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Yesternight, I was able to chat with a long time friend. He just got from a broken relationship --- again. So here's what we talked about:

Jacob   : So I heard...
Friend  : Yeah, sad pero kailangang magmove on...
Jacob   : Kelan pa? Ilang months din kayo?
Friend  : Last week pa. Matagal ko ng gustong hiwalayan. 5 months na walang kabuluhan.
Jacob   : Eh bat last week lang kayo nagbreak? San mo nga ulit siya nameet?
Friend  : Sa Bed kami nagkakilala. Well, kinalikot ko phone niya and yun. May nilalanding nameet niya sa Bed din...
Jacob   : Aw aw aw! Sakit! Amp! Kumusta ka na?
Friend  : Eto, moving on. Wala na kong balak pa siyang kausapin...
Jacob   : Feel mo ba matagal niya ng ginagawa yun?
Friend  : Yeah, when a message is dated August, matagal na nga...
Jacob   : Tsk. Inis! So I heard, may mga account ka na naman kung san san...
Friend  : Hahaha... kanino mo naman nalaman yan?
Jacob   : Kung san san. Naghahanap ng rebound?
Friend  : Hindi naman. Friends lang...
Jacob   : Sus! May friends ka naman! Lokohin mo lelang mo!
Friend  : Shet ka talaga! Oo naghahanap ako ng bagong jowa!
Jacob   : See. Sana pagnagkajowa ka jan sa Downe, hindi siya manlandi rin ng iba sa Downe! Hahaha...
Friend  : Sige na Jacob malinis ka na! Ina ka! Hahaha!

When people are coming from broken romantic relationships, they run to the nearest networking sites and find a new prospect. Hahaha! Aminin man nila or hindi. They're out there to find a rebound. Hahaha!

I don't know how it feels to be a rebound. But my friends tell me I've been one many times. Probably. Maybe. I don't know.

Things that are happening right now, I've had them all before. Things I want to have right now, I've had them as close as this before. I might be funny and bubbly and all. I joke about things and pretend that I really don't care. Actually, it's killing me inside and I just don't wanna show it. My emotions are overflowing but I just don't wanna let them out. I've been to hell and back and back again. Lived and died and I don't care if I die again. There's just no way I'll be burned again --- I'm burnt...

But sometimes, I ask myself how I'm gonna deal with things in a situation like this. My inner consciousness will tell me that I've been through all this before. And when this all ends, I'll be hurt yes. I will flee yes. I will recover yes. I'll do the same mistakes again yes. And most especially, I won't have what I've always wanted to have --- again... :-) 

It's like that I guess...