Kasalanan ni Ryan toh. Sabi niya ibalik ko ang aking mojo. Nagpapakawallflower daw kasi ako. Hahaha. Kakadelete ko lang ng account ko sa Downelink Mr. T! I made one actually and uploaded a pic kanina lang din. Ampness! Kala ko wala na kong mojo. I still have it! Thank God after mawala lahat lahat ng tiwala ko sa sarili ko Mr. T! 74 guys agad nag-add sa kin. 7 nakipagchat. Weee... may ganda pa pala ko. Hahaha! Yun lang! Hahaha! Sorry Mr. T! Nawala kasi tiwala ko sa sarili ko. Alam mo naman kung baket. Sometimes kailangan natin ivalidate sarili natin and we need other people. I still have it Mr. T! Isa lang di ko kayang gawin hanggang ngayon, LUMANDI. Ryan, tips naman diyan! Hahaha! Really, nakalimutan ko na LUMANDI. Ayoko na lumandi...

Sorry Mr. T! Alam mo lahat ng kalandian ko. Saksi ka diyan. Kung anu anong lumabas na pangalan ng lalake dito sa blog ko for the past years. Ako pa rin si Jacob pero hindi na ko si Jacob na parang paru-parong palipat lipat ng bulaklak. Kung naintindihan mo yun Mr. T! Hindi ko na talaga kaya. Or ang laki na rin siguro ng gay network ko? Ewan ko ba. Yung mga single noon, single pa rin sila ngayon. Anong meron sa mundo Mr. T! Choosy na lahat ng tao? Marami ng options? Bigla akong naguluhan sorry. Goodness hindi ko na kilala sarili ko!

Ang random ng entry na toh. Tama si Tom, sobrang parang  hindi na ko si Jacob nung una niya kong nakilala. Baket ganun Mr. T? I want to get that Jacob back. Pero hindi ko na talaga kaya. Sobrang laki naman naging epekto ng mga pangyayari sa kin. Weird. Something is pulling me back. Hindi ko alam kung ano Mr. T! I used to have those accounts here and there. Meet guys here and there. Minsan pa, you know. Suddenly, it's not my thing anymore. Ako ba toh? Or pagod na ko sa mga ganung site dahil I found and lost something I haven't found before. Neenjoy ko dati mga yun. I'm weirded really Mr. T! Hindi ko maexplain. Am I growing up? Baka. Gusto ko na kasi ng seryosohan. Or maybe, I'm just tired of everything gay-world. Pakisampal naman ako...

Currently watching: Spoon on Net 25
Currently feeling: weird
Posted by jjcobwebb on January 10, 2009 at 01:58 AM in Everyday Drama, Gayness, Randomness | 8 comment(s)

nytlyf (guest)

Comment posted on January 12th, 2009 at 11:25 AM
jacob, i'm such a fan talaga of your blogsite and you're unique designs.

now on why i chose this to comment: it's normal that you go through this phase. validation means self-doubt is at its finest. but you have friends, you got us. :) embrace the overwhelming emotions and then when you finally breathe your last thought in mind, then you're ok. make diversions, i know you have lots of them. i did mine back in 2005. it wasn't hard but it wasn't easy at the same time especially when you see happiness around you. though you say you're happy, you're not but you're ok. look friend, just hang on. we're here...seriously. :)

jjcobwebb (guest)

Comment posted on January 12th, 2009 at 05:48 PM
hay naku, salamat allan. nanose bleed namana ko sa comment mo dahil English. Hahaha... pucha muntik ako macomatose! hahaha... pero seriously... i'm okay. hahaha... minsan talaga tinotapak ako at kung anu ano pumapasok sa utak ko. hahaha! thanks thanks :-)
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Comment posted on January 10th, 2009 at 10:30 PM
ei pahabol, mas maganda at mas masarap ung buhay na matahimik...

un lang... :)

jjcobwebb (guest)

Comment posted on January 11th, 2009 at 12:56 PM
thanks thanks mommy. :-)
Comment posted on January 10th, 2009 at 05:02 PM
tingen ko lang ha? kasi nagmamature kana kaya ung mga dati mong ginagawa na tingen mo di masyadong okay ay unconsiously iniiwasan mu ng gawin.

kung nakakabuti naman sayo bakit kailangan mong gawin or balik-balikan ung dati?

anu man yan, i'm so proud of you! mmwaahh! :)

jjcobwebb (guest)

Comment posted on January 10th, 2009 at 05:40 PM
hay naku mother kung alam mo lang. nahihirapan ako. parang ang gulo gulo eh :<
Comment posted on January 10th, 2009 at 10:13 PM
awww...

*hug* kita...

i' just a text away jacob...

jjcobwebb (guest)

Comment posted on January 11th, 2009 at 12:56 PM
yeah. salamat mommy...