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And can make you jealous. Not because of a person. Not because of somebody. I'm jealous of what other people have.  Not material things, but what THEY have. I want what they have.

Bored to death here in the office, I was browsing some people's Multiply site. Clicked on updates and new albums and suddenly, I wanted to have what they're having. I want to be as happy. I want to be as sweet. I want to be as caring. I want to be in love like them. I want what they have. Not them, but what they have. Goodness and I told myself NO TIME TO CRY but I really can't help it. I'm a sucker with these kinds stuff Mr. T!.

Their parents know about their relationship and they're fine with it. They visit each other's houses. Their respective families treat each one of them as sons. They're both accepted. Oh my goodness THAT'S LIKE HEAVEN.

I want to care and be cared for. I want to love and be loved in return. I want to be sweet and them sweet towards me too. I want to be needed like I need them. I WANT THAT!!! I never had that. Okay I'm sad... :-(

Surely, this is not what I really want, but I can't do anything about it. But if it makes me happy, then I'll let it be...

Someday, somewhere, sometime I'll have what they have...