jjcobwebb

It hurts really bad. If you still can't see my worth, then I don't know what's going on with you. I've been on your side for almost 6 months now and still I can't see signs that we could be together. Some of my questions are even left unanswered. I've already accepted that it's hard for you to open up and even express how you feel. Maybe I'm really not good enough for you. Maybe you're still not over him and you still love him. Or maybe you're still waiting for something better. I'm sorry I don't have anything to offer and I'm sorry but I don't have the right to feel what I'm feeling right now. You're not even mine. Tell me how to stop these tears from falling? Maybe I was trying to love you the way I want you to love me. Do you even love me? Less like? Or maybe I did not try so hard to please you or make you feel special. You know I changed a lot because of you. You might not feel it but I did. I've learned a lot from you. You might not know it but I did. You changed me. I'm not the same person I knew before you met me. I ain't selfish no more. I ain't impatient no more. I learned to appreciate myself and the things around me. I learned to appreciate silence because of you. I learned the word trust. You made me think my age. You made me realize I'm capable of loving again. You made me new again. You completed me again. You made me feel special again. You're one of the best things that happened to me. You're the reason why now I'm frozen to those people who want me. You made me happy. You even made me sad and cry. You made me laugh until I ran out of breath. You made me angry til I'm red. You made me jealous and it killed me a lot of times. All these emotions combined are the reasons why I like you, love you. But most of all, you're you, that's why I like you, love you. Maybe these things are all in my mind. Maybe I'm just making them up. But one thing I know for sure is true, I love you --- yes I do. That's all I can give you and I'm gonna keep waiting until you realize you love me too. Nobody's taking me away. I'm really sorry for holding you tight...