wasn't. I hope I made him happy.

Then it was time to go. He was all dressed for Government and I so sleepy I wanted to go home. He dropped me in Gateway since he was to meet his friends in Trinoma. Then I slept and may masahista ngayon dito sa bahay! Yey! Heaven!

Update you soon Mr. T! And why system restore? Basta! Hahaha...

Currently feeling: funny
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 4, 2008 at 10:59 PM in Everyday Drama, Gayness, Malling, Food and Dining | Post a comment

Katatapos ko lang maglunch and first time ko kumain sa cafeteria ng HSBC. Sarap pala ng ulam dun. Tapos lalo na yung dessert na Mango Sago! Grabe sarap talaga! Parang gusto ko pa umilit. Siguro dun na lang ako lagi bibili ng food para hindi na ko lalabas at maiinitan at maarawan at para hindi rin puros fastfood kinakain ko. At dito na lang din ako kakain sa work area ko. Anyways, nakalimutan ko mag-update kahapon. Nakalimutan kong may blog pala ako. Hahaha!

Wala naman masyadong nangyari kahapon. Parang buong araw lang ako nagYM. Grabe, kung kelan ako nakaYM buong araw hindi naman sumusulpot yung isa kong kaibigan diyan! Tsk tsk. Anyways, tapos hindi ako sumama sa Galleria pero  buti pagkauwi nina Mama may dalang bucket ng KFC at pinag-agawan pa namin ng magaling kong kapatid.

The iPhone is overrated. As in over over. Super over. Meron na si Ate na iPhone and kinalkal ko siya, tsk, napagod lang ako. Wala naman masyadong magawa. Pagmalaki daliri mo dun ang  hirap magtext. Super extra cautious ka dapat kasi baka mali maling letters mapindot mo. Nakakangawit pang hawakan. Pero infairness naman sa iPhone, masarap siya paglaruan at kutingtingin. 2Mpixels yung cam. Walang MMS. Wala ring video and walang front camera. My n95 still wins! Pero parang gusto ko rin ng iPhone para may kinukutingting din ako. Or iPod touch na lang kaya?  Wahhh... si Kuya naka-iPhone na! Si Ate rin! Paano namana ako!!!! Hahaha... I need to graduate fast para magkapera na ko!!! Hahaha!

Ang ganda ni Antonette Taus kahapon sa Showbiz Central grabe! Totoo kayang sila pa rin ni Dingdong? Eh ano yung Dingdong-Karylle love team? Tapos di makaimik si Antonette pagtinatanong about kay Karylle. Pero pagMarianne okay naman mga sagot! Shucks, ang saya naman ng love story nila. Pero kung ako tatanungin, kay Antonette Taus ako! Hahaha...

All's well that ends well Mr. T! Ayun, siyempre as usual, may mga taong nagalit sa kin dahil wala na naman ako sa lugar mag-react. Super express na naman ako ng feelings ko. Ugali ko na siguro yun. Parang ako na yun eh. Pero salamat na lang at naiintindihan yun ng ibang tao. Minsan ganun lang talaga ko. Saka ko na lang inaanalyze mga bagay pagtapos na siguro yung initial reaction ko. Yes, everybody is weird and peculiar. And I agree. Ang lamig dito sa table ko shet!

Kagabi, gusto ko magworld cruise! Wahhh! Labo, pero ang mahal mahal naman! Susme paano ako makakaipon ng kalahating milyon! Minimum pa lang yun! Shete! Pero naisip ko, yung mga tao sa barko ng world cruise eh di ba yun yung mga matatandang kareretire lang? Hahaha... shucks, gusto ko makita ang mundo habang bata pa lang ako!

Iniisip ko na talaga ngayon kung ano ang pagagastusan ko pag nagtrabaho na ko. Kuryente? Tubig? Telephone? Cable? Alam ko na, tubig! Hahaha! Ngayon pa lang dinadahilan ko na sa nanay ko na mag-iipon ako para yumaman ako. Andiyan naman si kuya and ate! Mga anak niya rin yun at established na! Dun muna siya manghingi ng tulong di ba? Hahahaha! Grabe napakawalang kwenta kong anak! Hahaha...

Tumawag pala si Kuya and nagusap kami sa phone. I rarely talk on the phone pero kapamilya naman so sige go go go. The conversation went like this:

Kuya   : O kumusta naman OJT mo?
Jacob  : Okay lang. Hassle lang sa pagpunta dun
Kuya   : Baket di ka kasi magdrive na lang papunta dun?
Jacob  : Mahal ang gas. At pagod ka na magdadrive ka pa pauwi
Kuya   : Ayaw mo nun, pagnakita ka nilang nakakotse baka hindi ka na nila utusan dahil sushal ka na...
Jacob  : Tungak! Adik ka lang?
Kuya   : Baket ayaw mo ba kasi magdrive? Ayaw mo nun, masasakay mo rin boypren mo sa kotse...
Jacob  : *Thinks* Ay oo nga, pahinging kotse
Kuya   : Kay ate manghiram ka...
Jacob  : Ay wag na rin. Gusto ko bilhan mo ko!
Kuya   : Ulol!
Jacob  : Ulol ka rin! Hahaha... sa graduation ko ha! Wag kalimutan! Hahaha!

Buti talaga maayos na relasyon namin ng kuya ko. Grabe, dati lagi kami nag-aaway niyan. Buti ngayon wala na rin siyang pakialam kung magkajowa ko ng lalake. Hahaha! I love my brother!

Nagtext si Rhitz yesterday kung free ako. Hello Sunday naman! Diyos nga nagpahinga ng Linggo eh! Napagod ako sa video na dinowload ko kahapon grabe. As in literal na napagod! Siomai!

Ang cool ng taxi driver na nasakyan ko kanina. First time, nakaLove Radio ang taxi sa umaga. Lagi kang naka-AM station mga taxi na nasasakyan ko papasok eh. Grabe, aliw na aliw ako kay Christsuper at Nicoliehiyala! Sobrang aliw na aliw ako habang nag-uusap sila. Tapos may mga facts about guys pa silang pinag-usapan. Eto mga naremember ko:

  1. Mahilig makipagflirt ang guys pero at the end of the day at bago matulog, yung kaisa isang babae lang nasa utak nila. --- True! At applicable din siya sa mga bading. Hahaha...
  2. Hindi lang pinapakita ng mga guys at dinadaan sa inom inom at paglandi pero  mas matagal daw maget over sila kesa mga girls --- Pwede! Pwede rin  toh sa mga bading!
  3. Mahilig magsabi ang guys ng CUTE, HOT, SEXY sa ibang gurls. Pero sa taong gustong gusto nila at mahal nila, MAGANDA ang word na ginagamit nila! --- Maari muli! Hahaha... pero sa gays HOT, SARAP, DELICIOUS, PAPABLE etc. At sa taong gustong gusto nila at mahal nila, POGI at GWAPO. Aw!
  4. Pagnagseryoso na raw magsalita ang mga guys, makinig ka na dahil totoo yun! Bihira raw maging seryoso ang mga lalake! --- And I agree.
  5. At ang pinakathe best. Top 5 kasi yun eh, eto yung top 1, kapag nagsasacrifice na raw yung guy ng oras niya kahit antok na antok na siya at marami pa siyang kailangang gawin para makasama lang sayo, like ka daw nung guy. Sumang-ayon si Christsuper dun. ---  At ang reaction ko? Umabot hanggang tenga ang aking ngiti! Weird...

NakaYM ko rin isa kong kaibigan kahapon. Pero mamaya na yung storya niya kasi matatapos na lunch break ko eh. OA na ko sa break at update! Hahaha... sige sige mamaya na lang ulit Mr. T! :-)

P.S. Hindi gumana yung portable YM dito sa office shete! Kalungkot! At ang lakas ng kulog! Grabe!

Currently listening to: Come What May by Ewan McGregor and Nicole Kidman
Currently feeling: fine
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 6, 2008 at 01:02 PM in Everyday Drama, OJT | Post a comment

Dahil the moment na pagkauwi ko sa bahay kahapon, kumain lang ako at nakatulog agad. Around 8:30 siguro yun. Napagod ata ako mamasyal sa Galleria. Nagising ako ng 12am pero natulog ulit ako. Si Lu nagtext ng 3am para sabihing tapos na thesis nila. Hindi ako nagreply kasi nainggit ako. Hahaha! Pagkagising ko, cellphone ko nasa sahig na at hiwawalay ang battery at takip sa likod. Amp! And nakakainis dream ko! Wahhh... nanalo raw ako ng greet and meet with Mariah tapos may $1,000,000 pa na kasama at limousine! Para sa kin lahat! Ampota! Shet lang talaga! Parang totoo! Pagkagising nakakalungkot! Hahaha! Ngayon, slack na naman ako kahit marami pang dapat tapusin dito. At least tumutunog keyboard ko di ba? Hahaha! Kunwari busy. Hahaha!

Anyways, ano pa ba hmmm... baket parang sa araw araw na pumupunta kong HSBC, parang ang lapit na lang niya. 8:20am ako umalis sa bahay and by 9am andito na ko. Ngayon ko lang narealize malapit lang tong HSBC na to. Salamat ata sa Ortigas at C5 eh. So yun muna, pinalipat ko sa taxi driver kanina yung radio station sa Love Radio! Hahaha... may bago akong paboritong pakinggan ngayon! Hahaha!

Wala na kong balita sa mga kaibigan ko. As in wala. 0, nit, nix, nada, none. Kumusta na kaya yung mga yun??? Magtetext nga sila forwarded naman. Pag nagrereply ako di sumasagot. Wahhh... ano nangyayari sa mundo? Ganito ba ang work-home-work-home na life? Buti til December lang toh. Namiss ko na magcut! And I miss my friends :-( and yung mga cards na binili ko hindi ko alam kung kelan ko mahuhulog. Grabe! Ilang araw na lang birthday na ng pinakamahal kong friend! Amp! Aabot pa kaya toh? Nyways, update you soon Mr. T! I love ya, I enjoy ya and I still appreciate ya. Huwag ka mag-alala, malapit na kita ulit ipublic. Nagtatago lang ako ng mga entries. Hehehe... :-)

Currently listening to: Because of You by Ne-Yo
Currently feeling: mellow
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 7, 2008 at 10:03 AM in Everyday Drama, OJT | Post a comment

Mr. T! Akala mo ikaw lang ang Mr. T! dito! hindeh! ako din! ako si Mr. T!ae! hahaha. - Chris

Nasa BHS kami ngayon! Ako na toh Mr. T! Wahahaha....

Currently feeling: naiinitan
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 7, 2008 at 05:58 PM in Everyday Drama | Post a comment

Lagi na lang Chris and it makes me soo... it makes me soo... it makes me soo... happy. I don't know Mr. T! But I still do. Kinda weird right? It's been like the whole year and I'm still happy being with Chris. Note: we're not together just to make things clear. And I still don't know where I am standing. I'm nowhere. I'm not here and I'm not even there. I'm nowhere to be found. And it sucks. But I'm happy. Let alone the drama.

When I was younger, I used to think about what those guys after me could do to make me happy. Maybe, I'm getting older, because right now, I don't think about what Chris does to me but what I do to and for him. I want to make him feel special in my own little way. In my own irritating way.  He makes me happy Mr. T! and I wish and hope I also make him happy.

What happend a while ago was a blast. It was his first day on his new job. We're much nearer each other now cause his building is just few minutes away from mine. Sadly, I'm here only til December.

Chris and I met up in Starbucks. He had a Starbucks coupon by the way. A buy 1 take 1 drink (I'm not sure).  He had a new laptop! Given by his new company. He was all dressed for the office and he really looked nice. First time I saw him like that. We stayed about an hour in that Starbucks then we walked til Starbucks Fairway Building. That's where his Starbucks coupon  only applies.  We got drizzled on --- and it's not our first time to be. We walked along 5th Street and we just kept talking and talking ang laughing and pushing. There was lightning. Thank God it didn't strike us. Anyhoos, in Starbucks Fairway, he ordered 2 drinks and 1 Hungarian sausage. We shared the food. It felt nice. And only few people were on that cafe. It felt nicer.

After an almost hour-stay long in Starbucks Fairway, we decide to eat in G4. Hailed a taxi then alighted in G4. We ate in Okuya. Still one of my favorite place to eat in Food Choices. He ordered what I ordered. Tuna Steak. Let me just say that since 2nd Year College I've been eating that food and still a favorite. Thanks to Steve! Hahaha! After eating, we talked.

TALKED. About a lot of stuff. Stuff I've never talked about to anyone. Not even my own best friend. I was like stripping off myself to Chris a while ago. I don't know if he'd still want to be friends with me with all my stories. But that's me. That's my past. I have my dark sides too and I'm not always childish as people may think or see. Let's just say that I've become numb from those madness and I grew up a little too soon. What ever happened happened and I'm not regretting any of those because I learned from them. I wanted them to happen. But just like what I've said over and over, I never want to return to that place. Never again. And my timeline of guys? Only few people know about that, I told Chris about it. Chris was so open too Mr. T! He told me things I never knew about him. We talked the night away Mr. T! and it was nice. He opened up, it was nicer.

Hailed a cab in the same place we hailded a cab last time we were in Glorietta. And yes, I'm playful. Then, a drama happened with us and the driver. Anyways, not worth mentioning, we're not on the same phylum as the driver. Hahaha! Chris rode a cab again and I rode the train. It was a night. I'm so happy and I hope he was happy too.
Night Mr. T! :-)

Currently listening to: Keep Holding On by Avril Lavigne
Currently feeling: happy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 7, 2008 at 10:47 PM in Everyday Drama, Malling, Food and Dining, OJT | Post a comment

Welcome John Jacob Webb, here is your handwriting analysis.

 John Jacob is moderately outgoing. His emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, he can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. He has the ability to put himself into the other person's shoes.

John Jacob will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes he will be happy, the next day he might be sad. He has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because he is in between. Psychology calls John Jacob an ambivert. He understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, he will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." He doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing him to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to him. He puts himself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet he will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. John Jacob is an expressive person. He outwardly shows his emotions. He may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

John Jacob is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. He weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when he finally has to. He basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

 People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, John Jacob doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

 John Jacob will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

 John Jacob is a cumulative and procedural thinker. He likes to have all the facts before making a decision. He thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. His thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, John Jacob learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once he has learned new material, and understood it, he won't forget.

John Jacob is a methodical thinker, therefore he is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, he often loses to rapid thinking people because he is thinking thirty minutes later about what he should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate.

He may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once he gets it, he can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, he can handle it better than most.

 John Jacob is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. John Jacob basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.

 John Jacob is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

 John Jacob has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. He lets new people into his circle of friends. He uses his imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Take the test here.
Currently listening to: Someday by Nina
Currently feeling: bored
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 8, 2008 at 03:22 PM in Everyday Drama, Online Tests | Post a comment

Nakalimutan ko na landline number namin. Hahaha... salamat at nasa cellphone ko nakastore.

Posted by jjcobwebb on October 8, 2008 at 10:52 PM in Everyday Drama | Post a comment

Just got home Mr. T! From Gateway with Chris. Sobrang unbelievable na ng mga nangyayari lately. I'm too happy for my own good and this is getting bad. Wala na akong inaasahan ng kahit ano. What I just want now is to stay this way with Chris always.

Around 430pm, since there were no things to do, I met up with Chris sa McDonald's dito malapit sa building naman sa HSBC. Sabay kasi umuwi kanina. And we planned. it. Ayun, til 5pm ko muna sinamahan si Chris since nakakahiya naman at paghihintayin ko na naman. Tapos ako pa kumain ng food ni Chris. Sira ko talaga. 

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Ayun, we decided na sa Glorietta kumain. Rode the The Fort Bus hanggang ayala. Then, sa Dusit Thai kami kumain. It was nice Mr. T! Then wala na naman kaming gagawin. Pagod na kami both. So, nagMRT na kami pauwi. Good thing my extra ticket si Chris and pinahiram na naman niya ako. NagTaft muna kami para makaupo kami ni Chris papuntang Cubao. Tapos kung sino sinong tinuturo ni Chris na namagjowa raw. Then yun, sa Gateway nag DQ muna kami. Pinag-usapan si Piolo. Hahaha! Then may tinignan akong t-shirt sa F&H na wala naman dun. Anyways, yun Mr. T! Nakakatuwa isipin. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam. Ikaw lang Mr. T! nakakaalam kung anong nalalaman ko and nararamdaman ko. What matters now is that I'm happy and I hope Chris is happy too. :-) Birthday na ni Jeffrey in a while.

Goodnight Mr. T! Public ka na ulit bukas.

Currently feeling: happy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 9, 2008 at 11:16 PM in Everyday Drama, Malling, OJT | Post a comment

I really planned on making my blog public again on Jeffrey's birthday and here it is! I'm back! Weee...

One year ago... this was Jeffrey's birthday celebration in Kikofuji. We were all happy...

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"Apat Dapat, Dapat Apat --- Posted on October 12, 2007

Okay, araw ng panlilibre ni Jeffrey ngayon and last day niya with us ngayong 2007 dahil bukas Graduation niya na and next Thursday he's off to Taiwan at babalik pa siya sa April --- sadness pero for his own good naman ata. So yun, sabi niya dapat by 11:00am andun na kami sa school para hindi makahabol kami dun sa Lunch ng kakainan namin. Sabi niya 12:00pm yung start til 2:00pm. So yun, nagising ako sa tahol ng aso Mr. T! As in, sa kwarto ni Reamaur ako natulog dahil lately dun siya nakatira kina ate. Anyways yun, sobrang init ng araw kanina Mr. T! As in. Nakafit pa kong damit at nagdadalawang isip ako kung magLLRT or magcacab ako papuntang school. So anyways yun, 10:20am na nung umalis akong bahay. Nagtext na si Jeffrey na nasa McDo na raw siya and maghihintay na lang siya dun. Anyways, dahil holiday walang traffic, mga bandang 10:40am nasa may Quirino na ko. Sabi ni birthday celebrant nasa Warzone na raw siya at dun na lang kami magkita. Kamusta naman parang alam ko yun di ba! So sabi niya malapit lang raw yun sa Providence. 10 minutes before 11am andun na ko sa may Providence. Hinahanap ko yung Warzone at ayun nga, malapit nga lang sa Providence. Hindi ko na tinext si Jeffrey na andun na ko so pumasok na lang ako sa loob. Read more

This year, now, Jeffrey's in Taiwan, Barry's busy with school, Rhitz with their business and me, trying to complete my 520 hours here in HSBC. We're all busy. I hope Tagaytay will materialize...

And again, happy birthday Jeffrey!!!

It's nice to be back...

Currently listening to: If I Never See Your Face Again by Maroon 5 and Rihanna
Currently feeling: fine
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 10, 2008 at 09:42 AM in Everyday Drama | Post a comment

Long distance relationships are for birds. I still believe that proximity is the single predictor of love. And yeah I love dogs more than cats. At ang random ng mga pinagsasabi ko.

Anways Mr. T! It's nice to be back. I want you to hold me like I never left. :-) *hugs*

Ayoko na ng drama. Ayoko na magdrama. It just doesn't work for me anymore. Like in one of my entries, nasabi kong namanhid na ko. No reason for feeling anything at all. I'm nobody's somebody. Ayoko lang ng may taong galit sa kin. Yun lang.

Gaya nga ng sabi nila, ang sugat, pag hindi pa magaling, pagkinalkal or pinakaelaman, masakit. At kahit pagaling pa lang, masakit pa rin kahit pilit mo pa takpan ng Band-aid. Mahirap magpanggap na magaling na ang sugat kung hindi pa talaga magaling. But if it's already healed, as in fully healed, you can taunt it as much as you want and not feel anything at all. In fact, you can even joke about it again and again and it won't hurt a bit. Tulad na lang nitong mga sugat ko nung naholdap ako. Kahit ilang beses ko silang kantiin, wala na silang sakit. I even joke about how I got them.

Namimiss ko na mga kaibigan ko. Namimiss ko na gumising ng kahit anong oras. Namimiss ko na ang LRT2 footbridge and LRT1 trains and stations. Ang kwek-kwek sa Eric's, isaw at kung ano ano pa. 1 month na pala ako dito sa HSBC. 2 months to go. At baket wala ng online presence si Deck Mr. T!??? Friendster niya wala na at blog niya wala na rin. Grabe wala na akong balita sa kanya.

Met new friends from here and there Mr. T! But I learned from my mistakes. I won't mention names of people here on my blog again not unless I've mentioned them here before.  I took this conversation from my Wordpress account:

New Friend  : So, why haven't you been in a relationship?
Jacob      : I have trust issues. It's hard to trust people these days
New Friend  : Like you want to get to know them fully muna?
Jacob      : Yeah. Tama.
New Friend  : Pero naisip mo ba na hindi mo fully makikilala ang isang tao? Sarili mo ba kilala mo?
Jacob      : *thinks* --- Oo nga noh...
New Friend  : The only thing we can do is to trust and hope that the other person won't break our trust...
Jacob      : Yeah. Tama ka dun. Shucks. *Napa-isip*
New Friend  : *Smiles*

I'm set to delete my Wordpress blog. Why bother having a private blog when I can set to private entries here on Tabulas. 

Gusto ko tanggapin ako ng mga tao for what I am. Not what they want me to be. Kung ayaw nila tanggapin pag-sosorry ko, di wag. Basta nagsorry ako sa nagawa ko sa kung ano man. Pagod na ko maghabol. I've been doing that the whole year. Kung ayaw nila ko, bahala sila. Ayoko na rin sa kanila. Ganun kasimple. Minsan kasi pinapahirapan ko sarili ko eh.

Minsan masarap isipin na sa pagtapos ng ilang taon, yung kaisa isang taong tunay na mahal natin, na hinintay natin eh yun din ang makakatuluyan natin in the end. Kahit hindi kayo magkasama for a period of time. I think even people who don't believe in fairytales want this to happen. I'm happy for these people. I'll be happy for them.

Lastly, the past weeks have been such filled with magical moments. I won't forget it for a lifetime. I've never been that happy before.

I'm back and let's all just be happy. Lunch muna ko...

Currently listening to: If It's Over by Mariah Carey
Currently feeling: hungry
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 10, 2008 at 04:03 PM in Everyday Drama, OJT | Post a comment

Hello Mr. T! Kagagaling ko lang sa unit ni Chris. Dun ako natulog since patay na naman ako kagabi sa nanay ko kung naabutan niya kong pauwi pa lang dis-oras ng gabi. Anyways, late din nakauwi si Chris kahapon so nagsabay na naman kami pauwi. Yep, sabay na naman. Sweet namin noh? Pero hindi na ko kinikilig. Saya na lang nararamdaman ko. So yun, this time ako naman pinapunta niya sa place kung san siya nagwowork. Sa McKinley Hill. Grabe, sumakay ako ng jeep at lumampas pa yung jeep na sinakyan ko. Ang dilim ng nilakaran ko Mr. T! Natakot ako kasi baka may mga masasamang loob. Pero buti na lang wala. Nagkita kami ni Chris sa McKinley Hill. Hindi ako galit or whatever. Napagod at natakot lang ako. Hindi rin mainit ulo ko. Nainis lang talaga ako sa jeepney driver. So yun, wala kaming maisip kaninan sabi ni Chris umuwi na lang daw kami. Tapos nagbus. Kinalaunan, sa Ayala rin nababa.

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I really wanted to have Sashimi. Ayun, sa Dad’s kami kumain. Okay na rin siguro yun 580php per head. Solve naman ako. Si Chris din siguro naman nasolve.Tapos yun, parang patay gutom lang kami. Katabing table pa namin puros bading. Saw some college friends. Then naglakad lakad kami ni Chris sa Ayala. Una sa McDo kaso haba ng pila. Gusto kasi ni Chris magCoke. Tapos nilakad namin til MiniStop yung kaharap ng GB5. Then dun siya bumili ng Coke niya. Tapos, nagwait ng cab sa G3 na parang forever kami nagwait sa katagalan. Bumaba kami ng Cubao. Then ako sumunod kay Chris nung galit na galit nanay ko. Anyways, woke up early since may aayusin pa si Chris kanina sa DFA. So yun then umuwi and ngayon nag-uupdate. Sige sige, update you soon Mr. T! Okay? :-)

Posted by jjcobwebb on October 11, 2008 at 11:00 AM in Everyday Drama, Malling | Post a comment

"Didn’t we take each other
To a place where no ones ever been?
Yeah, I really need you near me tonight
Cause you'll never take me there again
- Touch Me In The Morning, Diana Ross"

101020081642 Hello Mr. T! Got home around 7am. Slept in a friend's house. Anyways, anong bago... hmmm... ay nakita ko sina Sherry kahapon sa Dad’s Makati!!! Weee... kasama ni Jolenz, Beck, EJ, Kat, Lai etc. Natuwa naman ako dahil ang tagal tagal na rin namin di nagkakita kita. So yun, picture picture kami. Sayang wala si AK, kumpleto na sana kaming 4.

Did nothing in the office the whole day. I Youtube my day til 6:30pm. I even got lost in The Fort.

Pagkauwi ko, sabi ni Mama masiSingapore daw kami sa December and sina Ate sa March na magaAmerica. Naku, sana naman matuloy na toh. Yung Hong Kong kasi Mr. T! Hindi natuloy eh! Pagkakataon ko pa namang makita sina Mickey Mouse nun kahit Chinese version. Haha!

Alam mo Mr. T!, naisip ko kung baket minsan talaga hindi maiiwasan ng isang tao ang mangaliwa. Oo, yung hindi maging faithful sa jowa niya.  Some people can really be so cold. Yep, and where do you find warmth? From other people of course. Some couples will try to work things out after this kind of debacle. Let's just hope they learned their lessons this time.

Ako, pag niloko ako ng magiging jowa ko, naku, lintik lang ang walang latay! Hahaha... erase sa memory ko agad ang pagkatao niya at kung sino siya. Baboo na talaga. Pero kung humingi pa siya ng another chance, I'll give him. Ulitin niya lang yung pagloko sa kin and kebs na ko forever and ever sa kanya. I'll pretend he doesn't exist anymore. Fly away butterfly!!!

When you're friends, you can talk about anything. Anything related to your interests. Yep, some people share the same interests that they can talk about. Interests that they can only talk about to certain friends. I wonder why people treat me as a friend yet they don't want to open up on things that we have in common like "gay relationships" or whatever that maybe. I really won't mind having them to tell me stuff they think I wouldn't like to hear. I'm just here. I'm interested. I'll listen. I want them to remember that from the start it was already them. Okay ang labo nun. Anyways, I'm interested.

Gay relationships they say don't last long. But I was able to talk to one of my cousins. He and his partner have been together for 3 years now. Aw! What a moving story Mr. T! I knew that it was 'them' when I bumped into them in Trinoma this year. And their thing has been going not just this year. I should've known the moment my cousin introduced me to him! And they tried to deny it before. Such stories make me smile. It's love baby.

I've learned that there are certain things we really can't have in life. Yep, like the people you really want. Mr. T!, I've already accepted the fact that me and other people really can't be together. As in like really. Their heart belongs to someone else and I can't do anything about it. No contest. The start of the year is not that long. What more the mid-year. Some of us are really devoted and willing to wait. Even a lifetime. Hoping, that somewhere, someplace there's a time for them. Still them. I was like that too. But when practicality enters your senses and you learned your lessons very well, at the end of the day, you just want to be happy. And make those people who make you happy, happy as well --- no strings attached. I guess that's what happen when you've been hurt so bad.  And been hurt over and over again. You become numb and cold with the things that are happening. I wish someone will break the ice.

I remember a conversation I had with this friend Mr. T! I think I really have a talent with reading between the lines.

Friend   : Wow ang galing mo naman! Hahaha...
Jacob    : Baket magaling?
Friend   : Hindi ko naman blatantly sinulat sa blog yun pero nagets mo na ganun yun...
Jacob    : Hahaha... ayun pagkagets ko kahit di nakasulat...
Friend   : Galing mo magread between the lines ha...
Jacob    : Wow, pang-ilan ka na nagsabi sa kin nyan! Baka hidden talent ko...

Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe I know. Maybe I don't know. Let's all just be happy now. :-)

Currently listening to: Angel of Music from The Phantom of the Opera
Currently feeling: nice
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 11, 2008 at 12:10 PM in Everyday Drama, Malling, Food and Dining, OJT | 3 comment(s)

Hello Mr. T! Just got home. Hay, galing kaming Landmark Makati ng family. Si Ate kasi iaadmit bukas sa hospital so bumili siya ng mga kung ano anong gamit para dalhin sa hospital at at --- para iwan lang dun! Wow aksaya sa pera!

Anyways, nagsibilihan din ng mga laruan mga pamangkin ko. Sana nagpabili na rin ako ng mga damit! Wahhh… then we headed sa Nestle sa may Aurora Blvd. para magmerienda.

May party sa loob ng Nestle. Hahaha… para kaming gatecrashers kanina! Sabi ni Erwin magpanggap na lang kaming invited! Hahaha… so hindi kami natuloy sa Nestle, instead sa Shaw Blvd. kami kumain. Sa Buon Giorni! Kala ko sa Tagaytay lang meron nito. Meron din pala sa Manila. Remember the entry I had with Ryanini? Here.

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Had pasta and pizza. Ugh, di ko talaga type tong mga pagkain na yun pero pagkain pa rin siya so kailangang ilagay sa tiyan. Kasama pala si Manang Luz kanina. Siya kasi magbabantay kay Ate sa hospital. At dapat kanina magpapaadmit si Ate kaso, pinabukas na lang niya. Sana maging okay yung pag-opera sa kanya. I’m gonna pray for her. So yun, tulog ako sa van the whole time na pauwi. Tapos habang pauwi kinausap ako ni Erwin about dun sa system ng drugstore nila sa Unilever. Kung puwede raw intindihin ko para hindi sila bayad ng bayad ng malaki dun sa IT na 4x a week lang minemaintain yung system. I’ll try next week. So yun update ko ngayon Mr. T! Inaantok na ko talaga! Nag-ask si Rhitz kainina lumabas kaso kasama ko family ko. Hindi ko alam kung galit yung text niya kasi “Okay nevermind” yung reply. Shucks. Sabi ko lang naman “Ay sorry kasama ko family ko”. Never pa siya nagreply ng ganun. Baka galit? Anyways, yun muna Mr. T! Update you soon. :-) Inaantok na naman ako! Wahhh…

Currently listening to: You Were There by Southern Sons
Currently feeling: full
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 11, 2008 at 08:18 PM in Everyday Drama, Malling, Food and Dining, Family | Post a comment

I still believe in happy endings. But I learned that it's better to choose to be happy on the way to whatever ending...

Currently listening to: This Too Shall Pass by India.Arie
Currently feeling: blank
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 12, 2008 at 01:23 AM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | Post a comment

Related Post:

Weeee… after 1 million years nakuha ko na rin pictures namin ni Sherry nung huli kaming nagkita sa school! And mga pictures sa loob at labas ng LRT1 na masikip! Hahaha…

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Siyempre, wala na naman kaming magawa niyan! Mahilig kami mambwisit ng mga tao sa LRT! Hahaha!

Hay, nakakamiss si Sherry! Wahhh… bigla kong naalala nung 6pm dati dismissal namin. Maglalakad kami hanggang Malate-Ermita proper. Wala lang trip lang namin! Tapos dederecho sa Divisoria para sa Christmas Midnight Sale dun! Wahhh… miss ko na tong babaeng toh though nakita ko lang siya sa Saisaki kahapon! Sherry and I need to date! Amp!

Currently listening to: Ironic by Alanis Morissette
Currently feeling: good
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 12, 2008 at 02:11 AM in Everyday Drama, School | Post a comment

Sabi ni Pinggoy sa kin. Di ba mahilig siya mambwisit ng buhay Mr. T!?

Anyways, just got home from JT’s. Dun nagpakain si Tita Nene kanina. With relatives of course. Ayun, sobrang busog ako. Buti malapit lang at sa Gilmore lang yung JT’s. Tinatawagan pala ako ni Ate kanina dahil pagbabantayin ako ng drugstore. Buti na lang hindi ko nasagot yung phone! Hahaha…

Went shopping for clothes around Araneta Center Cubao with a friend a while ago. I sat with him in Starbucks first then SM Cubao to go shopping, then Alimall to eat then back to SM Cubao. Natrigger ng Alimall allergy ko shucks! Ayun, parang Queer Eye for the Queer Guy lang kanina. It was fun playing dress up. Isusukat ko muna yung mga damit then siya naman! Hahaha! I didn’t buy anything, he bought what we wore. He’s the one who really went shopping. I just wanted to try on the clothes and of course helped him choose clothes. Hahaha! And we were fooling around while we were trying on the clothes. Proof:

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Ooohh… scandal!!! Hahahaha… and yeah, I’m smiling on the last pic kasi natatawa ako sa sobrang kulit ng friend ko. Hahahaha!

Anways, never thought I’d do these things with this friend. It really felt nice having to go shopping and walking and pigging out with this friend. :-) Maybe this is not what I really want and don’t get me started to writing “I Wanted To Have Something More Pt. 3”.

But if it makes me happy, it can’t be that bad right? Oh well… let’s all just be happy again Mr. T! :-)

Currently watching: Saving All My Love For You Live by Whitney Houston
Currently feeling: fine
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 12, 2008 at 10:19 PM in Everyday Drama, Malling, Food and Dining | Post a comment

Pagpasok ko sa office kanina, may nagmisscall sa phone ko. Landline number. Since 2 weeks na naman ang nakalipas dito sa office, kailangan kong isubmit attendance sheet ko. So akyat ako sa HR department. Pagkabigay na pagkabigay ko kay Ms. Raiza ng attendance sheet ko:

Ms. Raiza : Uy, tamang tama I was calling you up...
Jacob     : Here's the attendance sheet po for the last 2 weeks
Ms. Raiza : Wait I'm gonna get something...
Jacob     : Okay ma'am I'll wait here...
Ms. Raiza : Here you go...
Jacob     : Ohhh... *BIG SMILE* Thanks...

And a piece of paper just made me smile. Hahaha...

 

Currently listening to: mga nagdadaldalan dito sa office
Currently feeling: happy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 13, 2008 at 11:25 AM in Everyday Drama, OJT | Post a comment

And can make you jealous. Not because of a person. Not because of somebody. I'm jealous of what other people have.  Not material things, but what THEY have. I want what they have.

Bored to death here in the office, I was browsing some people's Multiply site. Clicked on updates and new albums and suddenly, I wanted to have what they're having. I want to be as happy. I want to be as sweet. I want to be as caring. I want to be in love like them. I want what they have. Not them, but what they have. Goodness and I told myself NO TIME TO CRY but I really can't help it. I'm a sucker with these kinds stuff Mr. T!.

Their parents know about their relationship and they're fine with it. They visit each other's houses. Their respective families treat each one of them as sons. They're both accepted. Oh my goodness THAT'S LIKE HEAVEN.

I want to care and be cared for. I want to love and be loved in return. I want to be sweet and them sweet towards me too. I want to be needed like I need them. I WANT THAT!!! I never had that. Okay I'm sad... :-(

Surely, this is not what I really want, but I can't do anything about it. But if it makes me happy, then I'll let it be...

Someday, somewhere, sometime I'll have what they have...

Currently feeling: weird
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 13, 2008 at 12:22 PM in Everyday Drama | 7 comment(s)

Goodness, first Celine Dion, now Mariah Carey, who's next? The great Whitney Houston? Lucky girl! I'd kill to be Charice! Wahhh! Anyways, I was supposed to post this yesterday. But anyways, here it is. For pictures click here.

Video shot from Andre Agassi Charitable Foundation's Grand Slam for Children benefit concert. Thanks to FalseVoice for the footage.

Just got back from a 2-hour break. I'm back to my desk and I'm abusive. Hahaha... ate at Mcdo then strolled in Market Market, then Serendra, then BHS. Then back to McCafe. Hahaha... anyways, I'm full. Hahaha...

Currently listening to: When You Believe Instrumentals
Currently feeling: full
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 13, 2008 at 04:20 PM in Everyday Drama, Mariah, Music, Food and Dining, OJT | 2 comment(s)

Salamat naman at okay ang hysterectomy ni ate. Hay salamat sa Diyos. So yun, nagtago na naman ako sa guard sa office para madagdagan ko time ko! Hahaha... ayun tapos may nangungulit kanina sa kin sa text. Kinuha raw sa isang friend ko. Eto ang mga text exchanges:

Guy    : Ei, is this Jacob?
Jacob  : Yep. Who's this nareformat phone ko...
Guy    : This is T***. Got your number from your friend
Jacob  : SINONG FRIEND???
Guy    : Si A*****...
Jacob  : Ha? Nyi...
Guy    : You attached?

Tinext si A*****:

Jacob  : Hoy gago! Baket mo binigay number ko!!!
A***** : Nakita ka niya sa Friendster ko. Cute ka raw. Yun
Jacob  : Ina ka!
A***** : Ano ba! Cute yan at balita ko, malaki yan...
Jacob  : Nyeta ka! Baket hindi na lang ikaw?
A***** : Ay naku di kami compatible...
Jacob  : Henaku! Ilan taon na toh?
A***** : 17
Jacob  : Wow! Gusto mo pa ko makasuhan!

Back to T***:

Jacob  : Yeah, attached ako...
A****  : Ah, open relationship ba kayo?
Jacob  : Hah? Baket?
A****  : Baka you know. Pwedeng ehehehe...
Jacob  : Nyak hindi hindi. Delete mo na number ko...

Kaluka. Cute nga nung nakita ko sa Friendster. Hahaha! Anyways yun lang. Naabutan ko pa Iisa Pa Lamang pagkauwi ko. Tapos hinintay news about Charice then eto, update update. Update you soon Mr. T! Ayt? Mwah!

Currently listening to: Saksi on GMA
Currently reading: Law's YM Window
Currently feeling: funny
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 13, 2008 at 11:59 PM in Everyday Drama | 2 comment(s)

But what's funner is that you get to read entries of other people that contain your name. Entries that talk about you or just a mention of you. It feels good positive man or negative pa nakasulat sa yo sa isang blog. :-)

Here are some:

"I know he wants somebody sweet, caring, funny and intelligent. Taller than him and light skinned. But whatever happened to his preference with this guy?"

"as usual ang kapal ng mukha ni Jacob..."

"I just had a 'chat' with this someone a few minutes ago. And while we were chatting, I really felt like I was chatting with my long lost best friend. We talked about some personal stuff about ourselves and the topic of love in general. It felt nice and warm and cozy until it lasted. Minsan pala nakakamiss din magkaroon ng kausap na kasing-edad mo, patungkol sa mga bagay-bagay tulad ng pag-ibig..."

"Jacob is my sister's friend. Saw him na in DLSU and he was a blast..."

"WITH MY PICTURE ON THE ENTRY with the caption: 'Why can't it be. Why can't it be the two of us. Why can't we be lovers? Only friends...'"

"matangkad and hottie ang nanliligaw ngayon kay Jacob. Grabe ayaw niya pa rin..."

"I have this friend who keeps waiting for some guy. The guy is so lucky cause my friend never waited this long for somebody..."

"...mahirap iconvince si Jacob. Hindi siya agad agad naniniwala sa mga bagay bagay. Kailangan talagang gagana muna ang kanyang 5 senses para paniwalaan ang isang bagay. Minsan nagtataka nga ako kung naniniwala ba talaga sa Diyos yang kaibigan ko na yan! Baka naman nagpakita na Diyos sa kanya? Hahaha!"

"I really wish he'd see me in a different light... "

"I visited his blog today and it said 'Account Deleted'. Why???"

"Nakasalubong ko kanina si Jacob sa LRT footbridge. Naka-iPod, loose shirt, shorts, tsinelas and mukhang sabog na sabog..."

Hahaha! Panalo yung last read noh? Hahaha... kala niya hindi ko mababasa yan ha! Pero aliw! :-) Sige tulog na ko Mr. T! May pasok na naman bukas. :-) Inaliw ko lang sarili ko. :-)

Currently listening to: Closer by Ne-Yo
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 14, 2008 at 12:41 AM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | Post a comment

Yesternight, I was able to chat with a long time friend. He just got from a broken relationship --- again. So here's what we talked about:

Jacob   : So I heard...
Friend  : Yeah, sad pero kailangang magmove on...
Jacob   : Kelan pa? Ilang months din kayo?
Friend  : Last week pa. Matagal ko ng gustong hiwalayan. 5 months na walang kabuluhan.
Jacob   : Eh bat last week lang kayo nagbreak? San mo nga ulit siya nameet?
Friend  : Sa Bed kami nagkakilala. Well, kinalikot ko phone niya and yun. May nilalanding nameet niya sa Bed din...
Jacob   : Aw aw aw! Sakit! Amp! Kumusta ka na?
Friend  : Eto, moving on. Wala na kong balak pa siyang kausapin...
Jacob   : Feel mo ba matagal niya ng ginagawa yun?
Friend  : Yeah, when a message is dated August, matagal na nga...
Jacob   : Tsk. Inis! So I heard, may mga account ka na naman kung san san...
Friend  : Hahaha... kanino mo naman nalaman yan?
Jacob   : Kung san san. Naghahanap ng rebound?
Friend  : Hindi naman. Friends lang...
Jacob   : Sus! May friends ka naman! Lokohin mo lelang mo!
Friend  : Shet ka talaga! Oo naghahanap ako ng bagong jowa!
Jacob   : See. Sana pagnagkajowa ka jan sa Downe, hindi siya manlandi rin ng iba sa Downe! Hahaha...
Friend  : Sige na Jacob malinis ka na! Ina ka! Hahaha!

When people are coming from broken romantic relationships, they run to the nearest networking sites and find a new prospect. Hahaha! Aminin man nila or hindi. They're out there to find a rebound. Hahaha!

I don't know how it feels to be a rebound. But my friends tell me I've been one many times. Probably. Maybe. I don't know.

Things that are happening right now, I've had them all before. Things I want to have right now, I've had them as close as this before. I might be funny and bubbly and all. I joke about things and pretend that I really don't care. Actually, it's killing me inside and I just don't wanna show it. My emotions are overflowing but I just don't wanna let them out. I've been to hell and back and back again. Lived and died and I don't care if I die again. There's just no way I'll be burned again --- I'm burnt...

But sometimes, I ask myself how I'm gonna deal with things in a situation like this. My inner consciousness will tell me that I've been through all this before. And when this all ends, I'll be hurt yes. I will flee yes. I will recover yes. I'll do the same mistakes again yes. And most especially, I won't have what I've always wanted to have --- again... :-) 

It's like that I guess...

Currently listening to: On My Own by Leah Salonga
Currently feeling: blank
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 14, 2008 at 11:30 AM in Everyday Drama | Post a comment

Masaya ako at naiinis at the same time. Uuwi na kasi bukas si Jeff kaya masaya. Inis kasi si Barry hindi puwede sa Saturday. Shucks ano ba toh Mr. T! Shete naman! Nakakainis naman. Nalalabuan din ako sa plans. Kakawalang gana. :-( Ilang months ko rin tong hinintay. Kastress toh. Ilang YM windows nakabukas sa kin ngayon. Sus me sana may maging plano at matuloy tong Tagaytay na toh. I want a vacation. Shit! At mukhang hindi pa matutuloy...

Currently listening to: Angel by Sarah McLachlan
Currently feeling: naiinis
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 14, 2008 at 11:20 PM in Everyday Drama | Post a comment

Makikibahagi ako sa Blog Action Day 2008 dahil ilang years na rin naman ako nagboblog blogan. Yan, lagay ko na lang yung link, wala akong kuwentong pang ganyan pero anyways, sana nakatulong paglagay ko ng link. Shucks ang walang kuwenta ko talaga. So yun ivisit niyo na lang and makijoin kayo. Shucks, gusto ko man magkuwento about dito wala akong maisip.

Pero I'll try. Sige eto,

Hindi naman kami mayaman, hindi rin kami OA sa hirap. Naguguilty kasi ako magsulat ng kung ano ano dito kasi yung ibang blog nagkukuwento kesyo wala silang ganito at ganun. Eh paano ba yun meron ako nun? Hmmm... let's just say na we live a normal life. Yep, our family. Tama lang. Hindi mayaman at hindi OA sa hirap. Pero ang pamilya ko madaling lapitan pag may nanganga-ilangan ng tulong. Tulad na lang pagnilalapitan kami ng mga kamag-anak namin na kapos din. Mabait si Mama, Papa, Ate, Kuya and si Bruno. Oo ako lang ang masama. Joke! Mabait din naman ako. Ayoko lang sinasabi na mabait talaga ko! Wow labo. We care about the poor people. Pero pamilya namin ayaw sa mga taong naghihirap hirapan  pero pwede namang magtrabaho. Gets mo ba? Hahaha! Anyways yun. Yan ang part ko. Oo maraming mahirap ngayon and kailangan tayo gumawa ng paraan. We can start with ourselves. Spread the word na lang mga friends. We cab help in our own way. And yeah, kung meron man tayo, let's share na lang our blessings. And just like what my Ate and Mamay say, babalik din sa tin yun ng doble pa. :-)

Anyways, ang aking bunsong kapatid ay nagsesembreak na! Swerte shete! Dun na muna siya kina Ate nakatira. Lalabas na pala si Ate sa hospital ngayong araw sabi ni Mama. Buti naman. Dadalaw dapat kami kahapon pero super tulog si Ate. Nabanggit ko pala ang aking bunsong kapatid dahil nalaman kong may Clinique Happy for Men siya sa cabinet niya! Tinatago niya from me! Hahaha! Alam niyang paborito kong perfume yun. Feeling ko padala ni Papa yun at gusto niya solohin. Pero hindi ko masisi si Bruno kung itago niya yun. Isa akong big bad brother I know. Hahaha!

Naeexcite na ko sa pag-uwi ni Jeffrey. Weird. Baket ako naeexcite? Hahaha! Dapat hindi ako maexcite! Joke! Anyways, kung anong plano for the weekend sana mangyari. Shucks. Tulad nga ng text ni Jeffrey, huwag raw kami magpaplano dahil for sure hindi matutuloy. Sana bumisita dito si Jeffrey sa the Fort. Gusto ko rin lahat sila pumunta dito!

Nakausap ko kagabi so phone si Barry. At grabe, ang daming chismis. Chikadora talaga eh noh! Hahaha! Gusto ko na ibaba yung phone kasi kung anu ano na kinukuwento eh isang topic lang naman tinanong ko! Musta naman! Yung nanay ko nagulat pa nung hawak ko yung phone. Himala raw at naglalandline ako. Sobrang bihira kasi ako gumamit ng landline sa bahay. Mas okay sa kin magtype na lang sa YM! Hahaha!

Nabuburaot na ko sa opisina. Mga kailangan kong gawin tapos na. Susme, nakaka 150+ hours pa lang ako dito. Grabe -520=370 hours pa! Diyos ko naman Lord ano ba toh!

May wishlist na ko for my birthday and Christmas and for next year Mr. T! Hay... post ko bukas. Minsan talaga be careful what we wish for, kasi baka makuha natin lahat eh. Hahaha! Shucks. Gusto ko nung bagong Mac Book aluminum... wahhhh...

 

Currently listening to: mice clicking
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 15, 2008 at 12:17 PM in Everyday Drama, OJT | 2 comment(s)

May party na naman dito. Birthday ni Michael. Ice cream and cake! Yey! Galing China si Mike. Chinese siya. Pinakanta pa tuloy ako ng Happy Birthday song in Chinese ni Ms. O! Amp! Hahaha!

Okay! This song has been running on my mind since morning!!!

"Sweet sweet fantasy baby
When I close my eyes
You come and take me
On and on and on
It's so deep in my daydreams
But it's just a sweet sweet fantasy baby"

Plus Daydream...

"And daydream is all that I can do
I feel raptured over you
In silence
I keep it to myself
Come take me
I don't want nobody else"

Currently listening to: Fantasy by Mariah Carey
Currently feeling: full
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 15, 2008 at 03:21 PM in Everyday Drama, OJT | Post a comment

Buti na lang talaga at nadaan ako sa Glorietta dahil andun din ang aking mahal na kaibigan na si Jeffrey. Nasa Manila na siya Mr. T! To cut it short, nagkita kami! Weehhh.... isang oras din yun. Sa GB5 kasama niya Bro and Sis niya. Tapos iniwan niya muna yung dalawa para samahan ako sa Landmark. Grabe wala pa rin akong lunchbox. At wala na rin yung 1k na binigay sa king pambili ng lunchbox! Hahaha! Shete! Anyways yun, lakad lakad. Had some catching up. Tapos kumain sa Wendy's sa G4. Ako lang actually dahil si Jeffrey kasama naman family. Nakiinom na lang siya sa Coke ko. So yun, ang fun fun fun. Parang nag-iba itsura ng Ate ni Jeff parang nag-gain ng wait. At ang kuya, ehem, parang ang hot. Pota! Hahaha! Cute si Jeffrey kanina compared sa last time siyang bumisita na mukha siyang butiki. Hahaha... must be the hair.

Pero pero pero... nung papunta pala akong Makati Mr. T! May nakasalubong ako! Si Mike! At at at, may kasamang lalake! Hahaha! Fun fun fun. Pinakilala pa ko pero nagmamadali ako hindi ko masyadong namukhaan yung guy. Ayun kachat ko si Mike ngayon and andun yung guy sa house niya. Pero friends lang daw sila. Okay. Hindi na ko magcocomment. Hahaha!

After makipagkita kay Jeffrey, from GB5, nilakad to til Buendia. Tapos nag FX Para sa Taft ako sumakay ng LRT. I miss LRT1 and LRT2. Hay... sarap kanina ng feeling. Wala lang, ang lakas lang ng trip ko kanina. Dadaan sana ko RCBC bldg. kaso 6pm pala nagsasara drugstore dun. 

So yun, tapos the whole time I was walking from GB5 til Buendia. Nagtetextan kami ni Rhodge. Nakakatuwa si Rhodge. Marathon reading daw siya ng blog ko kanina. Eh friend ko siya so nababasa niya mga Friends Only posts ko. Pero siguro nga Rhodge, hindi ko man talaga gusto tong fairytale na nangyayari sa kin, but still, yung main characters andun pa rin. Iba lang ang twist ng story. It's still a fairytale I guess. Wow! Positivity! Thank God I have it. Anyways, update you soon Mr. T!

Currently listening to: Iisa Pa Lamang by Lani Misalucha
Currently reading: Chris' YM Window
Currently feeling: nice
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 15, 2008 at 10:58 PM in Everyday Drama, Malling, Food and Dining, OJT | Post a comment

It’s that time of the year again Mr. T! I do this every November but this year I'm gonna do it a month before my birthday and less than 2 months before Christmas and before this year ends. It’s wish list time! But first, let’s look back at my 2007/2008 wish list:

[♦] A Digital Camera (ang tagal ko ng gusto ng personal!)
[♦] A Sony PSP/ Nintendo DS
[♦] An iPod (again! my iPod got stolen)
[  ] Playstation 3 or XBOX 360 or Wii (sawa na ko sa PS2 at XBOX)
[♦] A New Dual Core PC! or kahit na Graphic Card lang... hahaha 
[♦] More RAM naman para sa Laptop ko
[♦] Someone to love (sana may magparamdam --- huhu)         

Yan ang wishlist ko last year. Yung mga may diamonds yan ang mga natupad. Sadly, nagkatotoo silang lahat. Especially yung last. May pagkatanga ako magwish Mr. T! Someone to love? Hindi ko man lang dinagdagan “… and love me back”! Di ba? To view my wishlist entry last year and kung sino ang mga nagparamdam, click here.

Anyways… presenting...

My 2009 Wish List:

[  ] iPhone or iPod Touch
[  ] Mac Air or Mac Aluminum
[  ] Playstation 3 or Wii
[  ] A new PC pang The Sims 3 (Hahaha!)
[  ] An out of the country vacation
[  ] To graduate by April
[  ] Find a job that will inspire me
[  ] Someone to love who will love me in return

Yan. Malinaw na malinaw. At puros pangmayaman ang nasa wish list ko. Either ako nabibili or may magkukusang loob na bilhan ako or regaluhan! Hahaha! Shucks, sana naman kahit kalahati niyan matupad. Hay... anyways, yan na ang aking anticipated wish list for next year. Hinuli ko yung Someone to love and love back kasi siya lang yung walang perang involved sa list sa totoo lang. Wala siyang presyo. I've been wishing for it for the longest time, and never siyang nagkacheck mark or diamond. We'll have to wait and see. :-)

Currently watching: Fox News Channel
Currently feeling: nice
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 16, 2008 at 12:00 AM in Everyday Drama, Features | 10 comment(s)

Got this fun-thing-to-do-when-you're-bored from a Multiply contact. Click here to visit his site.

Instructions:  Go to Google and type in quotation marks, your name, and then "likes to" (ex. "charles likes to").  Type in the first ten things that come up and repost in your own blog. Or you can post it in the comments too!

  1. Jacob likes to move... (Move? Anong move? Bust-A-Move? Hahaha!)
  2. Jacob likes to drive pictures from thanksgiving photos on webshots... (Ano raw?)
  3. Jacob likes to pole dance... (Sushal! Sexy ko!)
  4. Jacob likes to "help" me when I'm working... (Hmmm... yes, helping hand! Hahaha!)
  5. Jacob likes to point... (Point what? Point using what? Hahaha!)
  6. Jacob likes to be invited out... (I do! I do!)
  7. Jacob likes to call it... (Call boy? Hahaha!)
  8. Jacob likes to play darts, go to shows, play billiards, drink, eat, and go to strip clubs... (Pole dance tapos strip clubs naman? Hahaha!)
  9. Jacob likes to play with his friends and with his dog... (Talagang play eh noh! May kasama pang dog!)
  10. Jacob likes to hang out with his friends and pretty much SUCKS in school but makes most of the sport teams... (baket all caps ung SUCKS? Hahaha... )

Hahaha! Fun fun fun! Eto ginagawa ko sa office ngayon. Hahaha!


Currently listening to: silence
Currently feeling: sleepy and hungry
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 16, 2008 at 10:38 AM in Everyday Drama, Online Tests | 1 comment(s)

I was supposed to post this last night while reading my YM message archives. I saved it as draft. I find it funny how me and this friend of mine can joke about all things relationships and yet we remain close as super close. I blurred out his name because I don't want issues. My blog loves issues by the way. I'm staying away from them. You might probably know this friend of mine.

O di ba parang magjowa lang? Sometimes, we joke to each other "... sex na lang talaga kulang sa buhay natin!". Hahaha! Not with each other of course! Hahaha! That's incest! Hahaha...

 

Currently listening to: Heart of the Matter by India.Arie
Currently feeling: funny
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 16, 2008 at 11:10 AM in Everyday Drama, Gayness | 20 comment(s)

Hahaha... natawa ko sa friend ko. Nagtext at sabi same lang daw yung inspire to drive a car at someone to love ek ek... so dinelete ko yung isa. Shucks napaisip din ako dun! Hahaha! Same nga lang halos. :-)

Currently listening to: keyboards
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 16, 2008 at 02:46 PM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | 2 comment(s)

Ang OA ng Iisa Pa Lamang kainis! Tsk!

Anyways, aliw kanina sa office. Nagchichismisan sila dun ng kung anu ano:

Ms. Lei     : Naku si Jacob tatahitahimik pero nakikinig yan! Hahaha...
Ms. Jags   : Oo nga baka bukas mabasa na natin sa Inquirer toh! Dinadiary niya pala!
Jacob       : Nyi, hindi naman. Hahaha...

Kung alam niyo lang na may blog ako! Hahaha... so yun. May pizza na naman sa office kanina. Matatapos ko na rin yung pinagagawa sa kin since Tuesday pa. Ang kulit kanina ng mga tao sa HUB grabe. Tulad nito:

Ms. Lei    : Kaya ikaw kung magtatrabaho ko na dito huwag ka gagaya sa iba tanong ng tanong!
Jacob      : Hahaha!
Ms. Jen  : Naku kayang kaya ni Jacob yan!
Jacob      : Malabo yun walang kinalaman sa course ko mga credit at debit cards. Hahaha!
Ms. Jags  : Ano ba course mo ulit?
Jacob      : ICTM parang IT
Ms. Jags  : Part ng HUB ang IT!
Jacob      : Hahaha!
Ms. Jags  : Bukas ikaw na gumawa ng mga ginagawa ko! Hahaha!
Jacob      : Hindi ko pa nga tapos tong pinapagawa ni Ms. Lyn eh! Hahaha!

Masaya naman sa department kung san ako nagiintern. Makukulit sila kahit di ko sila kasing-age. Mga kasing-age sila ng mga nakakatanda kong kapatid eh. Pero click naman dahil cool sila. Lalo na si Ms. Lei kahit sing-age ni Mama, tawa ng tawa yun. Walang ginawang araw ang Diyos na hindi tumatawa. Aliw aliw! May bago akong friend kanina sa Tabulas. Tapos si Jeffrey buti naman ginigising ako sa text kanina sobrang bored na rin ako sa office eh. Buti na lang bored din siya sa office ng mom niya!  Si Barry ang weird. Bigla na lang nagtatanong kung may whistle ako! Naman! Kailangan daw nila sa PE. Ano ko pulis? PE teacher? Ang out of the blue ng tanong. Natawa ko mag-isa kanina. Haha! Parang shet! Anong whistle at para san? Hahaha!

After work derecho agad ako umuwi. Pero medyo nagala lang sa Galleria. May nakasalubong ako familiar face. Tumango siya, so napatango na rin ako ng ulo. Shucks. Di ko maalala kung sino yun.  Tapos yung mga taong nakakasalubong nagssmile sa kin! Grabe! Nakasmile pala ko the whole time kong pinakikinggan yung Whatever It Takes ni Leona Lewis! Amp amp! Kala siguro nila iniismilan ko sila. Pero nakakaaliw dahil mga tao nagssmile din! It really wasn't my intention to smile at them. Pero nagssmile back sila! It felt good naman kahit weird.

Yung bus sa EDSA grabe ang init Mr. T! Yung sa Ortigas naman ang lamig! Grabe! Anyways, ganda nung graffiti dun sa Ortigas malapit Santolan. Kailangan ko talaga siyang picturan!

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Hahaha! Natutuwa ako pag-napapadaan ako diyan! Ganda noh? Akalain mo bang may magvavandalize ng ganyang kaganda? Shucks! Anyways yun lang naman Mr. T! Update you soon. Super antok na ko!

Currently listening to: Whatever It Takes by Leona Lewis
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 16, 2008 at 10:28 PM in Everyday Drama, OJT | Post a comment

Hello Mr. T! Kagagaling ko lang Market! Market! with Chris. Nagbayad ata siya ng mga bills dun kanina. Sa Jollibee niya ko pinuntahan since nagtitipid daw siya ng load so sabi niya text ko na lang siya kung asan ako. So yun, napakain pa tuloy ako sa Jollibee. Then siya naman kumain. Sa Sbarro siya kumain. Grabe, kumain na ko pero binilhan niya pa ko ng fruit salad sa Sbarro. Tapos yun, naubos ko malamang. Hahaha! Takaw ko talaga. Tapos yun usap usap. Wala lang nagiging normal na lang pagnagkikita kami ni Chris. Parang sanay na kami sa isa't isa. And I thought this day won't come. Anyways ayun. Okay naman masaya kahit onting oras lang yun. :-) Maaga rin kasi siya uuwi mamaya and hindi kami magsasabay. So happy. So yun Mr. T! Update na ko in public. :-)

Currently listening to: Since U Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson
Currently feeling: full
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 17, 2008 at 12:52 PM in Everyday Drama, Malling, Food and Dining | Post a comment

Ayun nga, nilakad ko from Market! Market! pabalik dito sa office Mr. T! Buti na lang sumikat yung araw nung malapit na ko sa building. May nakasalubong pala akong ICTM-mate ko na nagOOJT rin kanina sa BHS. Nagpoprogram daw siya and suwerte ko raw dahil di ako nagpoprogram. Pero swerte niya dahil may mga bago siyang friends from CSB. Samantalang ako wala akong friends dito. Hay... tapos ko na pinapagawa sa kin dito. Ano na naman kaya ipagagawa?

Anways, muntik na naman ako masagasaan kaninang umaga Mr. T! nung naghihintay ako ng cab! Shucks. Super busina yung kotse kanina. Leche! Ano ba yan. Mamamatay talaga ko dahil sa nabundol ako. Diyos ko po huwag naman sana. Nagflashback tuloy yung nagkawatak watak yun cellphone ni Tin ata nun or ni Aubrey sa Taft tapos ang bibilis ng kotse! Shucks! Ang scary sobra nun at ako tarantang taranta! Pwede na akong gumawa ng part 2 ng entry na toh! 9 Lives. Salamat at may guardian angel pa rin ako.

Pagkagising na pagkagising ko, sinabi agad ni Mama na patay na si Tita Estrella. Napadasal naman ako kanina pagkagising. Sad Mr. T! Pero ganun naman talaga ang buhay. Lahat tayo pupunta dun. The only question is kung sino ang susunod. Yay! Ako muntik na kanina. Hindi pa namin alam kung san ibuburol pero at least isipin na lang natin tapos na hirap niya.

Ang tahimik dito sa office. Naglulunchbreak na kasi lahat. Grabe, gusto ko na umuwi muna at matulog para may powers ako mamaya makipagbonding with friendships.

To Barry, Jeffrey, Rhitz and Luis, ayoko mag "neighbor". Grabe. Wag ngayon. Not anytime soon. Magbonding na lang tayo sa somewhere payapa. Basta ayoko sa "neighbor".

After 10 years, may number 1 song na ulit si Britney! Yey! Hahaha! Natuwa naman daw ako!

Ang dami ko palang contact na bading sa Multiply na hindi ko naman kilala. Ngayon ko lang siya napansin actually dahil lagi akong napapaMultiply dito sa office. Baka magclean up drive ako nito ng contacts mamaya Mr. T!

Si Ate nasa bahay na nila. Hindi pa ko nakapunta house nila kasi anong oras na ko nakakauwi. Grabe talaga yung babaeng yun, may powers agad. Parang hindi inoperahan. Mag-aAmerica raw siya sa November bago magChristmas uuwi. Wow! Sarap batukan at ipaalala na kakaopera niya pa lang! Alam ko 6 months yung rest para makapagtravel ang isang inoperang tao. Yay!

Anyways, update you soon. Sobrang inaantok ako grabe. As in super antok. Wahhh... thesis meeting pa bukas ng umaga sa bahay ni Sheila sa Tondo! Bawal raw after 12pm pumunta kasi aalis siya. So malamang umaga! Kala ko makakatulog ako ng mahimbing bukas. Tsk! Anyways. Yun muna for now Mr. T! :-)

Currently listening to: If I Never Knew You by Jon Secada & Shanice
Currently feeling: nice, full and sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 17, 2008 at 01:42 PM in Everyday Drama, OJT | 10 comment(s)

Pseudo Relationship... the "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutual understanding, others call it "fling". Pseudo-relationships. Pseudo-boyfriends/girlfriends. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase where the persons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers. Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking for you. Pakiramdaman na lang. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa. Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi. 

This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for different reasons. It can happen after a break-up.

It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong nakikiramdam kung mahal nyo pa ang isat isa. Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya kunwa-kunwarian lang muna. Testing lang.

Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo kasi isa sa inyo may ka-relasyon na o pareho kayong may ka relasyon na. Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-break doon sa totoong jowa niya or ikaw sa totoong jowa mo, wala muna kayong relasyon para nga naman walang nangagaliwa kasi "hindi naman kayo."

This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun. Lalo na kung naghahanap ka lang naman ng "kalaro." Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na may patutunguhan kayo kasi wala talagang kasiguraduhan.  Kasi nga di naman nya sinabi na mahal ka nya.

So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa ganitong set up ganoong hindi naman sigurado kung may patutunguhan?   

Iba't ibang dahilan. Puwedeng for fun lang, masabi lang na meron. Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa wala" or puwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom," para sa mga guys. Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real thing, doon muna sa kunwa-kunwarian.  Laro na lang muna.

For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think that pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all. It would be fun, if all you are after for is that "kilig" feeling.  Yong may nag ke care (kahit di mo alam kung sincere) or pinaglalaruan lang ang feelings mo, kasi alam na kinikilig ka.

I am not sure kung nagka pseudo relationship na ba ako.  Di yata, kasi I've never been in any relationship na hindi ako nagmahal.  O baka naman, akala ko lang psuedo relationship, one-sided love affair pala. Pero siguro ang reason ko kung pseudo relationship man yon,  iyong kilig feeling. Yong may nag ke care. Iyong merong nagtatanong kung kumusta araw ko.  Iyong kapag tumunog ang cellphone, mapapangiti na ako dahil alam kong galing sa kanya ang message or sya ang tumatawag. Iyong merong laging kasama o kahit kausap lang.  At bago matulog, may iniisip na mga nakakakilig, nakakatawa... 

But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship, the emotion was real. And usually, in this kind of set up, ang tunay na nagmamahal ang lugi...

Una, you can't ask him to commit. Since it's not really a relationship, you can't demand commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo? May K ka nga ba magpasundo sa bahay or magpahatid ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain about your role in his life...  Palagi kang nakikiramdam. You can't expect him to be always there with you, lalo na kung may karelasyon naman sya. And if you feel jealous of the other people, you just have to keep it to yourself. Ano ka ba niya para magselos?  

Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him? You can't be sure if he feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya. Even if you are dying to tell him you love him, you can't. Because you're not sure if he'll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang. This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship. Or if there is a relationship at all.

Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much? What if you have invested all your emotions and this man hasn't? What if you remain faithful to him, not entertaining other guys, only to find out that he is seeing other people?

Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting. When a disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would be the end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship. Wala kang pinanghahawakan. Kasi sa pseudo-relationship, there is no "us." Meron lang "you and me," hindi "us."

Buti sana kung pseudo-pain din lang ang mararanasan mo. Kaso, hindi eh. Real pain. And usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo-relationship, hindi mo maiwasan umasang one day, may karugtong pa rin iyun. And you will be miserable, hoping to bring back what you used to have, only to find out eventually that the guy is in another pseudo-relationship with somebody else. Or have totally fallen in love with someone.

Ang hirap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up and then you'd end up hurting yourself in the process.

Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh. Puwede naman na hindi mo muna isipin ang future and just enjoy the feeling, without thinking of the consequences.

But if you are certain that you are going to hurt yourself in the process, kailangan mo mamili. You can be happy and live the moment without worrying what would happen next. Or you can stop settling with pseudo-relationships and wait for the real thing.

Ang bottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo, basta wala kang nasasaktan na tao. Ihanda mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence, sa pain, heartbreak.  Dahil ang "parang kayo pero hindi" stage ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually, hanggang doon lang siya… almost, but not quite...

 

Currently reading: ISF Users Excel File
Currently feeling: funny
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 17, 2008 at 04:46 PM in Everyday Drama, Features as a favorite post | 2 comment(s)

Disclaimer:
Hindi ko kayang isulat kung gaano ko kasaya kahapon Mr. T! As in hindi sapat tong entry kung paano idedescribe yung kasiyahan ko kagabi. Kahit anong salita or kahit ano ang isulat ko, hindi masasalamin naramdaman ko kahapon. :-) Hindi tuloy ang Tagaytay dahil hindi magkasundo mga schedule naming lahat. Pero okay na rin mga nangyari kahapon.

7pm kahapon ng umalis ako sa office. Si Jeffrey naghihintay na sa Glorietta. Dun napag-usapan na magkita na lang since si Rhitz hindi nagrereply. Ilang beses na kaming nagtext sa kanya pero walang reply. Kung baket hindi nagrereply, mamaya ko sasabihin. Nasa Makati si Jeffrey dahil nagpaderma rin siya dun ata sa Greenbelt. So yun, sa G4 kami nagkita. Kami muna. Si Barry kagagaling lang sa office nila and tumawag sa min at sabi papunta na raw siya.

G4

Nauna si Jeff sa G4. Nagkita kami dun muna. Medyo umikot ikot and pumasok sa Timezone. Tinawagan si Rhitz at sabi nasa bahay siya ni Luis. At pupunta silang Serendra dahil may event na pupuntahan si Luis dun. So yun, tinanong namin kung susunod sa min, sabi ni Rhitz, text text. Kaya pala di nagrereply dahil Sun phone yung gamit niya. So ayun,  kuwentuhan and then naburaot ako sa G4 kasi ang daming bading. So sabi ko umikot ikot muna kami ni Jeffrey. So sabi rin ni Jeff na maghanap na rin kami na kakainan para pagdating ni Barry may makakainan na kami. So umikot kami at naghanap pero wala  namang nahanap. Sabay tumawag si Barry kay Jeff. Ayun, ako kumausap kung asan na siya. Nasa Bo’s Coffee sa may G4. So nakita namin agad si Barry dahil stand out ang kanyang hairline. Hahaha! Ayun, tapos nung magkakasama na kami. Wala kaming naisip na makakainan. As usual, ganun naman lagi. Naisipan na lang namin na magSerendra din. So puntang parking and then ayun, tumungo sa Serendra.

Kotse Ni Barry

101720081720 First time pala ni Jeffrey makasakay sa kotse ni Barry. Grabe after ilang years. Sa likod ako umupo this time dahil lagi ako katabi ni Barry sa kotse niya paglumalabas kami. Si Jeffrey naman pinaharap ko para mafeel niya closely si Barry! Hahaha! Labo! So yun, masaya sa loob ng kotse. Iba yung atmosphere. Super kuwentuhan kami ang binalikan mga kabaliwan namin nung high school at college. Tulad nga ng sabi namin ni Barry, we really missed Jeffrey. And ayun, Jeffrey will be Jeffrey. As usual eng eng pa rin. Pero sobrang saya namin sa kotse. Tawanan kami ng tawanan na parang walang bukas. Napasok pa kami sa Dasma Village grabe. Buti na lang pina-U-turn kami nung guard dun sa village. Mabait naman y ung guard. So yun, ang saya. Ang saya. Then nakarating na kamng the Fort after ng mga 30minutes na traffic sa EDSA :-)

The Fort

Malapit kami sa Fort Strip nagpark. From parking, nilakad namin til Fort Strip. Naaliw kami sa mga nakita naming skater boys. Nakakatuwa. Anyways, wala kaming nagustuhan kainan sa Fort Strip so sabi namin sa BHS or sa Market! Market! Na lang kumain. Tumawag si Rhitz and sabi andun na sila ni Luis pero pupuntahan na lang kami. Grabe, habang naglalakad at after makasalubong babaeng friend ni Jeffrey and Barry, nakasalubong namin si Rhitz and Luis. Grabe hindi namin yun ienexpect! Hahaha! How coincidental. Anyways, si Luis kasi pupuntang Ascend. May L’oreal event dun and may ginagawa siyang racket at kukunin niya yung bayad ata sa kanya. Pero hindi muna sa min sumama si Luis and Rhitz. Naghanap ng yosi si Luis so sinamahan ni Rhitz. Sabi sa min nung dalawa, hanap muna kami ng makakain. So sige naghanap kami. Hanggang makarating kaming 3 ng Market! Market!

Market! Market!

Sa Gerry’s Grill dapat kami kakain. Ayaw ni Jeffrey. And in Jeffrey’s word gusto niya may value and meal-y(?) yung food. Sabi ko magValue Meal na lang siya sa McDo. Hahaha! Lumabas kaming Gerry’s Grill. MagnoNorth Park dapat pero si Jeffrey ayaw ng Chinese foods. Shet. So naglakad lakad pa kami at naghanap. Hindi ko mahanap entry ko about nung last time kaming kumain sa Kamay Kaninan last 2 years. You heard me right. Sa Kamay Kainan kami kumain Mr. T! Hahaha! Takaw! Si Jeffrey nakaisip. So kami go go go kasi it means lamon. Hahaha…

Kamay Kainan

Siyempre lamunan. Si Rhitz iniwan muna si Luis dun sa Ascend. Pero hindi kumain si Rhitz with us. Nagdidiet? Hahaha! Grabe, wala kaming ginawa sa Kamay Kainan kung hindi magtawanan. Sobrang saya. Parang sobrang dati lang. Parang mga post “Thanks For Understading” moments lang. We were so happy. Isama mo pa yung Kare Kare, Dinuguan etc etc kaya masaya kami. Haha! Si Rhitz patawa ng patawa habang kami natatae na sa kabusugan at katatawa. Grabe grabe! Sobrang saya. :-)

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O di ba ang saya saya? May mga pictures pa kaming hindi puwedeng isapublic Mr. T! Mawawalan kami ng dangal pag pinost namin sa internet yun. Hahaha. Grabe. Pati yung banyo sa Kamay Kainan nabring up sa topic namin habang kumakain. OMG talaga si Rhitz magkuwento. Kuwento pa lang matatawa ka na! Hindi pa nagjojoke yun ha! Hahahaha! Then tumawag si Luis. Gusto raw kami makita ni Wilmer. Yes. Wimer. Isa sa mga super close friends ko kung highschool. So tinapos lang namin food namin and tumungo na sa Ascend. Pero habang naglalakad sa Serendra, nakasalubong ko si Matty nasa Chocolat. Ininvite niya ko sa Piedra kahapon pa. Nakalimutan ko magreply. Sabi ko sige, dadaan na lang kami pag maaga pa.

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So naglakad lakad and si Jeffrey may award. Kung baket may award. Sa min na lang yun. So habang hinihintay si Jeffrey. Kuwentuhan muna kaming 3 nina Barry and Rhitz. Yung dalawa nag-iisip na naman kung anong magandang business. Siyempre ako ayaw ko makipag-usap sa dalawa pag ganun ang topic. So we waited for Jeff then headed to Ascend na.

Ascend

IMG_1300 Ngayon lang ulit kami nagkita ni Wilmer since August. Ayun, event ng company niya yun. Dami naming hinabol na kuwento. Since yung 3 hindi naman masyadong close kay Wilmer. Kaming 2 lang ni Wilmer nagkuwentuhan. Sobrang gusto ko yung work ni Wilmer. Parang walang naiba sa min ni Wilmer. Sabi niya kalimutan ko na raw kung ano nangyari sa min dati. Hahaha! Oo, isa ka sa may kasalanan nun Mr. T! Hahaha… anyways, pumasok ako sa Ascend habang nasa labas/baba yung 3. Then usap usap. Picture picture. Sayang sana medyo nag-ayos ako kagabi. Lahat ng tao dress to kill eh. Hahaha! So yun, Jeffrey had to leave early as usual so nagbabay na kami kay Wilmer agad. Namiss ko rin si Wilmer Mr. T! Hay… kahit maldito yun, mahal ko rin yun imagine mo Grade 6 friends na kami nun! Hay… sana magbonding din kami nina Karol and KRV and Wilmer one time. Tapos binigyan kami ni Wilmer ng giveaways. So yun. Thanks Wilmer! :-) Hindi sa kin sinend ni Wilmer pics namin together shucks! Baka alam niyang ipopost ko sa blog ko! Hahaha! Sobrang ayaw nun sa mga Friendter at Facebook at kung ano anong networking sites. Hahaha! Yan si Wilmer! Since HS anti-social networking sites! I need to be close to Wilmer again! Ang dami niyang connections ngayon. I need that. Hahaha! Anyways yun…

Timezone

Dapat uuwi na kami. Pero may vacant room yung videoke room sa Timezone. At malamang nagvideoke kami. Ang saya dahil kumakanta si Rhitz and Barry na rin. Si Luis sumunod sa Timezone and nagwala na rin sa Mic. Hahaha… sobrang saya sa loob nung videoke room. Then mga 1 hour or more siguro kami dun. Tapos yun, kailangan na talagang umalis. So si Rhitz and Luis sabay. Kaming 3 sabay. Ihahatid namin si Jeffrey sa Alabang.

Piedra

Tinawagan ko si Matty and sabi ko kung daanan pa namin siya sa Piedra kaso pauwi na kami. Sabi niya. Sasabay raw siya. Nagmeet na si Barry and Matty. With Jeffrey hindi pa. So yun, naghintay kami sa Piedra. Party people talaga mga tao. Papasok sana kami at magsasayaw nung Closer na ni Ne-yo yung song. Kaso talaga, si Jeffrey nakatsinelas! Shucks. So yun, we waited sa Gonuts Donuts. Then bumaba si Matty with barkada niya. Jester and Mikel. Nameet ko na rin yung 2 na yun then introduce introduce. Hindi kinaya ni Barry mga friends ni Matty Mr. T! Hahaha!

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So yun… sumabay si Matty sa min since South siya. Then ang saya sa kotse since ang landi landi ni Matty at mukhang namake-up pa! Hahaha! Kaaliw sina Jester and Mikel grabe. Party people talaga mga itsura nila kagabi. So yun sa village ni Matty siya bumaba and si Jeffrey sa village nila. Gabi na halos alas 2 na ng umaga. May revelation pa si Barry pala sa sa Timezone pero incestuous. Hahaha! So yun, medyo umambon. Peo walang traffic.

Okay ang lahat. Masaya ang gabi. Sobrang saya ko kagabi na nakatulog ako na nakasmile. Hahaha! Grabe Mr. T! Natalo nito yung Apat Dapat, Dapat Apat na entry ko and kung kahit anong entry ko ngayong taon na toh. Ganito lang naman buhay namin dati. Wala masyadong drama ang nagmamahalan kami ng isa’t isa. Mahal na mahal ko mga kaibigan ko Mr. T! Hindi ko sila ipagpapalit kahit kaninong kaibigan. I feel so complete yesterday. Lahat ng void ng pagkatao ko ngayong napunan kagabi. Sobrang kumpleto. Sobrang saya. Sana ganito na lang lagi. Ganito lang naman kami dati. Masaya. Kumpleto. Tawa lang ng tawa. And kung anu’t ano man mangyari, ayon nga kay Barry --- “Sayang ang friendship…” ;-)

Currently listening to: After The Love Has Gone by Earth, Wind and Fire
Currently feeling: super happy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 18, 2008 at 03:00 PM in Everyday Drama, Malling, Food and Dining as a favorite post | Post a comment

Kagigising ko lang Mr. T! Wala na kong ginawa kung hindi matulog. Sabi nga nina Jeff, Rhitz and Barry, ganun pa rin ako. Tulog ng tulog. Anyways, galing ako sa bahay ni Sheila ngayon. Grabe ang tabang ng Adobo sa bahay nila! Basta di ko feel yung luto ng food nila. Shet ang arte ko. Pero wala talagang lasa. Tsk! Dapat yesterday pero antok  na antok ako dahil anong oras na kami nakauwi nung Saturday night. Gumawa kami ng thesis ni Sheila. Kaming 2 lang. Anyways, eto ang mga masasayang nangyari kahapon:

2:00 pm nag-text si Barry:

Barry    :   Tuloy daw ba?
Jacob   :  Oo pero matutulog muna ko…

4:00 pm nagising. Nakita mga misscalls ni Rhitz. Kala nakapagreply. Natulog ulit…

6:00 pm tumawag si Jeffrey at paalis na ng Alabang. Sabi ko sige pupunta na rin ako. Nakatulog…

7:00 pm nagising na ulit ako. Nagdinner na rin sa bahay. Nag-ayos ng sarili and by…

8:00 pm nasa Kenny Rogers Greenlanes na.

Hahahaha! Super late. Super diva. Some things never change. Maybe I’m just so tired.  

Kenny Rogers

Andun na silang lahat. This time, nakashoes lahat sila. I wore slippers. Sinigurado kong nakaslippers ako para hindi kami matuloy magNeighbor kung may balak man sila kahapon. Hahaha! Nakaline na sila sa Kenny pagkadating ko. Andun din si Luis pala Mr. T! Ang aayos nila kagabi. Feeling ko ang sabog ko kagabi. Hahaha! Anways, nagdinner sila. Ako nagdessert na lang ng Banana Split. Tapos si Barry pinabili ko ng mga side dish para share kami. Bumili naman. Hahaha! Tapos ayun. Actually, parang share share din kami sa mga kinakain namin kahapon Mr. T! Ang saya. After eating, siyempre kailangan mag-isip kung san tatambay or san pupunta.

Bunutan. Yan ang hilig naming gawin pag hindi namin alam kung anong plano. All we need is a paper and pen. But since walang paper and pen kahapon, receipt ant fork ginamit namin. Hahaha! Mga nilagay namin sa papel: Inuman, Tagaytay, Neighbor… at kung ano pa hindi ko na maalala. Pero buti na lang talaga. Buti na lang, naisip ni Luis na may World Family KTV sa Promenade. Thank God! Dun kami dumiretso.

World Family KTV

Maraming tao sa Greenhills kagabi. As in parang may party. At ako mukhang basura as usual and I like it. Hahaha! Sa World Family KTV buti may bakanteng room agad. So pasok agad kami. Then ayun, kantahan na naman ulit. Then umorder na kami. Hahahaha! Si Barry himala kumakanta! Then…

Jeffrey    : Sayang wala tayong camera…
Rhitzjoy  : Ay meron akong dala nasa kotse…
Jacob      : Lika kunin natin Rhitz

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08-10-18-World-Music-Celebration-0002 Ang daming Xaverian sa Promenade grabe. Ang dami rin Lasallians. Ano ba yun. So yun, kinuha namin yung cam. Grabe! Ang layo ng parking ni Rhitz. Sa pinakatuktok na floor at sa bandang Gloria Maris na! Hahaha! Tapos siyempre, ako muna umabuso ng cam ni Rhitz! Tapos tapos may nakita kami ni Rhitz na isang ICAN at isang gurl dun sa mgay bridge dun sa Promenade na papuntang parking. Wala lang, kasi tibo yung iCAN eh. Parang weird dun pa talaga sila sa GH naghaharutan. Parang hello! School niyo anjan lang sa tabi tapos diyan kayo naghaharutan? Di ba kayo nahihiya? Wala lang. Just my 2 cents. Hahaha! Then bumalik din agad kami sa Promenade. In fairnesss, ang sarap dun sa parking magpictorial. Hahaha!

Back to World Family KTV

Pagkabalik, dumating na ang food. Talagang umorder si Rhitz na Chicharong Bulaklak for me! Hahaha! At ayun ang pinakamasarap na inorder namin sabi nila. Ang susushal na mga inorder ng drinks ng 4! Ako nag San Mig lang! Hahaha! Pero the fun part is, ako umubos nung mga inumin nila Wiggy and Barry nung medyo mahilo yung dalawa. Naaliw ako sa Weng-Weng. Ang sarap niya at nakakahigh. Hahaha! Yung ininom ni Jeffrey lasang Sprite. Sex on the Beach ata yung name nung drink. Kay Rhitz parang Paracetamol orange. Orgasm ata yung name. Kay Barry lasang Juice lang. Una pang tinamaan si Barry! Grabe! At take note magdadrive pa si Barry! Hahaha! Let the pictures do the talking kung gaano kami kasiya kagabi Mr. T! :-)

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Actually, marami pang pics. Pero as usual, mawawalan kami ng dangal pagpinost ko pa yung iba dito sa blog! Ayun tapos kantahan. Sayaw sayaw pa. Kung anu ano pang kabaliwan namin sa room. Then siyempre magta-time at magta-time kami. Naka 2 hours din kami sa loob. Then siyempre, time to make isip kung san na naman pupunta. Jeffrey wanted to relive this: Oreo Cheesecake. Sabi ko OA yun. Pero sabi niya 5 na kami so mas madali ubusan. Oh sige, pumunta kaming Cheesecake Etc. at may kape dun. Para na rin mahimasmasan ang daming friend na tinamaan kahit sip pa lang yung ginawa sa drink niya. Hahaha! Ayun, buti na lang closed ang Cheesecake Etc.! Hahahaha! So sabi namin McCafe na lang. Pero since 11:30pm na nun, paclose na sila and 12:00am nagcoclose yung Mc Cafe sa Greenhills. So siyempre, ang pinakamalapit sa McDo, Krispy Kreme!  

Krispy Kreme

Si Rhitz sumagot ng Krispy Kreme dahil wala na kaming mga pera. Yep, sino pa ba palaging may dalang maraming pera? Naman naman! Nagjoke nga ako eh. Kasi isang row kami nina Jeffrey, Luis and ako, tapos magkatabi si Rhitz and Barry:

Jacob   : Wow, 3 kami dito ang kasya kami. Kayong 2 lang diyan pero na-occupy niyo!
Rhitz    : So? Mas mabibigat naman wallet naming 2 sa inyo! Hahaha…
*Nagtawanan lahat…*

Yung ADMU donut lang yung andun. Hahaha! Sabi ni Rhitz wala na yung DLSU donut kasi maraming may gusto. And joke lang yun! Hahaha… andun kasi si Luis! Atenean. Amp! So yun, picturan pa rin. Si Barry nagkape. Share kami ni Jeffrey sa Sola and si Luis nagyosi and hindi kumain ng donut. Amp amp. Then yun… usap usap. Super tawanan. And aliw na aliw kami ni Jeffrey sa sofa. Hahaha! Parang mga bata shucks. Tapos dinidecipher talaga namin yung Disturbia lyrics ni Rihanna. Buti na lang may Wifi sa Krispy Kreme at puwede mag-internet phone ko. Medyo kinanta namin yung Disturbia. Shet! Weird namin ni Jeffrey. Our minds are in Disturbia! Hahaha! Ayun, tawanan, kulitan, asaran etc. Kodakan.

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Then si Jeffrey (Nakita niyo ba siya nagchange ng seats sa pics? Kasi may balak na pala siyang umalis! Hahaha!) --- nagpakaDIVA. Akala namin, “Thanks For Understanding Part 2”. Hahaha! Nabaliw kaming lahat ng bigla ba namang tumayo at nagbabay na! Shete! Hahaha! He really needed to go home. Cinderella si Jeffrey eh. Hahaha! And sabi niya nga kanina, ayaw niya na rin pahatid kay Barry. May tama na kasi si Barry kagabi eh. Hahaha! Pero buti yun, maayos namang nakauwi si Jeffrey sa bahay nila kagabi. Then after siguro 3 minutes nung umalis si Jeffrey, tumayo na rin kami and umuwi. Ako sumabay kay Barry, and si Rhitz kina Luis pa rin matutulog. It was a night Mr. T! Sobrang saya pa rin. Ang saya saya saya saya to the highest level. :-)

Currently listening to: Disturbia by Rihanna
Currently feeling: nice
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 19, 2008 at 07:00 PM in Everyday Drama, Malling, Food and Dining as a favorite post | Post a comment

Just got back from Tita's Estrella's wake. Kita kita with pinsan and all. Kuwentuhan, tawanan. Binalikan mga memories. Tingin ng mga picture albums. Onti lang tao ngayon unlike yesterday daw. I'll return tomorrow.

Marami akong dapat ipagpasalamat sa Diyos Mr. T! Mga tao, pangyayari, mga kung anu-ano. Dapat ako magpasalamat sa kung ano meron ako ngayon at kung anu pang magiging at mangyayari. I'm really really thankful. :-) Thank you Lord. I can't thank you enough :-) Salamat salamat salamat sa lahat. :-)

Currently listening to: Nature by India.Arie
Currently reading: Jeffrey's YM Window
Currently feeling: thankful
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 20, 2008 at 01:07 AM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | Post a comment

Because this song has been running on my head all weekend. I tried searching the music video of this song on Youtube and to my surprise, I found this video:

I swear I didn't see this in the movie. In the movie house. And I was right, this scene was cut from the movie version. It was later added on the Pocahontas home video. VHS/VCD/DVD etc. My my... this just made me cry. Good night Mr. T!

Currently watching: If I Never Knew You scene on Pocahontas
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 20, 2008 at 01:58 AM in Everyday Drama, Music | Post a comment

What's wrong with me? Why do I feel like this? --- text ni Jeffrey kaninang umaga! Pota! Nabaliw na ata. Your mind is in disturbia Jeffrey! Hahaha!

Parang blast from the past lang nangyari nung weekend Mr. T! Parang kahapon lang yung 2007 kasi parang ganun mga nangyari eh. Ang bilis grabe. Isang taon ng nasa Taiwan si Jeffrey. At grabe ngayon ko lang din naisip, one year na ring yumao si Garrick. At one year na nung akala ng Kuya ko na jowa ko si Jeffrey. Hahaha! Sobrang tawa ko ng tawa nun as in tumawag pa sa bahay si Kuya para iconfirm. Shet! Weird!

Hmmm... anyways, masaya masaya kahit na PAALIS NA SI JEFFREY PAPUNTANG TAIWAN NGAYONG ORAS NA TOH!!! Wahhh... wahuhuhu! Hahaha! Ayan nabaliw na! Shucks, akala ko til next week si bruho dito sa Pilipinas. Wala naman daw kasing ginagawa dito si Jeff kaya pinaalis na ng magulang niya! Hahaha! Nakakaasar naman. Sadness. Pero okay lang yun. Sana naman, sana naman! Next year kabisado na ni Jeffrey ang buong vocabulary ng Chinese para dito na siya for good para todo todo na ang saya. As if kaya niya yun! Gusto ko lagi tayong kumpleto! Hahaha! Wala na naman akong ginagawa dito sa opis. Hmmm... ngayon ko lang naramdaman na I didn't change a bit from last year. Sobrang ako pa rin toh Mr. T! Ako pa rin toh! Naiintindihan mo ba? Ako toh! Ako toh! Hahaha! Walang nabago. Now I'm confused...

I need a lunchbox. Hahaha...

Currently listening to: Hard Habit To Break by Chicago
Currently feeling: itchy hair
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 20, 2008 at 11:13 AM in Everyday Drama, Randomness, OJT | 2 comment(s)

Just got home. Huling lamay ni Tita Estrella ngayon. Ayun, pero before ako pumuntang lamay, nagSM Megamall muna ko to meet with thesis groupmates. Sobrang ako pa ang nauna sa SM. As usual sa GJ nagmeet at gumawa. Naghintay ako sa National Bookstore nung wala pa sila sa mall. Then hinatid ako ni Sheila dito sa bahay nung tapos na yung meeting.

Huling lamay. As usual masaya at madaming tao. Wala dapat muna malungkot dahil bukas iyakan. Andun mga pinsan kong close. Si Dindin, Vivian, si Tita Grace, si Lola, sina Shirley, Girley etc. Ayun, kuwentuhan. Aliw na aliw kami sa anak ni Joji. Kung baket kami aliw na aliw secret. Si Joji rin grabe sobrang baliw din. Nakakatuwa. Nakakalimutan naming may patay. Tapos andun din sin Jay, sina Kevin, Macmac etc. Ang laki kasi ng angkan namin. Pero most of the time kasama ko sa burol kanina si Dindin. Ayun, hindi ako makakapunta bukas sa libing so nilubos ko na rin hanggang antukin. Ang daming pagkain. Busog na ko at inaantok na ko. Baket halimaw sa banga:

Din      : Wow Jacob isang bandehada yang spaghetti mo ha!
Jacob  : Hahaha! Eto binigay sa kin. Di naman ako kumuha nito. Di ko nga kaya ubusin to eh…

After 20 minutes or so…

Din       : Wow! Halimaw ka sa banga! Naubos mo yung bandehada! Hahahaha… shet ka! Baket di ka tumataba! Hahaha…
Jacob   : Hahaha… di ko rin inexpect na mauubos ko yun. Chika ka kasi ng chika sa kin! Hahaha…

Ayun, sana masaya na si Tita Estrella Mr. T! May she rest in peace. We love you Tita Estrella :-)

Currently listening to: Give Thanks by The Society of the Little Flower
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 21, 2008 at 02:11 AM in Everyday Drama, Family | Post a comment

Hindi magkasya kasya yun slacks ko kaninang umaga. Shucks! Ano toh? Lumaki tiyan ko? Siguro dahil 130lbs na naman ako!!! Wahhh...

Tumaas na rin ata grado ng mata ko. Hindi ko pa rin napapasign MOA ko at hindi ko pa nacocontact L.O. ko...

Naatrasan ako ng Police Car. Grabe. Hindi ko narinig na sinisigawan na pala ko nung manong. Salamat sa iPod at di ko narinig yung sigaw. Shet!

Ano ba ang gamot sa dandruff? Shucks.

Pahirapan na naman ang paghintay ng taxi.

4 na pala inaanak ko. Ngayon ko lang narealize. Lahat sila lalake. Wahhh...

Ang ganda nung song ni Bugoy! Hahaha!

Be careful what you wish for. Kahapon kasi sabi ko gusto ko ng may magagawa. Eto ngayon, shucks, ang daming gagawin at mukhang 1 week ko tong gagawin. Wahhh...

At baket andito ko sa blog at entry ng taong toh? Haha:

"that, and, maybe it is as simple as finding something you really want to do. maybe with that things will fall into place. sabi nga ni jacob."

Hmmm... inaantok ako. Ayaw ko pa simulan gawin ko dito sa office. Gusto ko matulog!!!

Hindi ako maglulunch ngayon. Leche talaga hindi magkasya yung pants ko kanina! Naman naman. And ngayon lang toh nangyari! Waaahhhh...

Gusto ko rin sana magbeach. Magbakasyon. Mag-out of town or country. Gusto ko gawin lahat yan kasama ang jowa. Wow! As if may jowa! Pota! Hahaha! Good luck naman sa yo Jacob! Oo! Good luck talaga sa kin! Hahaha!

Minsan iniisip ko, pauunahin ko na muna mga friends ko magkajowa. Pag meron na lahat sila saka na lang ako magkakajowa. Hahaha! Minsan talaga naiisip ko yan. Ganyan ko kamahal mga kaibigan ko. Gawin ko talaga kaya yun? Kaso baka abutin naman ako ng 48 years. Hahaha!

Sa ngayon, gusto ko muna maging masaya. :-)

Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 21, 2008 at 10:19 AM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | 2 comment(s)

"So kumusta kayo?"

"Aba malay ko sa kanya. Bigla na lang hindi ako kinakausap"

"Aw! Baket na naman?"

"Malay. Ayoko magtext dahil hindi naman magrereply dahil nagtitipid daw. NagYM naman ako kagabi. Kaso kesa magreply nagpapapalit palit lang ng YM status. Saka lang sinabi na busy siya nung nakailang palit na ng YM status. How busy is that? Busy kapapalit ng YM status?"

"Baka may problema siya..."

"Hello. Wag niya naman ako idamay sa problema niya. Ang 'HELLO' eh mas maiksi pa sa mga status niya kagabi..."

"May point ka. Pagod na ba yang puso mo?"

"Hah? Anong pagod?"

"Alam mo na. Pagod."

"Nyi, hindi naman napapagod ang puso. Sa araw araw na ginawa ng Diyos tumitibok yan. Kung hindi patay na tayo."

"Sabagay. Kaw pa"

"Ano?"

"Wala"

Currently feeling: still sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 21, 2008 at 11:22 AM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | Post a comment

Shet! Killing time, bigla kong naalala tong pre Highschool days namin nina Karol, Wilmer, Lamar and Gareth. Shucks. Ang bilis ng panahon Mr. T! Grade 6-7 lang kami nun nung naging magcoclose kami. Si Karol lang talaga connection ko nun kaya naging friends ko lahat sila. Friend ko si Karol na friend si Gareth and and Wilmer. Best friend ni Gareth si Lamar na friend din si Wilmer. Hahaha. Naaliw naman ako bigla. Sobrang daming nangyari sa amin dati. Sobrang saya din. Ang saya, bigla silang pumasok sa utak ko ngayon Mr. T! Gusto ko silang makasamang 4 ulit. Shet! Ang alam ko may Neo-Prints kami. Pero hindi ko na alam kung san ko nadikit yun. Natuwa naman ako bigla.

Things we did those days:

  • Sabay sabay kaming bibili ng slush pag lunch
  • Dahil di pa uso ang flash drive nun, nageexchange kami ng mga floppy para sa mga pictures ng kung anu-ano (wholesome po yun)
  • Pupunta sa isang secluded place sa football field dala dala ang mga folder na puros lyrics ng kanta
  • Pupunta sa ping-pong area tas uupo sa mga ping-pong tables at ilalabas din ang folder ng puros lyrics ng mga kanta
  • Iikutin ang buong grade school building habang nagkukuwentuhan
  • Maglalakad sa grade school gym. Uupo dun sa may hagdan ng stage at magkukuwentuhan
  • Lilibutin buong Angelo King Multi Purpose Center. Yung sa taas sa may Faculty Room dati
  • Pag dismissal, diderecho sa bahay ni Lamar para mag-internet. Grabe, Mozcom pa lang ISP nun at dial-up. Tuwang tuwa na kami pag narinig na namin yung Vrrrinngg.... wisssh... tttttoooottt... hahaha!
  • Ilalabas ni Lamar ang recorder nila at kung ano anong kanta irerecord namin noon
  • Magmemerienda sa bahay ni Lamar
  • Susunduin ko tuwing umaga sa bahay nila si Lamar tas sabay kaming pupuntang school
  • Magdadance dance revolution

Everything ended nung nagkaroon ng conflict si Lamar and si Wilmer na hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin alam kung ano yung dahilan. Grabe! Pero siguro naman kinalimutan na nila yun. Grade 6 pa yun hello naman di ba? At nung pinagsabihan ako ni Gareth ng mang-aagaw ng best friend. Wah! Pero hindi ko talaga ginawang best friend si Lamar nun. Tapos isama mo na nung inaway ko si Lamar bago mag-graduation nung Grade 7. Grabe, alalang alala ko pa rin yung issue baket ko siya inaway. Pero wala na sa kin yun. Ako mismo tumawag sa kanya nun days before graduation. And yung regalo niya sa kin nung grad, nasa kin pa rin. Tapos si Karol din pala inaway ko rin nun. Dahil sa dahilang tumawag siya sa bahay nun. Eh hindi ko naman pinapatawag! Hahaha! Buong Grade 7 magkagalit kami! Until Batch Night nung nagsorry ako at binigyan ko siya ng card. Hahaha! Shet! Hahaha!

Ang saya talaga nung mga panahong yun Mr. T! Grabe, ang lalayo na ng narating ng 4 na toh! Shet asan ako ngayon?  Hahaha! Si Lamar nasa States tinuloy ata pagiging math wizard at dun pa nag-aral.  Si Wilmer ang saya saya sa L'oreal. Si Karol nasa Australia! Pinadala ng UP! Shet! Si Gareth nasa Canada ngayon nag-aaral. Ako? Andito! Nagbablog tungkol sa kanila! Hahaha! One day soon talaga. Hindi na ko mangangarap sa blog na toh dahil ikukuwento ko na natupad mga pinangarap ko! Magkakaroon din ako ng time to shine! Hahaha! Natuwa naman ako. Ang sarap isipin. Ang saya balikan. :-)

Oo, blame Facebook!!! Siya may dahilan baket bigla ako naging nostalgic! Hahaha!

Currently listening to: Love Is A Wonderful Thing by Michael Bolton
Currently feeling: nice
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 21, 2008 at 04:37 PM in Everyday Drama, Features, Randomness | 4 comment(s)

Short for Machong Unanos. Please naman! Siguraduhin niyong hindi kayo mukhang panadero bago kayo mag-emote ng katawan niyo! Hahaha! Sagwa eh! Hahaha! Oo kasi may nakatabi ako sa bus kanina. Shet! Ang sama ko. Pero OO! Sagwa. Hindi maganda tignan! Parang tagabuhat ng bakal kasi eh. Tsk! Hahaha! Naiinis ako na natatawa. Shucks! Ang uso ngayon lean and muscular! Hahaha!

Grabe ang daming gagawin sa office bukas kasi wala akong ginawa kanina eh. Natulog pa ko sa cubicle ko. Buti hindi napansin. Lunch time naman kasi ako natulog. Lord, bigyan niyo po ako ng lakas at talas ng mata sa gagawin ko bukas. Gusto kong maiyak kanina kasi eh. Ang gulo gulo nung pinapagawa. As in gusto ko na maiyak. Hahaha! Pero sige tawa na lang para walang drama.

OA ng Iisa Pa Lamang. Naaliw ako sa Gossip Girl.

Itry ko kaya magMRT bukas? Shete! Ang laki ng matitipid ko pag ginawa ko yun talaga! Imagine mo! 180php araw araw para sa cab? Wahhh... ang daming pagkain ng makakain nun! Hay...

Inaantok na ko. At gusto magMacau ni Rhitz. Sabi ko, gawan niyang paraan ang 10k ko! Hahahaha...

Good night Mr. T! :-)

Currently listening to: When I Feel It by Mariah Carey
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 21, 2008 at 11:17 PM in Everyday Drama | Post a comment

Before I sleep I have something to share. I got this article from Tom's blog. I asked him if I could repost it here and he said yes. Thanks Tom! Don't worry I added a link to your blog. The credits are all yours :-)

Here are my pet peeves with using personals. Can you relate? Or are you one of these guys?

10. Useless Profiles

So you've taken 5 days to perfect the words for your profile. You've had your friend read it, spell check it, and edit it. Now everyone who reads it will totally understand you. You post it online and start searching other profiles for your perfect match. And you start to realize, you've spent too much time polishing your profile, because everyone else decides not to write about themselves, but either a) posts the lyrics to their favorite song, or b) to write about someone they hate, or c) write what they don't like, or d) write something that makes no sense, or e) leave it completely blank.

9. "Can we be friends?"

Perhaps the most bizzare question conceived by the Internet population. Whenever I get posed this question I usually reply "Possibly, but I can't guarantee it." When I do, usually they don't reply back. I mean really, how am I supposed to know if we'll become friends or not?
Personals sites were made with a few things in mind... to help you look for a lover, an activity partner, sexual partners (gasp!), and yes, even to look for friends. It's really now up to the parties in question whether they will hit it off or not. In short, finding friends is among the fundamental reasons why these sites were built. Which renders the question moot.

8. Unreadable Profiles

The magic of network building websites nowadays is that you can customize your page to suit your tastes. Perhaps the most popular customization is the background image for your page. This is all well and good, if you use it judiciously. This is not the case however for most profiles. A lot of profiles use images that are so jarring that nothing else on the page remains visible. But then again, most people really don't read anything written on your profile anyway.

7. The Friend Farmer

There are people who have a lot of friends. And there are some people who simply look like they have a lot of friends. So many in fact, that they had to create 2 more accounts to add their thousands of friends. But the truth is, they don't know the people in their list. They add someone they think is interesting simply as a trophy displayed among their list of friends. Attempts to have conversation with them are futile, because they're too busy harvesting the site for more so-called friends.

6. Chatroom Prima Donnas


Most personals websites usually have chatrooms where you can participate freely. It's another way of getting to know the people around you (virtually anyway). But sometimes the chatroom becomes the venue of people who live out their delusions of grandeur. They lay their claim to the chatroom as the unopposed king or queen, and that their rule there is absolute. Oh, and they'll have a posse to back them up too. Thus, the chatroom becomes nothing more than a place of bitching and/or machismo, and you, nothing more than a bystander, or worse, a victim of their ire.

5. The Response To Your Refusal

When you start out with your own personals page, you'd probably be excited in answering every question thrown at you. You'd give out your address, phone numbers, etc. Then you  realize that there are a few crazies out there on the Internet, so you had to change your number, move to another house, change your name, and have a sex operation. However, the next time around, you refuse to give out information, they call you "Suplado," "Masungit," and what-have-you. It's really a lose-lose situation. Damned if you do, damned if you don't. On the bright side, if you refuse to give information about yourself, you don't have to go through another sex change.

4. Bizarre Letter Case


haVe yOu eVEr trIed reAdiNG pARagRapHs tHat haVe nO reGaRd whAtSoeVer wItH tHe coRrEcT UpPerCasE anD LoWercAse lEttERs? NoT veRy nicE iS it? qUitE anNoyInG iN fAcT. iT's inTeResTinG to nOtE thAt iT tOoK me tHreE tO FOuR tImeS loNgeR to tYpe thIs wAY tHan THe uSuAL wAy, sO wHy gO tHroUgH aLL tHis efForT to BeGin WiTH?

3. Bad English... and heaven forbid, Bad Tagalog

The Philippines has tauted English as its 2nd language for the longest time. So it's really quite baffling that there are a lot of Filipinos that can't seem to get it right.
Even more baffling, is that they seem to think that they're rather fluent and have a strong grasp of the language, and thus, write their entire profiles in a completely incomprehensible manner. Apparently, they've lost grasp of reality.
As if that wasn't bad enough, some Filipinos can't even get their Tagalog right. GASP! The Philippine's national language, and they still manage to screw it up. AMAZING! Now I know that Filipinos have various dialects, but if you can't manage to get 2 out of 3 languages right, just stick to what you know - at least you won't look like an idiot.

2. The Poser

The hottest hunk/babe has just started a conversation with you, leaving you with no room for doubt that they are interested in you. Your conversations are long and sweet. You've fallen in love. It's almost like a dream... Chances are, it's just that - a dream. Cuz one day, you two finally decide to meet up and find that the hunk/babe you had fallen for is a complete toad using someone else's picture. You could try to kiss the toad in the hopes they'd turn into the person of your dreams, but you don't want to realize that it really was a nightmare to begin with.

1. ASL (Age/Sex/Location)

Most personals sites ask you to fill out lots and lots of information about yourself, short of your eating habbits. Yet despite this, people are still too lazy to read your profile and still ask you "ASL?"
I mean really, is it all that difficult to read? Has the internet introduced a whole new level of laziness that people can't even decipher whether you're male or female by simply looking at your picture?

Currently listening to: True Love's Kiss by Amy Adams
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 21, 2008 at 11:47 PM in Everyday Drama, Features | Post a comment

Lord ano ba tong nangyayari sa kin. Kanina pa ko nakakaidlip dito sa workplace ko. 1am naman ako natulog kagabi. Tsk. Sana mawala na tong antok ko or else uuwi ako ng maaga! Sheesh...

Currently feeling: uber sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 22, 2008 at 10:49 AM in Everyday Drama, OJT | Post a comment

"Mukhang malungkot ka na naman"

"Mukha ba? Di ko alam..."

"Ang gulo naman ng utak mo"

"Naguguluhan ako eh. Pasensiya na..."

"Ano, gagawin mo ba yung balak mo?"

"Ayoko, baka mapagbagsakan na naman ako ng pinto"

"Baket kasi nagtitiyaga ka pa rin?"

"Di ko rin alam"

"Ano gusto mo mangyari ngayon?"

"Matulog..."

 

Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 22, 2008 at 03:05 PM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | Post a comment

I have successfully drawn myself out of this seeming twilight zone where everything is a grey mess. Reflecting on such memories in a third perspective eliminates all the raw pain like panacea. Having been oblivious to be human, eliminates any sensation of pain and joy altogether. I wouldn't recommend it but if its for the best, then go, but dont forget to come back though.

Although these past few months have been amazingly blissful for a guy stuck in the moon, it just seems so surreal, so again I ride my ship back to earth, back to reality, back to pleasure and back to pain.

A frequent mantra, He's just a person that you loved, you never wanted better, you never wanted less, you just wanted him. Unfortunately, you wanted someone who thinks less of you...

Currently listening to: Beauty and Madness by Fra Lippo Lippi
Currently feeling: reflective
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 23, 2008 at 09:59 AM in Everyday Drama, Features, Randomness | Post a comment

"It's fun to be a gay" --- Naalala ko yun yung nakasulat dati sa bulletin board ng Section B ng XS Batch 2004. Hahaha! Sobrang specific noh? Funny.

Since lunchbreak, Facebook and Multiply muna ko. Siyempre nakikita mo ang mga updates ng iba't ibang tao sa dalawang sites na yan. While browsing mga updates ng contacts, nakakita ko ng mga baklang magkakaibigang Lasallians and Ateneans. Yes, they're glamorous. At baket parang kilala ko halos lahat sila? At may mga kulang pa sa pics! Hindi sila kumpleto! Haha!

The pictures:


The Lasallians

The Ateneans

Ikaw? Where do you wanna belong today?

Kung ako tatanungin, wala. Hahaha! Nakakatuwa lang sila pagmasdan sa totoo lang. They make it look na sobrang saya maging gay. It really is. :-) 

 

Currently listening to: silence
Currently feeling: full
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 23, 2008 at 12:49 PM in Everyday Drama, Gayness | Post a comment

Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 23, 2008 at 03:05 PM in Everyday Drama, Randomness, OJT | 8 comment(s)

I'll share this before I go home:

SCORPIO FUN FACTS

Beneath a controlled, cool exterior beats the heart of the deeply intense Scorpio. Passionate, penetrating, and determined, this sign will probe until they reach the truth. The Scorpio may not speak volumes or show emotions readily, yet rest assured there's an enormous amount of activity happening beneath the surface. Excellent leaders, Scorpions are always aware. When it comes to resourcefulness, this sign comes out ahead.

Friends and Family

Sincerity and truth are strong components of the Scorpio's friends. It can take some time before really close bonds are formed, but once done, the Scorpio will remain dedicated and loyal. Witty and intellectual, they prefer companions who are humorous and easygoing. Full of surprises, this sign will give you the shirt off their backs if that's what you need, yet once they are crossed, there's no turning back. They feel deeply, and once hurt, it can be impossible to turn things around. Commitment to family is strong and consistent with the Scorpio. They are exceptionally helpful in managing affairs, and they are excellent advocates when needed.

Career and Money

I desire is the key phrase for the Scorpio. They are fantastic at managing, solving, or creating. Once the Scorpio sets their sights on a goal, there's no deterring this sign. Tasks that require a scientific, penetrating approach are always best done by Scorpions as they will delve deeply into the materials they have. Their ability to focus coupled with determination makes for strong management skills. They're not ones to worry about making friends on the job scene; rather, they prefer to see the task accomplished well.

Pursuing such careers as scientist, doctor, investigator, navigator, detective, researcher, police officer, business manager, and psychologist all suit the mighty Scorpio. Respect is an essential aspect of working for this sign. They need to respect their coworkers while also feeling a sense of being respected by others.

Scorpions are disciplined enough to stick to a budget and unafraid of working as hard and as long as it takes to get themselves in a good financial position. Many are fortunate and inherit money. Whatever the case - and regardless of the balance - they are great managers of their dollars and are not apt to overspend. Money means security and a sense of control, which is important to the Scorpio. Therefore, they're going to hang onto the majority of the cash, making decisions carefully before turning any of it over.

Love and Sex

This is the strongest of the sexualities in the Zodiac. Incredibly passionate, the Scorpio takes intimacy seriously. Partners need to be intelligent and honest. Much of the foreplay for this sign happens long before the bedroom through conversation and observation. Once in love, they are devoted and loyal to the death. But relationships can take some time. The Scorpio needs to build trust and respect for a potential mate slowly and thoroughly.

SCORPIO TIDBITS


Health
Each sign has a part of the anatomy attached to it, making this the area of the body that is most sensitive to stimulation. The anatomical areas for Scorpio are the genitals, bladder, rectum, and the reproductive organs.

Ruling Planet
The ruling planet for Scorpio is Pluto. Traditionally, this planet rules that which is hidden from view. It also represents conception, birth, death, slow growth, generation, regeneration, unpopular causes, anonymity, phobias, and the exposition of secrets.

Colors
The colors of choice for Scorpio are dark red and maroon.

Gemstone
Scorpio's star stone is the opal.

Lucky Numbers
Scorpio's lucky numbers are 2, 7, and 9.

Compatibility
Scorpions are most compatible with Pisces and Cancer.

Opposite Sign
The opposite sign of Scorpio is Taurus.

The Perfect Gift
The best gifts for a Scorpio are sentimental choices, clothing (especially something sexy), and non-fiction books.

Likes
Truth, facts, being right, teasing, longtime friends, a grand passion, a worthy adversary

Dislikes
Dishonesty, passive people, revealing secrets

House
Natural sign of the Eighth House. This house focuses on sex, taxes, death and rebirth, a partner's resources, inheritance, and regeneration.

Famous Scorpions
Hillary Clinton, Leonardo DiCaprio, Sean Combs, Julia Roberts

Best travel destination
Zambia, Syria, Norway, Halifax, Liverpool, New Orleans, Washington, D.C.

Strengths
Passionate, stubborn, resourceful, brave, a true friend

Weaknesses
Jealous, distrusting, secretive, violent, caustic

Charismatic marks
An intense look in the eyes, muscular

Best environment
Dark, sensuous places, any situation that offers power or rouses strong feelings

Source: MSN Astrology

I'm out. :-)

Currently listening to: Ms. Jen's voice
Currently feeling: gusto na umuwi
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 23, 2008 at 06:30 PM in Everyday Drama | Post a comment

Bigyan natin ng AWARD ang liham na ito. Sobrang ang drama at naaliw ako nung nabasa ko...

Drum roll please....

"Dear *****,

Thank you for the year that we shared. Though it was very painful for me to know that you took the risk of letting me go and being with someone you've just met.

I don't have anything against you finding him - it's the circle of life, and I have to deal with it. I know you just got tired of our redundant life - living together, eating the same meals, meeting with our common few friends (simply because we're not out to them), dating and going to malls, traveling...

Yeah, it was just you and me. And you got tired of it. But I didn't. Simply because, as Joker said, You complete me. I don't need anyone else.

But I was wrong. When you left me, there was no one to turn to. I don't want to talk to our friends - who'd tell me that it wasn't my fault, and it's yours for your questionnable contentment. I know I have my own faults too, but looking after you and containing you has its own reasons.

I tried to soften the grip but you ended having five one night stands - Past is past, but I do want you to know that it was for your own good.

I loved you - and I love you still, but we have to grow. Even if we're no longer together. Time pass by and wounds heal, though the heart remains scarred, it still beats.

To the guy you met, I hope he'll take care of you - and I hope, that he's not just another pretty face who caught your libido. I know I'm not "astig" as him, I don't sing good and I am somewhat questionnable. But never you doubted whom I loved - and my loyalty. You never worried where I was and whom I am with... Simply because, you know my love was real.

Now I hope I can do the same.

Dear ***** - please be careful with your heart. I don't mind mine breaking, since I can pick up the pieces, put it all back together in a different appeal. I know how to survive - and I know someone's out there who can love me the way I am, the way you used to...

Love,

&&&"


*clap clap clap clap* Hahaha... AWARD!!! O di ba? Mahal na mahal ni Ampersand si Asterisk? Hahaha... this made my day...

Good night Mr. T! :-)

Currently listening to: Paano Na Kaya by Bugoy Drillon
Currently reading: Wilmer's YM Window
Currently feeling: weird
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 23, 2008 at 11:33 PM in Everyday Drama, Gayness, Randomness | 2 comment(s)

Another gay conversations compilation. Enjoy!

M****   : Hey! Saw you last Friday sa Strip...
Jacob     : Anong Strip?
M****   : Fort Strip. Pumayat ka ah.
Jacob     : Talaga. Naiba kasi sleeping habit ko eh. San ka dun nun?
M****   : Nakaupo kasama friends sa labas Go Nuts. Single ka pa rin?
Jacob     : Kailangan pa bang imemorize yan? Nakared at nagyoyosi ka ba nun?
M****   : Yep. Ako yun at single rin ako ngayon.
Jacob     : Kaya pala familiar! Hot mo na shet! At himala wala kang jowa! May sakit ka?
M****    : Oo nga eh. So kelan tayo magdedate?
Jacob     : Hahaha! Pag-obese na ko. Hahaha!

B***      : Salamat sa advice ha. Siguro nga hanggang bestfriends na lang kami ngayon...
Jacob     : At least di ba?
B***      : Ayan nag-advice ka na. Friends na tayo?
Jacob     : Oo naman! Ano ba!
B***      : Ano na number mo?
Jacob     : Baket ko ibibigay?
B***      : Sabi mo dati bibigay mo pagfriends na tayo!
Jacob     : Pag naging kayo na ulit ng jowa mo. Sige bibigay ko... hahaha!

T**         : Talaga? Hindi ka nagyoyosi at hindi ka pa mahilig magbar bar?
Jacob      : Yep, not my thing...
T**         : Anghel ka ba?
Jacob      : Nope. Anghel ang kailangan ko sa buhay ko...
T**         : Sige, fairy godmother naman ako...
Jacob      : Huh?

W**       : Ganyan na ganyan smile mo sa mga pics mo
Jacob      : Wala. Naaliw lang ata ako sa yo at sa sinasakyan natin ngayon...
W**       : Grabe, hindi ka mukhang 23. Para kang bata
Jacob     : No worries. Hindi ka rin naman mukhang 27
W**       : Sus bola.
Jacob     : Bola? Sure. Gutom na ko. Kain tayo bola bola. Hahaha...

M***      : May irereto ako sa yo. Cute toh...
Jacob      : Ay ano yan? 3some?
M***      : Nyek. Hindi. Wag kang ganyan...
Jacob     : Naku, baka 3some yan. 3some! 3some! Hahaha...
M***     : Ayan, nawalan na ng gana kaka 3some mo!
Jacob     : Kebs, wala rin akong gana sa kanya. Hahaha...

L***       : Dali na iview mo na webcam ko...
Jacob      : Wala kong panahon pwede ba...
L***       : Dali na. Hindi kita titigilan hanggang hindi mo iviview...
Jacob      : Eh kung ilagay kita sa ignore list ko and report kita as spam?
L***       : Fine...

J***       : Oo nga eh, ano kayang feeling nun noh nagOrgy tayo. Hahaha...
Jacob      : Ano nga kayang feeling?
J***       : Parang nakipagsex tayo sa mga kapatid natin! Hahaha...
Jacob      : Oo nga! At lugi ako sa inyo! Hahaha...
J***       : *raises eyebrows*

D****     : Hoy, hinihingi ng officemate ko yung YM mo. Type ka raw...
Jacob      : Babae o lalakeng officemate?
D****     : Bi...
Jacob      : Wag mong ibigay. Sabihin mo may jowa na ko...
D****     : Okay...
Jacob      : Ano sabi?
D****     : Sayang naman daw. Sige eto Facebook niya http://www.facebook.com/@^#&$*$
Jacob      : Ay shet sabihin mo joke lang na may jowa ako! Hahaha...
D****     : Ay nakipagbreak ka agad ganun? Hahaha...

J***        : Ano sinabi mo sa guy? Nilaglag mo ba ko?
Jacob      : Hindi noh. I said nice things about you. Friend kita noh!
J***        : Eh baket sabi niya may secret kang sinabi sa kanya na ikalalaglag ko raw...
Jacob      : Aling secret? Yung nakipagsex ka sa jeep? Hahaha...
J***        : Puta ka sinabi mo yun?
Jacob       : Hayaan mo, sabi niya sa kin nakipagsex naman siya sa CR ng Glorietta! Huwag ko raw sabihin sa yo! Hahaha...

T**         : Sige na. Sunod ka na sa min sa O Bar mamayang 12am
Jacob      : Haller! May pasok ako tomorrow at di ko alam kung san yang bar na yan...
T**         : Gay bar. What time ba pasok mo bukas?
Jacob      : Papasok ako ng 7am para maaga ako makauwi...
T**         : Tulog ka na now tapos sunod ka mga past 12am tas derecho ka na sa work...
Jacob      : Gags ka lang? Kayo na lang. Hindi ko rin trip ang bar. Gay bar pa shet...
T**          : Sige gtg...
Jacob       : Go go go...

Currently watching: The Wizard of Oz
Currently feeling: funny
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 23, 2008 at 11:59 PM in Everyday Drama, Features, Gayness | 6 comment(s)

Hindi ako magtatrabaho ngayon. Tutunganga na lang ako sa monitor. Ayaw ko talaga gawin tong pinapagawa sa kin Mr. T! Plus 1000 points for effort talaga. Nung isang araw, nachallenge pa pagiging programmer ko ng ipadebug sa kin ni Sir Mico yung file niya! Shet! Wahhh... buti naayos ko. At may alam pala ko. Haha!

Let's do some blagging:

Ang ganda ng taxi na nasakyan ko kanina Mr. T! Maayos, malinis at at cute yung driver. Siya pala yung may-ari kasi natanong ko anong line yung taxi. Sabi niya sarili niyang kotse yun. Naman! Haha! A good way to start the morning. Parang sana tinanong ko na lang yung number niya para araw araw siya magsundo sa kin! Hahaha! Landi puta!

Si Ate na-ospital na naman. Super sakit ng tiyan nung isang araw. At papaya lang pala ang sagot.

Showing na ang HSM3. Kala ko pa naman manonood kami. Mga pamangkins ko na lang isasama ko bukas.

Hindi ko pa rin nakukuha Green and White ko. Yep, lumabas na ang 2008 Yearbook ng DLSU. At kasing bigat daw ng baterya ng kotse.

Christsuper ang Nicolihiyala make my morning worth waking up. Hahaha!

Ang daming nag-iinvite sa kin sa Fashion Week since last week Mr. T! Sorry, kung mga invites ng mga lalake for dates hindi ako umu-oo, Fashion Week pa? I'd rather sleep.

May nakita kong vest sa TOPMAN na sobrang ganda pero sobrang MAHAL!

Excited na ko kumita ng sarili kong pera Mr. T! Sobrang excited na!

Sayang, sana kinuha ko na rin yung FRELEC ko this term. Sobrang flexible kasi ng time dito sa HSBC. Kahit anong oras ako dumating basta 8 hours ako dapat. Kahit anong oras naman pwede rin akong umuwi. Eh di sana graduate na ko ng December di ba? Pero okay din toh, at least may last chance pa kong maging BUM.

Nacremate na pala si Tita Estrella Mr. T! kaso wala ako. Ayun, okay na rin mga pinsan ko. Pero siyempre recovering pa rin sila.

Yung isang anak ng pinsan ko may third-eye pala. Shet! Nakakatakot kasi kung anu-ano nakikita niya! Scary!

From Monday til now, 3 lang ang texts sa cellphone ko. 1 pa dun Globe Promo. Hahaha! Walang kwentang cellphone! Hahaha!

"8-Minute Abs" still works like charm on me. Hahaha! Buti na lang. Buti na lang!

I'm loving Gladys Knight's "Neither One Of Us" for the nth time.

Kailangan ko pa isearch kung sino si Shrek 3 na nagtag sa Tagboard ko. Okay, alam ko na kung sino.

And finally may ikukuwento ako:

Textmate 1 : San ka na?
Reply          : Dito na ko bus. Miss mo ko?
Textmate 1 : Opo. Sige ingats ka jan. Love you po.
Reply          : Love you din po. Kita tayo bukas ha?
Textmate 1: Opo. Early bird catches the bird okay? Haha...
Reply          : Sira ka talaga. Love you ulit. Kaw lang love ko. 

*dinelete ang messages*

Textmate 2 : San ka na?
Reply          : Dito na ko bus Galleria, san ba tayo kita?
Textmate 2 : Dito Ministop sa Legarda. Mga wat time ka pa makakarating?
Reply          : Before 8 siguro. Ano suot mo?
Textmate 2 : Nakacap ako na brown at whiteshirt and jeans.
Reply          : Sige, ilan ba tayo?
Textmate 2 : Andito na yung 2. So bali 4. Bottom yung 2.
Reply          : Sige text na lang kita pag nanjan na ko.
Textmate 2 : Top ka naman din di ba?
Reply          : Versa ko. Sige sige. Text text na lang.

*dinelete ang messages*

WTF??? Katabi ko yan sa bus nung isang araw Mr. T! Landi nung baks na yun. Pota! Gusto ko siyang sabunutan nung oras na yun! Nalungkot ako kay Textmate 1, si Ken. Si Texmate 2, si Merv. Hahaha! Oo, ayan ang ginagawa ko sa bus. Nakikibasa ng text ng ibang tao. Buti dala ko salamin ko. Mas nagandahan ako sa text exchanges ng katabi ko kesa dun sa palabas sa bus. Hahaha! What's wrong with this world? Makes me sad.

Currently listening to: Neither One of Us by Gladys Knight and the Pips
Currently feeling: blank
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 24, 2008 at 03:38 PM in Everyday Drama, Updates, Gayness | 12 comment(s)

Tamang tama pagkauwi ko papunta sina Mama sa St. Luke's para dalawin si Ate. Ayun, naawa ako kanina kay Ate ko kasi naiiyak na siya sa sakit ng tiyan na. Nagdasal kami sa room kanina. Bihira umiyak si Ate eh. Pero kanina Mr. T! Naawa ako. :-( Pag di pa raw umayos tiyan niya baka isa na namang operation ang gawin. Natatakot ako para kay Ate. Siguro normal ang matakot dahil kakaoperation niya pa lang. :-(

Pagkauwi na pagkauwi ko, nilook up ko agad kung ano yung sinasabing cause kung baket masakit tiyan ni Ate. Eto: Digestive Facts - Adhesions. Medyo parang nabutan ako ng tinik siyempre malikot utak ko. Kung anu-ano naiisip ko. Kung iintindihin kasi normal lang naman daw yun. Sana Mr. T! Sana. Ipagdadasal ko muna sa ngayon si Ate. Namin. Alam ko naman andiyan si Lord. Tutulong siya. Alam namin yun. :-)

Anyways, pagod na ko Mr. T! I need some rest. Bukas na lang kuwento about mga nangyari sa office. Nalungkot lang ako and natakot ngayon. Kanina. Pero alam ko, magiging okay rin ang lahat. I know it will. I know it will. The Lord is there.

Currently listening to: Heart of the Matter by India. Arie
Currently feeling: gloomy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 24, 2008 at 10:42 PM in Everyday Drama | 2 comment(s)

Pero lagi na lang ganito. Pagkagising ko kanina, andito mga pinsan ko. Kausap si Kuya sa phone at pumalakpak tenga ko sa mga narinig kong usapan at mga sinasabi ng pinsan ko. Grabe, minsan iniisip ko parang anong pananagutan ni Kuya sa inyo at padala kayo ng padala ng kung anu-ano? Pft! Siguro nga hindi ako katulad ng Ate at Kuya at ni Bruno na mapagbigay. It just not me. Wala kong pananagutan sa inyo. Magbibigay ako kung gusto ko magbigay. Eh kung kami kaya manghingi sa inyo minsan? As if naman di ba? Padalan mo ko nito, ganyan, ganun, nun, niyan. It's been like this kahit nung bata pa kami at yung si Papa nasa abroad. Lagi na lang may padala rin si Papa para sa mga pinsan kong ugh... minsan naman sana magtrabaho sila di ba? Wala kong pake kung sabihin ni Mama na maldito ko at mayabang at masungit. It's just that I really don't have any business with them. Hindi namin responsibilidad bigyan sila ng material na bagay. I'm sorry. Abusado na minsan. Kung ako man mag-aabroad, hello, ni isang balik bayan box di ako magdadala pauwi. Sisiguraduhin kong briefcase at mga luggage lang dala ko pabalik at pauwi. It's just not me. Sorry...

Currently listening to: All Cried Out by Allure
Currently feeling: inis
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 25, 2008 at 09:05 AM in Everyday Drama, Randomness, Family | 4 comment(s)

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Posted by jjcobwebb on October 25, 2008 at 04:48 PM in Reviews | 1 comment(s)

Good morning Mr. T! Sorry wasn't able to update you yesterday, I was really sleepy all day. Anyways, I slept the whole day yesterday. My pamangkins already watched HSM3 the other day with Bruno. So, Rhitz, Barry, Luis and I went out to watch HSM3 in Promenade yesternight. No, Theatre Mall. As usual, I was late for the movie. Like what I always do before any gimmick, I sleep first then get ready on the time we're supposed to meet up. Bella Diva.  The movie was great. I was smiling the whole time the movie was playing. And Ashley Tisdale was FABULUS. I kept laughing everytime she had a scene. Goodness. Before watching we first ate in Teriyakki Boy. Then we relived Barry's drunk moments while eating. We kept laughing. After the movie, we seperated. I went with Barry. Luis waited for his driver and Rhitz to his car. While walking outside GH Area, Barry and I relived some of our HS memories Mr. T! It's just now that I realized how fun HS was for us. And who said all-boys-schools weren't fun? The movie brought back a lot of memories. Like these:

  • During dismissal, I would make tambay inside Section B's classroom. It was our sanctuary. Hahaha! The funnest classroom of all where the straight ones didn't care about the gay ones. Haha!
  • We can leave our bags anywhere without worrying something will get lost
  • We would talk on the corridors like there's no class tomorrow. Sometimes we'll end up so late talking and gossiping
  • The canteens, 40php complete meal
  • Maxibon, Jelly Tongue, Choco Banana and the Mashed Potatoes
  • GS Canteen's Empada
  • The tambay moment's with the lower batch in GS Canteen area
  • ECA
  • Cleaners
  • Intersection Class/Band contest (We won both. Haha.)
  • CAdT
  • And many more.
  • Tambay in Ash Creek or Madison Square or GH Area
  • Virramall's National Bookstore!

And many more. Sorry I just woke up. Can't think a lot of HS memories. One day when I get nostalgic, I'll write one soon about it.

Then it was around 12am when we got home. I went online and saw Jeffrey still online. His cousin wasn't still around so he was still using the computer. We talked about a lot of stuff. Even reliving out HS memories too. Jeffrey and I are so opposite Mr. T! Yep, he might look frail and fragile outside, but Jeffrey really is insensitive when it comes to heart matters and whatevers. I wish I were like that. Me, like what they always say, I have a stand-out character. I might look strong and fiery outside but the truth is, I easily get broken. I keep to myself. I just don't want people to know I'm broken. I want them to see me always happy. I think I just know how to wear a mask very well. I wish I were like Jeffrey. But I can't. Anyways, this entry might get too far and sad and I don't want it to be. I'll end here Mr. T!

A nice read: Falling Short of the Greatest Commandment by Fr. J.

Happy Sunday and update you soon Mr. T! :-)

Currently listening to: You Had Your Chance by Mariah Carey
Currently feeling: blank
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 26, 2008 at 11:12 AM in Everyday Drama, Malling, Food and Dining | Post a comment

Grabe, baket ba naisipan kong panoorin ang The Love of Siam ngayon pa Mr. T!? Grabe, ang ganda. Naiiyak pa rin ako hanggang ngayon. Pinakamagandang gay themed film so far tong movie na toh. Sunod na lang Ang Lihim Ni Antonio. No sex scenes, no hot bodies or whatevers. It's LOVE. Grabe. Lumalala lang lalo situation ko Mr. T! Ano ba toh. Pero ang ganda talaga. The farthest na meron sa movie na toh is kissing. That's it. Pero sapul na sapul ako Mr. T!

Grabe, dito ko naiyak ng sobra Mr. T! Nung sinabi ni Tong mga salitang to:

"I can't be your boyfriend, but that doesn't mean I don't love you"

Sad. Pero ganun ata talaga. Ang sakit. Naiiyak pa rin ako ano ba toh.

"Thank you" yan na lang nasabi ni Mew sa huli.

Ang sakit. Pero tulad nga nung kanta sa movie

"As long as there's love, there's hope..."

Amen.

And I'm still crying...

Currently reading: Gerswin's text message
Currently feeling: touched
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 26, 2008 at 09:46 PM in Everyday Drama | 4 comment(s)

Never ako nagalit sa mga kasambahay Mr. T! Pero kanina pinagalitan ko sila. For the first time nasigawan ko sila. Grabe, dalawa na sila sa bahay wala pa kong long sleeves, slacks at panyo. Grabe, nung pagtapos ko lang maligo saka sila naghagilap, nagplantsa, hinanda mga susuotin ko. Grabe. Init ng ulo ko kanina. Si Mama hindi pa nag-iwan ng baon. Dumirecho agad sa ospital. Hay...

Sa taxi I had a conversation with the driver:

"Sobrang traffic dun sa may north..."

"San ho doon?"

"Sa may Trinoma..."

"Ahhh, traffic ho talaga doon. Rush hour pa naman..."

"Napapadpad ka ba dun?"

"Opo, pero hindi po madalas"

"Siguro nakipagdate ka na dun noh?"

"Dun nagsimula lahat manong kung alam mo lang. *smiles*"

"Ang alin?"

"Wala ho, lipat niyo na lang sa 90.7 yung radyo"

Ayun, napasmile na lang ako Mr. T! And I was smiling the whole time nasa loob ako ng cab! Inaalala. Kung alam lang ni Manong noh? Hanggang dun na lang talaga siguro yun. Sa isip. Mapapasmile ka na lang pagnaisip mo. I'm still smiling right now. Yun na lang kasi meron ako eh. Yun lang pinanghahawakan ko. Yun at yun lang mahahawakan ko. Tanggap ko na. Hindi naman ako yung nang-iwan. All I can do right now is to smile and be thankful.

Hindi man nangyari mga gusto ko mangyari, at maging akin mga gusto ko maging akin, at least masasabi ko, naging masaya ko. At wala akong pinagsisihan ni isa sa mga ginawa ko ngayong taon na toh. Siguro, I felt envious, angry, inis, happy, asar, buwisit, impatient, dumb, been played with, ecstatic, shit, pathetic, excited, giddy... etc. But honestly Mr. T!, they all felt good.  :-) They all felt good...

And, thank God hindi na raw ooperahan si Ate. The power of prayers. :-)  Thank you Jesus.

Currently listening to: If I Never Knew You by Shanice & Jon Secada
Currently feeling: calm
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 27, 2008 at 10:27 AM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | 6 comment(s)

Masakit na pinsngi, bibig at panga ko kakasmile Mr. T! Shete! Ngawit na mukha ko. Hahaha... dahil ba toh sa nagtext sa kin kagabi? Shete, kapagod ngumiti but I love it... :-D

 

Currently reading: Barry's text message
Currently feeling: smiley
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 27, 2008 at 12:23 PM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | 2 comment(s)

This is random. Nagtetext kami ni Barry ngayong oras na toh. And siyempre as usual emo text exchanges. Weird ko minsan magreply Mr. T! Bigla kong natawa dun sa nireply ko kay Barry...

Barry    : Grabe, nakakalungkot. Loveless pa rin tayo talaga. Kainis...
Jacob   : Isipin mo na lang, ano mas malungkot, tayo na loveless or yung mga pamilya at mga batang namamatay sa hirap at sa gutom?
Barry    : Wow! May point!

Pati ako di ko kinaya yung nireply ko sa kanya Mr. T! Pati ako napaWOW at natawa. Hahaha... shucks. Nababaliw na ata ako. Wahhh...

Currently reading: Barry's text message
Currently feeling: funny
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 27, 2008 at 12:40 PM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | Post a comment

I hate reading Multiply sites. Kasi nalulungkot ako minsan eh. Pero shucks, eto sobrang nainggit ako sa entry ni Daniel. As usual, lagi naman nakakainggit mga post ni Daniel eh. Magbibirthday na pala siya next next week. Scorpio din pala siya and yung jowa niya may regalo sa kanya. Wahhh... eto yung nakalagay na card dun sa paperbag:

"Sky,

    I'm not sure if I'll be able to make it on your birthday. I know you don't want me to spend much but your wallet has to go. I love you and happy birthday

Sky Mo"

Shucks. Susme. Naiinggit ako grabe. Wish ko lang di ba may magbigay din sa kin ng ganyan sa birthday ko. KAHIT YUNG SULAT LANG! Wahhh... kahit wala ng gamit na kasama. Shucks. This is bad. I feel terrible.

When will it be my turn Mr. T!? :-(

Currently feeling: weird
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 27, 2008 at 03:09 PM in Everyday Drama, Gayness, Randomness | Post a comment

Swerte, tamang tama, pagkauwi ko kainan sa bahay nina Mabel. Asawa ni Kuya. Dami ko nakain shucks! Hehehe...

Ayun, eto katatapos lang manood ng Iisa Pa Lamang. Pagod. Matutulog na in a while.

Sino kaya pipiliin ni Katherine, si Miguel na una niyang naging mahal or si Rafael na natutunan niyang mahalin? Hmmm... sino kaya noh?

Anyways. Yan lang Mr. T! Update you soon...

Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 27, 2008 at 10:15 PM in Everyday Drama | Post a comment

Ilaw ko sa kwarto Mr. T! Shet! Good night na talaga toh!

Currently reading: Sherry's YM Window
Currently feeling: weird
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 27, 2008 at 11:03 PM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | Post a comment

Nakalimutan kong sabihin na dumalaw pala si Wekwek dito sa office kahapon Mr. T! Mga 4pm-4:30pm nagkukuwentuhan lang kami sa labas ng office. Hehehe! Actually andun kami sa agaw pansin niyang kotse. Dapat mag-uundertime ako kahapon para samahan siya sa Makati bumili ng Halloween costume para sa office party nila, pero sabi niya wag na. So okay, nagkuwentuhan lang kami. Then bumalik sa office para kumain. Haha!

Parang love ko na mga tao dito sa office. Shucks.

Remember this Mr. T? : What's Wrong???

Isa yan sa pinakacontroversial na post ko Mr. T! Grabe, ang iksi niyan pero nabasa ata ng buong batch yan! Pero buti, bati na kaming 3. I don't wanna delete that post. Pinadedelete sa kin nung dalawa pero sorry. Isa yan sa pinakamakulay na blog post ko ever. 

So baket ko naman binalikan yan? Wala naman masyado, last night kasi, super YM kami ni Wilmer. Parang walang nangyari. Maldito si Wilmer pero mabait naman sobra yun. Mean siya at times pero mabait yun. Wala lang natuwa lang ako dahil after all these years, friends kami. Binalikan namin mga HS days kagabi. Tapos kwento siya about his work. Baket ganun, ang lakas ng pananampalataya niya sa kin na kaya ko rin gawin yung work niya. Sales siya eh. Sabi ko hindi naman ako matalino, eto sabi niya, imaginine ko na lang daw kung kaya nung mga pinakamatatalino sa batch makipagsales. Hmmm... may point siya noh Mr. T!?  Bagay raw ako dun. Siguro nga. Ewan ko. Mga tao sa paligid ko mataas paniniwala sa kin pero ako to myself? No. Baka maglunch kami one of these days.

Work related, last night nag-usap kami ng nanay ko. Tinanong ako kung gusto ko raw mag-abroad. I said no. Hindi ko talaga trip mag-abroad Mr. T! Hindi ko naman ako nagmamadaling yumaman. Haha! Wala lang, weird, baket kaya ako tinanong ng nanay ko. Ano ba yan, Kuya ko nasa abroad na, tapos si Bruno mag-aabroad din. Kumusta naman? Henaku, dito na lang ako sa Pilipinas. May mga alepores. Hahaha!

Speaking of alepores, grabe, bibingo na talaga mga kasambahay namin Mr. T! Isa na lang talaga. Naasar na ko pero ayoko talaga sila awayin. Hindi ako ganun. Naki-usap ako kanina sa kanila na ayusin naman nila trabaho nila. Nakakaiyak na sa totoo lang. Nakakaiyak sa inis! Hay...

Dahil sa hindi ako pumayag sa taxi kanina dagdagan ng 50php yung babayaran ko, binaba ako nung driver sa Ortigas! Shet, hirap maghintay ng cab dun! Mukha naman daw akong mapera baket ang kunat ko! Shet! Sabi ko OJT lang ako. Hindi ba siya makaintindi? Ayun, after 30mins saka lang ako nakakuha ng cab. Salamat naman at mabait yung driver. Umuulan pa. Nakakalungkot. Hay...

Ang topic ngayon sa 90.7 ay: "Baket Ka Single?" Eto ang top 5:

5. Dahil hinihintay mo si destiny

  • Hindi raw mangyayari si destiny kung wala kang gagawing paraan. Destiny happens when one starts doing something.  Hehehe...

4. Dahil ikaw ay busi-busihan

  • Papasok ng 6am tapos uuwi mga 6pm-8pm. Dinner at kain na lang sa bahay tas tulog. Sa Sabado kuntento na sa pagfeFriendster at Multiply at Facebook. Sa Linggo masaya na raw sa luto ng nanay niya. Hahaha...

3. Dahil ikaw ay perfectionist

  • Yung tipong may dumi lang sa kuko ayaw mo na. Yung nakakita ka lang raw ng balakubak ayaw mo na rin. Hello naman daw, hindi naman daw perfect si Nicole, medyo lang! Hahaha... ano ka raw ba maputi? At sobrang kinis at hindi kita mga pores mo sa mukha at kulay mo pantay hanggang singit! Kabaliw talaga si Nicole! Kalerkeyness! Hahaha...

2. The friend theory

  • Yung mga magkakaibigang ayaw raw aminin mga feelings nila for each other. Na ang tagal tagal na lab naman raw nung isa yung isa hindi maamin amin dahil sayang raw ang friendship. Or dahil because sapagkat baka masira ang friendship

1. The X-Factor

  • Ang mga taong hindi makaget-over sa nakaraan. Yung hinahanap yung katangian ng ex niya sa bawat taong nakakadate at nakikila or prospective jowa. Ayon nga kay Nicole, pwede ba, nakipagbreak siya sa jowa niya dahil sa religion. Hindi marunong sumamba yung ex niya sa isang tunay na DYOSA! Hahaha...

Di ba ang akma ng topic Mr. T! Nakakatuwang pakinggan. Kakalungkot isipin. And yes, in not more than 2 weeks, I'll be turning 23. At parang wala pa rin akong natutunan sa buhay na toh. Matututo ba ko? Hmmm... ewan ko. Bahala na. Yung iba nga diyan kala nila natuto na sila at marami silang alam, when in fact, natututo pa rin sila. Akala lang nila may alam sila. Pero ang pinaka-ayaw ko sa lahat yung akala nila ang ganda-ganda at ang popogi nila! Hahaha... shucks ang labo nun.

Um-okay na si Ate. Thank you Lord. Thanks sobra.

Anways, update you soon Mr. T! Trabaho muna ko.

Currently listening to: Jesus Take The Wheel by Carrie Underwood
Currently feeling: nice
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 28, 2008 at 10:42 AM in Everyday Drama, Family, OJT | 3 comment(s)

I will not.

CLICK HERE

I have finally decided to continue blogging til whenever but I have to leave Subtle Bliss behind

Soon...

Currently listening to: silence
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 28, 2008 at 05:05 PM in Everyday Drama | 8 comment(s)

The long wait is over. Directed by ugh... Mariah's husband, Nick Canon. Here's the official video for her latest single "I Stay In Love". Have fun!!!

Currently watching: I Stay In Love by Mariah Carey
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 28, 2008 at 10:42 PM in Everyday Drama, Mariah | Post a comment

A repost from my Wordpress blog:

September 14, 2008 - My Sense of Trust, No Time To Cry, Wordpress

Last night, I had a conversation with my brother on the phone. I was silent most of the time we were talking. He was talking and I wasn’t even listening. I was watching TV. He kept shouting and asking me to tell him stories about what happened for this day. I talked in a soft way. But still he kept shouting. He’s not angry though, that’s just how he talks. I don’t like the phone. I don’t like talking on the phone. Period.

I remember, back in Grade 4, I had this friend who kept asking for my phone number. I never gave it to him. It’s really not my style to talk on the phone about senseless things. My ear just ache and my vocal chords get damaged. It’s hard to control your voice on the phone. I have trouble speaking on the phone. I can’t control how loud or soft of low or high my voice should be on the phone. I am also lazy with holding the handset on my ear. I get tired after a few minutes. Back to this classmate,  one summer vacation, I was suprised he got my telephone number. To my anger, I didn’t talk to him til we were in Grade 7. It was just weird and all. Why would he search or ask people for my phone number if I myself won’t give it to him? Isn’t that already a hint that I don’t want to talk to him on the phone? But I was childish for not talking to him for so long. We could’ve settled it immediately. But it’s done. I didn’t like talking on the phone back then too.

And who would forget when my closest friend hung up on me? But let's not get over-dramatic here. Whatever happened, happened. All is said and done. I forgive people easily.  

Lately, there are people online asking for the mobile number. Before, I admit, I used to give it to anyone who asked for it. It was my way of gaining new friends or entertaining possible relationships. Those days are long over. Now, when people try to ask me for my number, I reply back at them by asking their YM messenger ID instead. Some give theirs, some don’t. In YM, I try to get to know the person as much as possible. And when the right time arrives, I give them my number. Unfortunately, I seldom reply to their texts messages once I have given them my number. I know, I know, I am bad, but I don’t feel like texting lately. Not just lately but this year too. Other times, there are also people who bravely ask for my landline number. I don’t reply back at them anymore. I think it’s already  invading my privacy. My family’s privacy. And why give it to them when I don’t even give it to my closest friends? Meeting new people is not as interesting as it was before.

I have already cleared my cellphone’s inbox and outbox. For the past 5 days, only 3 persons have texted me. Mostly forwarded quotes. I miss those times when I would talk and get to know someone via text. When I get giddy and all via text. Maybe this is temporary. I want peace of mind right now. I want to not think of what I’ve been thinking for the whole year. I want to be sure. Or I just want to have my sanity back. Or whatever.

Probably, this is a side effect of all the dramas that happened this year. My mind being so fixated on one person. Me being distrusted. Me being played. Me being used. Me being just an option. Me being I don't know. Don't worry, this is just me talking to myself. Maybe, my sense of trust have flown with the wind. Maybe this is temporary. I’m going to wait whether or not my sense of trust will rebuild itself. Maybe I’ll try to learn how to trust again. Maybe other people can trust me. Maybe they can trust me again. I know I will. I know they will.

Currently listening to: Heaven Knows by Rick Price
Currently feeling: blank
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 29, 2008 at 10:23 AM in Everyday Drama, Features | 1 comment(s)

Eto ang tunay na update:

Napuri yung ginawa kong trabaho dito sa office ngayon Mr. T! Sarap pala ng feeling.

May Halloween Party mamaya dito ng 1pm. Dadating mga anak ng employees tapos magtiTrick or Treat. Ang daming designs ng office ngayon. Nakakaaliw. Para kaming nasa jungle.

Naalala ko tuloy nung nagTrick or Treat kami nina Jeffrey sa village nila. Grabe, hindi ko makakalimutan yun. First time ko yun eh. Hahaha! Shucks mahirap talaga kami! Haha.

May dalang pasalubong si Ms. Diane galing Bohol Mr. T! Weee... yung Peanut Kisses. Katouch dahil kasama pa ko sa mga binigyan niya. Hehe...

Grabe, dapat akong magtipid Mr. T! Lagi akong broke. Shucks, imagine mo na lang kung gaano dapat kalaki yung ma-isasave ko kung:

  • Hindi ako magaalmusal sa McDonald's
  • Hindi ako maglulunch ng 150php ang halaga ng pagkain
  • Hindi ako magssStarbucks pag-hapon na
  • Hindi ako tatambay sa 7-11 para ngumatngat ng mga chocolates
  • Hindi ako bibili ng donuts sa Country Style pa nakaramdam ako ng gutom
  • At higit sa lahat, hindi ako magtataxi tuwing umaga

Aw, mahirap gawin yun panglast. Hay. Hirap. Actually, mayaman. Shet!

Nakakainis ang Iisa Pa Lamang shucks! Antok na antok na ko pagpinapanood ko kasi. Tapos ganun pa yung kuwento. Ang tagal naman nung ending. Ang dami pang eksena bago matapos. Inis!

Baket lagi akong gutom Mr. T!? At lagin office-bahay-office-bahay na lang ba ko? Shetness. Ay ay, ang ganda ulit ng topic sa 90.7. Continuation nung kahapon. Aliw as usual. Share ko mamaya. Hahaha! Hmmm... ano pa ba. Yun muna.

Ipupublic ko na mga private entries ngayong October Mr. T! since tapos na naman yun.

Sige kunwari magtatrabaho ulit ako. Hahaha!

Currently listening to: Making Love Out of Nothing At All by Air Supply
Currently feeling: weird
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 29, 2008 at 10:48 AM in Everyday Drama, OJT | 3 comment(s)

Ang tagal ko na sa Tabulas pero ngayon ko lang nalaman na may DAY SHIFT BLOGGERS and NIGHT SHIFT BLOGGERS! Hahaha... NIGHT SHIFT kasi lagi ako dati kaya mga nababasa kong blog pang-gabi lang. Pero ngayong nasa office ako, at pang-umaga at lagi kong kaharap tong PC, nalaman ko, marami pa palang bloggers dito sa Tabulas. Nakakatuwa lang isipin. Wala lang...

Currently feeling: nice
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 29, 2008 at 04:46 PM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | 4 comment(s)

Got home really late yesterday Mr. T! Around 2AM. Yep, the title says it, I was out with Aldrich the whole night. Yeah, the whole night cause we started hanging out around past 7PM. Like what he told me on YM "Guess who's back in Manila!" --- duh? He wouldn't ask that if he's not in Manila! Hahaha! So there, we met up after work. He's on a business trip mind you! Oh di ba SUSHAL! Hahaha! Manila is now a business trip for Aldrich! There,  it's a good thing he picked me up here in the office yesterday cause I was able to extend my working time here. There, I told him I'd just be the one to go to Makati, since he was staying in Manila Pen. But no, he insisted we hang out at The Fort. While waiting, I watched Gossip Girl in the office. Then had a quick dinner in McDonald's.

Oh, I forgot, yesterday was a blast. Thanks to Halloween Party that we had  here in the office, foods were overflowing --- literally. Hahaha! And yeah, yesterday, because of the cute kids who were parading their costumes in the office, I asked myself, "Shucks, paano kaya ako magkakababy?". Okay, delusional.

Anways, there, back to Aldrich.

Serendra-BHS 

He wasn't late. Because we didn't agree on a specific time. He picked me up in front of HSBC and from here, we headed to BHS's parking lot. Aldrich IS STILL TALKATIVE. He left me speechless really. I mean, HELLO!!! And I thought I was the MADALDALEST OF ALL. I'm sorry, but he was. And he is. And he will ever be! Hahaha! Aldrich got thin. Yep, he told me he was hitting the gym every Tuesdays and Thursdays in SG. Hmmm... I can't wait til he has that pangR****** body he's been dreaming of. Hahaha!

So we strolled along BHS and Serendra. We were looking for a place to eat. While walking, we kept telling me stories about Singapore. With what Aldrich told me about Singapore yesterday, I think I wanna visit SG. Hmmm... someday. Soon. First he offered Italliani's. I'm not an Italian food lover Mr. T! right? So I refused. Then TGIF he offered. I said yes. Big serving and a nice place to be noisy and talkative. Just right. We were on the waiting list so while waiting we strolled and strolled. Then headed back to TGIF.

TGIF

There, we ordered Baby Back Ribs. Full. Then Buffalo Wings. His treat. Hahaha! Now I have already took part in his X-digits salary! Hahaha! While muching, we talked and talked and talked and laugh and laugh and laugh. It was really fun Mr. T! The perks of being independent, his brand, his bank account, rhinoplasty, lipsuction, his  what else we talked about. ALDRICH IS VERY TALKATIVE!!! Shet! Hahaha! But I really had fun listening. Aldrich was a blast last night. After eating, some of his college friends came to Friday's and they chatted. It was all about Aldrich so I wasn't that OP yesterday. Aldrich asked for an apology but I was really fine. His friends ate. Aldrich kept talking.

Their real plan was to go to Ascend after eating. So we headed there. My bag was still in Aldrich's car so I told him Imma just gonna get it and he can proceed inside Ascend. While inside Ascend, Aldrich backed out. He's not a bar person. He doesn't dance or whatever. He accompanied me in his car to get my bag. He still didn't wanna go home last night Mr. T! So he asked me if I still wanna watch HSM3. I said yes since the movie is fun. Then we headed to GB3 to watch.

GB3

In GB3, we parked. We were actually supposed to park in Manila Pen, but I told Aldrich to drop me off in Ortigas in case the movie ended late. So there, inside the car,  Aldrich kept telling me this "SHUSHAL! Alam ang GB3! Mayaman talaga!" WTH!? Hahaha! Sorry I'm not. Then we saw the Ms. Earth candidates. They were goddesses! Hahaha! Then proceeded inside the cinema. At first we were the only people in the movie house. Then people came in just in time for the movie. Before people came in the movie house, we were really noisy indi it. It was fun. There, the movie started. I still had fun watching the movie though it's my second time around Mr. T! Ashley is still FABULUS. There, after the movie, we immediately headed to the parking and Aldrich gave me a ride home. It was already around 2AM then. It was a happy night Mr. T! Just imagine nagkakilala lang kami sa blog and we're like friends for the longest time? It feels nice really. Today he'll be back in Singapore til whenever again. Thanks Aldrich! :-) To some details I forgot about last night, sorry. Hahaha...

And just what Alrich always ask me "So feeling mo special ka?", puwes OO! Hahaha... joke lang. I really had fun last night. Sa uulitin. :-)

Currently listening to: Night To Remember from HSM3
Currently feeling: nice
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 30, 2008 at 10:45 AM in Everyday Drama, Food and Dining, OJT | 2 comment(s)

Isang taon na pala since last kong naramdaman toh Mr. T! And yeah, pagbinabasa ko ngayon, ganito at ganito pa rin ang nararamdaman ko. Some blog entries are untouchable. I really wanted to create a 2009 version of this entry but for the love of God, I can't. I'll never be able to replicate what I wrote on this entry. Everything that I've written here is in place. Honest. Positive. Like I've never been hurt before. I won't repost the whole entry here, but I'll put snippets of some of the things, that until now, I can't get over with. Things that I still think about...

"Kahit ilang beses kong sabihin sa sarili ko na masaya ko with my friends, family and relatives and even my relationship with God, iba eh. Not putting God aside naman, for practicality's sake, may kulang pa rin. Alam kong may kulang and the more I try to say na hindi ko kailangan ng relationship, the more I long for it."

"Meron naman iba, sobrang hulog na hulog na ko, ayun, hinayaan lang akong mahulog hindi naman ako sinalo. Minsan tuloy dahil sa mga ganyang pangyayari, nawawalan ako ng tiwala sa iba pang mga darating. Oo, sige, siguro sasabihin mo na dapat maging bukas ang puso at pag-iisip ko at iba-iba naman ang mga tao pero iba pa rin eh. Alam mo yung isang pakiramdam na ayaw mo na maramdaman ulit dahil napakasakit? Meron namang pakiramdam na sobrang tamis na ayaw mo na matapos eh bigla na lang magwawakas sa dahilang hindi mo namalayan kung ano. Gusto mo man maramdaman ulit eh wala ng pagkakataon at hindi mo na maramdaman to sa ibang tao"

"Gusto ko yung taong pinagkakatiwalaan ako at pinagkakatiwalaan ko rin. Gusto ko mahalin yung taong hindi nagprepretend to be somebody else. Gusto ko rin yung taong tatanggapin ako bilang ako at hindi ko rin kailangan magkunwari sa harapan niya."

" Hay Mr. T! nakakalungkot pero kailangan ko maging masaya :). Hay... gusto ko ng mamahalin at mamahalin din ako. Ng aalagaan ko at aalagaan ko rin. Yung tatawagin kong beh, baby, sweetheart, honey at ganun din siya sa kin. Nakakatuwa isipin noh pero nakakalungkot at the same time. Actually ngayon, hindi ko alam kung magiging masaya ako sa pagiging single or hindi. Pero lahat naman ng bagay di ba may PROS and CONS. I'd take and do anything just to experience LOVE right now."

"Sana dumating or mahanap or magparamdam or makita ko na yung taong pwedeng umintindi sa kin, kaya akong tanggapin, yung pagkakatiwalaan ako, yung pagpapasensiyahan ako, yung maaliw sa kin, yung sasabihan ako ng mga pinakakatago niyang sikreto, yung pasasayahin ako, yung patatawanin ako, yung walang paki sa sasabihin ng iba, at higit sa lahat yung mamahalin ako ng buong buo at mamahalin ko rin siya tulad ng pagmamahal niya sa kin. Buong buo."

To read the rest of the entry, CLICK HERE

See? One year ago I felt that way. One year after I'm still feeling that way. Desperate much? I don't think so. It's so hard to pretend that you're complete when actually, you are not. It sucks big time. And what do you do when people leave you for no particular reason? I don't know, it's just that I grew tired chasing after these people. It's been that way ever since. I need to save some pride for myself. I've swallowed as much as I could. Just like what my Twitter says: "If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it's yours. If it doesn't, it never was...". The things I need may come slow, but I know and believe, they will come. They will come...

Currently listening to: You Give Good Love by Whitney Houston
Currently feeling: contemplative
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 30, 2008 at 02:17 PM in Everyday Drama | 6 comment(s)

Nagkita na naman kami ni Wekwek a.ka. Fred. Cute si Wekwek shet! Kagagaling niya lang sa bangko nagdeposito na naman ng milliones niya. Hahaha! Mr. T! Grabe, wish ko lang di niya matagpuan tong blog ko nakakahiya at malaman niyang binoblog ko siya. Friend siya ni Mike. Nakita niya pics namin ni Mike sa Multiply. Sa Multiply kami unang nag-usap tapos yun. Malapit lang pala siya nakatira dito sa office. Buti na lang hindi blocked ang Multiply dito! Hahaha! Eto yung first namin na pagkikita. CLICK HERE.

Anyways, ayun, galing na naman siya sa GE Bank para magdeposit. Iba ang dala niyang kotse ngayon. Mayam! Sushal! Haha! Ayun, kala ko dito sa McDo 32nd kami kakain pero pinasakay ako sa kotse at sa ibang McDo kami kumain. Shucks. Hindi ko alam kung anong name ng lugar ng McDo na yun pero libre niya. Actually, kalulunch ko lang. Siya dinner niya na yun. Labo noh? Kasi pang-gabi work niya. Thrice na kami nagkita ngayong month na toh. Ang bait ni Wek kaloka. Pero kanina, sa kotse, first time ko siya nakitang galit. Nabuwisit sa guard. Sabi ko cool lang siya. Ayun, umokay naman nung nakakain na. Tawa na ulit ng tawa and kuwentuhan kami. For exactly 30 minutes dahil sabi ko baka mahalata na ko sa office na alis ng alis sa place ko. Hehehe! 5 minutes away lang naman kasi si Wek dito sa the Fort! Suwerte noh Mr. T!? Hay... ayun, grabe ang bait shet! Nakakatakot dahil parang "Totoo ba toh or joke time?" --- alam mo yun? Tapos hindi pa siya mukhang 27! Amp. Basta. Then hinatid niya ko pabalik sa HSBC and andito na naman ako nagboblog. Mamaya aalis kami nina Barry. Baka hindi na naman ako makapag-update dahil baka gabihin kami. Anyways, update you soon Mr. T! Sige sige. update you whenever. Trabaho ulit.

Ay naalala ko yun tinanong ko kay Wekwek kung baket wala siyang mga gay online accounts ala G4M and Downe. Eto sagot niya "There's no fun in creating one!!!" --- taray! Di ba? Hahaha! Bait ni Wek. Mag-inuman daw kami one time. Sabi ko game.  Hahaha! Sige Mr. T! update you soon :-)

Currently listening to: With You by Chris Brown
Currently reading: Karol's Facebook
Currently feeling: nice bigla
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 30, 2008 at 03:45 PM in Everyday Drama, Food and Dining, OJT | 7 comment(s)

Isip ako ng isip baket tawag ng tawag si Sir Mico ng CAPTAIN JACOB sakin. Grabe, mukha raw pala kong pilot sa get-up ko kanina. Impernes, pogi mga pilot. Kanina pa ko niloloko sa office grabe. Hahaha…

Tapos had dinner with Luis and Rhitz sa Ten Titas sa may Gateway. Barry wasn’t able to make it. So kami. After eating we bought some stuff sa Watson then umuwi na agad since pagod na ko and si Barry diva. Hindi na namin hinintay.

This is my 1100th entry! Weeee...

Ayun, lang naman Mr. T! May mga she-share akong pics. Tapos siyempre lalagyan ko ng mga caption. Wala lang, nakita ko kasi sa mga phone ko tong pics na toh eh. Aliw. Share ko lang.

102020081738  Yan, nasa Gloria Jeans. Yan ang binabasa habang may thesis
meeting last last week ata. Hahaha…
102920081761  Together.Them --- aw ang sweet nung mga dolphins. Buti pa sila. Sa office yan. Hahaha… cute cute cute…

103020081763  Yan ininom namin sa Ten Titas. O di ba parang may party? Hahaha… at biglang sumakit tiyan ko dahil may Mango at Pandan akong ininom. Shucks… 103020081764  Pag gabi na ko nakakauwi and naglLRT2 ako, eto ang kalsadang nilalakaran ko pauwi. Kaya niyo lakarin yan? Hahaha… try clicking it

Yan muna Mr. T! Pagod na ko wahhh!!! Halloween na bukas! :-)

Currently watching: Bandila on ABS-CBN
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 30, 2008 at 11:27 PM in Everyday Drama, Updates, Malling, OJT | Post a comment

For I have sinned! Wahhh... ang HOT ng dumaan just now sa may desk ko! Puta! As in! Hot! Kalbo. Tangkad. Moreno. Tangos ilong. Hunk. Puta! HOT! Braso pa lang ulam na. Haha! Shet! Sana dumaan ulit. Shet! Baket ganito! Hahaha! Isa siyang DIYOS! OMG! Wahhh... inis! I love mornings! Hahaha! Patawarin niyo po ako. Bihira ako makaramdam ng ganitong attraction pero for the love of Santa Clause ang HOT talaga nung dumaan! Shet! I love HSBC! Hahaha! Sana dumaan ulit. Wah! Biglang nagising senses ko. Siomai! Ampness talaga.

Ang talino nung taxi driver na nasakyan ko kanina. Grabe ang informative grabe. Nakakatuwa binigyan ko ng tip si Manong. Aliw aliw. At nilipat niya pa sa 90.7 kahit di ko sinasabi. Favorite niya rin daw. O di ba? Cool si manong? Hahaha... 

Kanina pa kami nagtatawanan ni Ms. Diane dito kasi nakakaaliw pinapagawa sa min ng ODD eh. Hahaha! Parang racing lang talaga tong ginagawa namin ngayon. Kung ano man yun secret dahil baka makulong ako. Haha!

Halloween na mamaya. Hindi ko sure kung pupuntang Malate pamilya ko or sa Serendra para makiHalloween. I'm also torn kung anong dapat kong gawin or puntahan mamaya. Sasama ba ko sa family makiTrick or Treat wherever or... secret. Hahaha!

Sige na nga, para alam din ni Jeffrey, at alam kong matutuwa siya, ininvite ako ni GQ (na ex ni ZS) lumabas mamaya. Actually, last Sunday pa dapat kami magkikita. Nung nasa GH siya, nagdeliver ng gown, gusto niya pumunta sa bahay. Hello naman di ba? Malamang sabi ko hindi. So sabi niya coffee na lang kami or something. Sabi ko gabi na. Nag-invite na lang siya na magdinner kami ngayong Friday. Sabi ko hindi ko pa sure. Tumawag siya kagabi, nagtanong, sabi ko text ko siya before uwian sa office. Sige sabi niya hintayin niya raw text ko para alam niya what time siya aalis sa gym para sunduin ako dito. Hmmm... at hindi na ko nakakanood ng Iisa Pa Lamang lately! Tsk!

Kanina pa ko nakasmile ano ba toh. Inis! Hahaha! Parang lately nabubuild ulit self confidence ko Mr. T! Parang lately ang ganda ganda ko! Joke lang. Hahaha! Joke kasi hindi lang lately, matagal ko ng alam yun. Joke! Hahahaha!!!

Magpapahaba ako ulit ng buhok Mr. T! I mean long back. I feel the old Jacob is back. And it feels nice. :-) Really nice...

Currently listening to: Completely by Michael Bolton
Currently feeling: nice
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 31, 2008 at 11:12 AM in Everyday Drama, OJT | 6 comment(s)

Before:

"Ibig sabihin ba mahal mo din ako?"

"I'm getting there..."

After:

"Mahal mo ba ko? Mahal mo ba ko?"

"I never got there..."

Lines nina Regine and Piolo yan sa 2007 film nila na Paano Kita Iibigan. Wala lang, bigla akong napaisip...

"She had me at my worst, you had me at my best"

Line naman ni John Lloyd yan kay Bea sa One More Chance. Hay...

Minsan talaga choice din natin magdrama at maging madrama. But still, I love it...

Currently feeling: weird
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 31, 2008 at 01:36 PM in Everyday Drama, Randomness | Post a comment

Kagagaling ko lang ng Serendra Mr. T! Pati BHS. Andito ko na ko ulit sa desk ko. Hahaha! Andun sina Erwin, Page, Emo, Kathleen and Kobe nagtiTrick or Treat. Hahaha... so bumaba muna ko ng office tapos nakiTrick or Treat din! Actually, kumuha lang ako ng mga candies sa mga pumpkin bags ng mga pamangkin ko. Hahaha! Fun fun. Yung picture nasa camera ni Erwin. Aliw! Sumama raw ako sa Malate mamaya sabi ni Erwin. Tutuloy daw nila dun yung Trick or Treat! Shucks, nakapagYES na ko kay GQ. Wahhh... anung gagawin ko Mr. T!? Shucks! At dumaan na naman ulit siya. At parang dito na sa tabi namin yung department nila. Hahaha! You know who I'm talking about Mr. T! Hahaha!

Currently listening to: I Want It All from HSM3
Currently feeling: confused
Posted by jjcobwebb on October 31, 2008 at 05:20 PM in Everyday Drama | 2 comment(s)

Ay patay. Walang kwenta.

Hindi natuloy ang dinner namin ni GQ Mr. T! I had to cancel it nung nalaman kong sasama si Ate sa Malate para umikot at tumingin tingin. Sadly, walang kwenta Malate kanina. Hindi siya tulad ng last year na puros maskara and costumes here there and everywhere. Umuwi agad kami. Ayun, pero before pumuntang Malate, dumaan muna kaming Promenade para kumain. And then ayun, sinundo sa bahay si Bruno and kung sino pa mga gusto sumama. Then yun, walang wenta Malate. Kapagod pero okay naman ang joyride. Sumabay pala ko pauwi kina Erwin kanina, sinundo ako sa HSBC. Grabe, nahihiya ako kay GQ, anyways. Sabi niya okay lang naman daw yun. May next time pa. Sabi ko thanks. Buti understanding at hindi nagalit. Take note nagdadrive na siya papuntang office kanina. Nakakahiya ako. Pero kasi naman noh, hindi ko na nga nadalaw si Ate nung may tubo siya sa ilong tapos, ngayong magdidinner kaming family after niya maospital hindi pa ba ko pupunta? Siyempre pipiliin ko pamilya ko muna Mr. T! Though ilang beses ko na sila naturn down this year dahil sa may kasama ko or may kagimikan. Kung sino man ang gusto kong isama sa dinner makapaghihintay yan, pero family ko hindi. Mahal ko pamilya ko Mr. T! Sana talaga si Papa and Kuya andito kasama namin kanina :-)

November na pala Mr. T! 11th month and I'm turning 23. Rhyming ah! Ayun, weird ng feeling ko ngayon. Araw ng mga santo at kaluluwa sa mga susunod na araw. Sana mga tao ngayon alalahin mga yumaong mahal nila sa buhay at ipagdasal sila. I will. Ang daming dapat dalawin. Kung hindi ko man sila madalaw lahat I'll just pray for them Mr. T! :-) Anyways, ayun, wala lang, hindi ko alam nararamdaman ko ngayon. Schizo na ata ako. Hehehe! Basta basta. Update you soon na lang Mr. T! Matatapos na ang taon.

Sa aking almost 23 years of existence, may natutunan kaya ako? Kahit 22 years of existence? Hmmm... ewan ko. Isa lang ang sigurado ako, nagmahal ako ngayong taon na toh. Hindi ako nagsisisi. Wala akong pinagsisihan dahil marami akong natutunan. At ang sa pagkakaalam ko, hindi ako marunong mang-iwan. Wala akong dapat pagsisihan. Good night Mr. T! Baka san pa mapunta tong entry na toh. Ayoko ng drama. Malapit pa naman ako magbirthday at magpasko. Ayoko maging malungkot. Pero mahirap rin magsiyasiyahan. Magkunwaring walang problema. Alam mo yun? Hay gulo. Anyways, update you soon. Night! :-)

Currently watching: Emergency on GMA
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by jjcobwebb on November 1, 2008 at 12:59 AM in Everyday Drama, Family | Post a comment
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