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Kinukwentuhan ako ng isang friend kanina about his love story Mr. T! And his love story is so identical to mine. As in parang kinarbon copy. My story was so 3 years ago and kala ko nakalimutan ko na for good and forever yung tao and events etc. But super thanks talaga sa friend na toh, nabuo mga particles na naiwan sa utak ko kanina and yung mga particles na yun naging atom! Buti atom lang di ba? So tinanong ko sarili ko kanina:

"Do people really get over people or they just learn or get used to telling themselves that they're over people? Does moving on mean you're really over the person or are you just telling yourself that you're gonna get over that person?"

Makes me think tuloy. 

It's a weird feeling siguro. Minsan kahit parang masochistic ka na okay lang. Yung tipong nasasaktan ka sa ginagawa niya pero at the same time sumasaya ka naman. Love is so weird. Kahit mga philosphers siguro natatanga pag dating sa love. Pero baket parang minsan the last person you can really trust is yourself? Di ba?

Basta, be happy. Kung masaya ka naman pero nasasaktan ka, tanungin mo sarili mo. Gusto mo bang ganun na lang parati? He's not into you pero lapit ka pa rin ng lapit and nasasaktan ka lang? Aalis ka ba? Pero paano kung masaktan din siya pag umalis ka? Paano na yun? Pero the choice is yours pa rin. Kaninong kasiyahan ba mas matimbang, sa yo or yung sa kanya? Tulad ko, I had no choice but to run away. Pinili ko yung sarili ko. And somehow, nakatulong. Masaya na kong masaya siya ngayon. And kahit matagal akong nakarecover, I felt much better nung lumayo ako. I don't know. It really depends siguro sa tao yun. :)  Ang mahalaga naman ay kung naging tunay kang masaya. At least naramdaman mo yun kahit hindi nagwork out. :) Hay...

Hahaha... while talking to this friend din kanina, naalala ko tuloy paborito ko dating kantahin nung mga panahong yun. And the song goes:

"And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am"

-Goo Goo Dolls

Well... emo mode! Hahaha... don't worry... I'm super fine. :D