Trinoma With Chris Pt. 5
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Ang bilis no Mr. T! Everything will end where it all started. Kung titignan mo, parang mas mahaba pa naging relasyon namin ni Chris kesa sa ex niya. Yun nga lang, hindi naman naging kami. It was one of those nights I needed a closure. Jeffrey and I chatted about it last night and yeah, I thought about closing whatever Chris and I had. Siguro ganun talaga minsan Mr. T! It's inevitable. Hindi naman ako laging isip bata. Marunong ako humawak ng mga bagay na sa kin at hindi sa kin. Marunong akong tanggapin mga bagay na hindi nararapat at nararapat sa kin. Kung ano mang dahilan hindi na mahalaga Mr. T! I wanted to end everything between me and Chris on a sweet note. Yun naman ang gusto niya eh. He was the one who started the ignoring, not me.
Texted Chris and invited him for dinner. I was thinking of Trinoma. Good thing he was in Trinoma Mr. T! Shopping for clothes. So I went there. After a month of not talking to each other, parang wala lang. Pinabuhat niya sa kin bag niya nung nagfifit siya, pinacomment niya ko sa damit na pinili niya. Parang wala lang. Then we had dinner as soon as nakabili na siya. As usual at first we can't decide kung san kakain pero sa Cabalen kami nauw. Eat all you can na naman.
Then we talked. Sinabi ko lahat ng gusto ko sabihin. Tahimik pa rin si Chris Mr. T! Sanay na ko. Tawa lang siya ng tawa sa lahat ng sinasabi ko. Ganun naman yun eh, pero okay lang. Lahat naman ng gusto ko sabihin nasabi ko na kay Chris. Hanggang dun na lang talaga lahat Mr. T! Pero mahal ko si Chris. I know. May lugar siya sa puso ko kahit ano ang mangyari. Tulad nung kanta, "Iisa pa lamang ang minahal ko ng ganito...". I know someday, magkakabalikan sila ni Fred and I'll be happy. I'm too gay for him too, that's a fact. He wouldn't be parading his profile on gay sites if he wasn't looking for some masculine or whatever acting gay he's looking for. The ride was worth the fall Mr. T! Then it was late. May pasok kinabukasan. We had to leave. Nagcab si Chris sa harap ng SM North and ako nilakad ko pa til other side ng EDSA. I rode a non-airconditioned bus. Marami na nangyari. I can't ask for more. All I wanted this year was Chris to be mine, and I be his. Never na mangyayari yun Mr. T! Ngayon, ang kailangan ko na lang malaman, eh kung hanggang friends na lang ba talaga kami. I'll let my birthday pass first before I ask him that. And if he says friends is all we'll ever be, I'll never fall in love with him again. I know how, I've been there, and done that. I don't want ellipses, I want a period. Good night Mr. T! :-)