We’ve been going out for 5 months now and up until now, I don’t know where you stand. Worse, where I stand. It’s funny because I like you. Yep, I like you but something’s holding me back. I think I’m beginning to love you… beginning to but not yet. I love going out with you but sometimes I can’t stand you when we’re together. I like talking with you and I miss you badly when we don’t see each other. What the hell is wrong with me? Do I really like you or do I just love the idea of someone being there for me? I am really confused. 

I remember how you used to irritate me when we first became friends. I didn’t like talking with you. I didn’t care for your text messages. I get annoyed when you can’t decide where and what to do when we’re together. But you know what, it’s amazing when all of a sudden I was the one doing those things for you. It’s a sudden twist in the story. How you put so much effort just to get my attention. Well, yeah, congratulations! You sure did. Now, it seems that I’m the one running after you. Did you plan this to happen? Because if you did, you did it very well.

I don’t know where these things will lead. You promised me that you will never ever leave me and I told you that I will hold on to that. But you know what, I suddenly remembered somebody promised me things too. I’ll hold on to what you said but please don’t blame me if at the back of my mind the phrase “promises are meant to be broken” is blinking. One reason I’m holding back is that I’ve been through all this before. I like you but I don’t know where I stand and where you stand. Let’s just be happy with what we have. In time we’ll get the answers. I’m still a little protective about the people that I invite in my life. I understand your reasons. But please understand me too…